Leaving the limitations of our mind and entering the vast microcosm of our inner world of evolving consciousness can be a frightful thought. Is there something hidden I am not aware of? What if I can’t control it? What if I discover a deep inner darkness? What if I can’t connect at all? What if I get rejected? What if I am not worthy? What if …
Granted, not everyone is interested in evolving his/her consciousness, but to a degree we are all curious about the mechanics of consciousness and especially the occasional energetic perceptions we experience in our daily life. One does not have to be a devoted spiritual seeker to be interested to go beyond the mind.
A funny thing I observed lately is the trendy use of the word ‘mindfulness’. So many new organizations and businesses promote their services with mindfulness… as if we don’t already have a mind full of ego stuff! They even encourage the ‘Power of the Mind’ for self-healing and manifesting! Isn’t this an interesting twist to get our ego-mind to buy into the preservation of its control?
Those of you who can feel this meme in this attempt to divert the arising desire to go beyond their ego’s perception understand that this is actually showing how the controller-matrix is trying to prevent the collective evolution of human consciousness. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t mean to encourage conspiracy theories, but these and other coveted developments in the spiritual/new age business can be quite misleading, as they can trick our ego into believing we are doing spiritual work, while we are guided back to the dependency on our insatiable ego-drive for power and specialness.
Without an awakened inner divine connection and a discipline of fostering inner discernment through the heart, it can be quite difficult to see the difference. In this following Field Report I would like to share the practical aspects of facing fears and resistances while actively working on connecting with our True Self and how non-religious and practical spiritual work can look like.
Field Report “CONNECTING WITH TRUE SELF” Remote Energy transMISSION
Being attracted to experiencing or experimenting with your inner consciousness can be way more significant than we may consider when deciding to register for this monthly free public session. Not to make this work special or elevate our participants’ choices; but the fact that a part of us is resonating with the ‘Connect with your True Self’ message is showing us that our True Self is already prompting us to into its direction.
On our personal level, it is our intention to connect with our True Self that ignites the always present and eternal Divine Spark in us, but on a larger scale it does even more - it initiates a better understanding of Oneness and the direct experience of connectedness
Each and every one of us who enters the discovery process of their inner connection with God/Divinity through their heart automatically becomes a beacon of light for others – without having to do anything!
When it comes to supporting the evolution of human consciousness our inner connection and the transformation that we experience is way more effective than trying to fight against the system! Even if you are at the very beginning on your journey of discovering who you truly are, know that your changing energetic resonance is already contributing to a revolutionary evolution!
Looking at consciousness work from this larger perspective is quite important, especially when assessing our subjective experiences during inner consciousness work. Our intention to improve or increase our inner connection will lead to experiencing and internalizing our higher consciousness. It will not only help us to expand our spiritual understanding but more importantly help us to become familiar with existing outside of our conditioned and often programmed limitations of our ego-mind.
While it can often feel that way, our ego-mind is not the enemy! Fears of traversing uncharted inner territory are natural and part of our collective and karmic programming. Therefore, when entering the realm of inner connection it is necessary to connect with the empathy and compassion of our heart to understand our subtle (or sometimes not so subtle) inner resistances, doubts, feelings of unworthiness or outright fears of punishment or anger. Inner resistances cannot be judged but need to be seen as initial adjustment to accepting and allowing our much larger existence as light-being. Try to look at them at inner hints, signals or promptings as to where inner healing or balancing work is needed.
Most of all, be patient with yourself! If you haven’t really been encouraged to or guided on how to mediate, contemplate or seek the inner silence, it is understandable to feel somewhat uncomfortable at first. It is very common to fall asleep, become restless or even mistake your mind as your True Self when still getting used to spending time with yourself in this way! Overcoming the ongoing stream of our thinkingness is often the toughest hurdle and easier said than done – but can be learned!
The Ego is just a subroutine of your mind’s construct, and our mind is a subroutine to our consciousness. Without your consciousness you wouldn’t be able to observe your mind. Therefore, reaching the state inner silence to that inner divine connection can be experienced is mainly just a matter of disciplining your mind a bit. Through your heart-felt intention you can activate the power of your consciousness to overwrite the fear and negativity of your ego-mind. It is the key to entering your Divine Consciousness.
The trick to getting over the noisy overlay of your mental chatter is to insist on wanting to feel your heart, but not by resisting your mind but by changing your focus elsewhere – your heart center – the gateway to your Inner divinity!
All this may take a little bit of practice at first, but in essence it’s nothing but an exercise in inner focus. If you lose focus go back and refocus, even if it takes a while for you to get settled in your inner silence! The purpose of learning such a discipline is of utmost importance when dealing with the challenges of the inner and outer worlds of energy and energetic perception. Not only does it train your energy system to overcome inner negativity and helps to relax and distress your physical body, it also allows you to directly experience your energetic frequency. Later this ability to hold your inner focus will facilitate your ability to consciously change your overall energetic alignment and with it your manifestation of optimal health and wealth in your life.
Energetically seen, our Ego-Field is a small part of our entire Energy System. While it can dominate our perception through emotional, mental and physical reactivity, it still is just one layer of our total energetic make-up. Without training in inner connection we cannot differentiate between ego thoughts and inner guidance; external manipulation and inner truth. Our ego doesn’t have the ability to discern between true and false! Its purpose is securing our physical, emotional and mental survival but not our spiritual or emotional intelligence – and definitely not our independence through consciousness development.
The ego sees itself as the only authority commanding over our survival – in its limited view it sees itself as our God (dingdong!) – qualitative or energetic aspects of our existence are not of its concern!
So, while we need our ego for some of our basic human functionality, the objective of re-connecting with our True Self is to evolve past those basics and hand over our overall well-being back to the authority of our Inner Divinity/True Self.
Reconnecting with our Inner Divine Qualities means aligning ourselves to the inner feeling of:
Naturally, this often implies a period of removing and clearing existing
Ego Programming and Control Mechanisms:
Fear of Loss
Coldness of the Mind etc.,
Protection and Coping Mechanisms:
Inner Placeholders and Mouthpieces:
Critical Inner Voice
Needless to say that this doesn’t always go without resistance or even inner battle...
However, the point going beyond the fear of our mind to lose control is to bypass and supersede our Ego rather than fighting it. Inner battles and conflicts only cement our inner barriers (such as a block between our Solar-Plexus and Heart Chakra). Therefore, it doesn’t make sense to promote the inner split of Ego-Mind vs. Inner Divinity.
The pathway to transcending our inner schisms is to integrate our ego’s means of perception (body, thoughts and emotions) with a heart-based higher perception (feelings, knowingness, remembrance, inner guidance). Practiced with this attitude it allows us to experience our higher consciousness in co-existence with our physical embodiment and all its unhealed inner aspects. With a little energetic training and the willingness to expand our consciousness we will be guided to new levels of health, emotional intelligence, deeper understanding and spiritual maturity.
As for our session, the main theme was overcoming the fear of going into our deeper connection. Whatever we associate with ‘going deeper’ it seemed to trigger some of our resistance to become independent while still feeling connected with others. Depending on our level of practice and comfort with our inner worlds, this played out with different physical and energetic sensations during the transMISSION. The main sensation was a persistent heart-expansion pain and a strong pulse/heat from time to time.
If claiming your spiritual sovereignty and commanding inner Truth are still somewhat new to you; say because of religious training, externalizing your inner higher power to others (partners, teachers, parents, society, etc), feelings of unworthiness or general insecurity as to how to connect, know that your courage and inner attitude play a key role for connecting with your True Self! Your inner connection is your birthright! Nobody and nothing can take it away from you! You have the right to connect and experience your true you at any time! Claim it!
The only thing in the way of evolving your consciousness is your mind’s set of beliefs, views and your unresolved inner pain. They make up the clouds that cover your inner divine light with fear and keep your inner higher power hidden underneath your inner darkness.
Don’t let this discourage you! If you keep falling asleep, can’t sit still during your mediation or get stuck in your mind or emotion, don’t give up on your ability to go farther! Continue to practice this discipline on your own and allow your True Self to prompt and guide you through the initial hurdles!