The Threadkeeper Sara Story: From Treatment-Resistant Depression to Joyful Motherhood
Colorado Psychedelic Church Podcast
Release Date: 02/21/2026
The Rob K. Story: Awe Without Dogma
Colorado Psychedelic Church Podcast
What happens when someone who identifies as an atheist… and someone who leads a psychedelic church… sit down and actually listen to each other? In this conversation, ThreadKeeper Sarah is joined by community member Rob K., who shares his journey from isolation, anxiety, and persistent shame… into something quieter, lighter, and more grounded. Before finding the Colorado Psychedelic Church, Rob describes living in a constant mental loop — replaying guilt, anticipating conflict, and feeling stuck in what he calls “ruts” of thought. Despite years of self-study and introspection,...
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Sermon: What the Sacrament Changed in Us
Colorado Psychedelic Church Podcast
With Dez out sick, ThreadKeeper Sarah steps in to lead a very different kind of Tuesday night gathering… one built not around teaching, but around testimony. Instead of defining sacrament in abstract terms, the community turns toward story. Why do people keep showing up on Tuesday nights? Why does sacrament matter enough to build a spiritual practice around it? What happened in these journeys that could not have happened any other way? Sarah opens the evening by inviting everyone to reflect on the moments that changed them… the visions, memories, emotional breakthroughs, releases, and...
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The Olaz Story: The Mushroom That Broke Me—and Healed Me
Colorado Psychedelic Church Podcast
In this deeply personal conversation, Bahn Fasa Maya sits down with Olaz, Chief Mycologist of the Colorado Psychedelic Church, to trace the long and painful road that brought him to the medicine. What begins as a story about curiosity and early psychedelic exploration quickly becomes something much heavier. Olaz shares how LSD first opened the door to wonder, how mushrooms remained elusive for years, and how a single catastrophic high-dose mushroom experience changed everything. What he expected to be enlightenment became terror, confusion, trauma, and years of fear around the medicine that...
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Sermon: The Spirit of Sacrament-Cannabis, Mushrooms, and DMT
Colorado Psychedelic Church Podcast
What actually makes something… sacred? In this sermon and follow-up conversation, we explore the difference between casual use and true sacrament… and why intention, acknowledgment, and relationship change everything. This episode brings together three perspectives from within the Colorado Psychedelic Church: A sermon on the nature of entheogens and sacred compounds A breakout teaching on mushrooms and intentional practice A recap conversation with clergy on cannabis and DMT Together, they point toward one central idea: These substances...
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The Ash Story: Where Art, Sacrament, and Spirit Meet
Colorado Psychedelic Church Podcast
This conversation with Ash… also known as Mascus… is about far more than art. It’s about what happens when someone pours spirit into color, character, music, and creation… and then finds a community that actually sees it. Ash shares the long arc of being an artist from the very beginning of life, the strange and beautiful influences that shaped their style, and the way their inner world became populated with vivid beings, protectors, singers, painters, and living symbols of connection. That energy now lives inside the Colorado Psychedelic Church’s art cards… not just as decoration,...
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Sermon: What Does It Mean to Pray When You Are Divine?
Colorado Psychedelic Church Podcast
What happens when you stop looking up… and realize the divine is already within you? That shift changes everything—including prayer. Dez opens with a challenge to rethink what prayer actually is. Not begging. Not empty words. Not something directed at a distant force. If you are divine, then prayer isn’t about asking—it’s about acting. It’s the way you care for yourself. The way you show up for others. The way you move through the world with intention. Prayer becomes something lived. From there, Farmacist Castle takes it deeper in a breakout discussion… stripping prayer down to...
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Two Journeys: Thaumaturgist Julian’s Path and Sam’s Breakthrough
Colorado Psychedelic Church Podcast
This conversation unfolds in two powerful movements… first, a behind-the-scenes look at Thaumaturgist Julian’s journey into DMT work, and second, a firsthand account of the kind of healing that can emerge when someone steps fully into the experience. Dez sits down with Julian to explore how an intense and overwhelming early encounter with DMT became a turning point—not just personally, but in shaping how he now supports others. What began as disorientation and ego dissolution evolved into clarity, discipline, and a deep respect for the responsibility of facilitation. From there, the...
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Sermon: Humility in Divinity
Colorado Psychedelic Church Podcast
In this sermon, Teopixqui Dez explores a powerful idea at the heart of the Colorado Psychedelic Church’s philosophy: the creation of a “divine us.” While each individual carries their own divinity, something extraordinary happens when people come together in community. The collective energy, care, responsibility, and time shared among individuals can create something larger than any one person — a force capable of healing, strengthening, and even saving lives. But Dez also reminds the congregation that divinity requires humility. Passion without grounding can become destructive,...
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The Bahn Fasa Maya, Bondsmith Rich, and Pa’Dré Stories
Colorado Psychedelic Church Podcast
In this special episode of the Colorado Psychedelic Church Podcast, Teopixqui Dez and Bondsmith Rich sit down with three rising leaders in the community — Bahn Fasa Maya, Bondsmith Rich, and Pa’Dré — to explore what brought them to the church, what healing they found here, and what it means to step into clergy. From depression and isolation to belonging and purpose, each story reveals a different path into the PACK Life community. Maya shares how mushrooms brought her through the door, but people brought her back. Rich reflects on finding safety, self-reverence, and home in community....
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Sermon: Animism and the Divinity Around Us
Colorado Psychedelic Church Podcast
In this opening sermon of the March series, Teopixqui Dez begins a month-long exploration into the question: Where does the divine exist? At the Colorado Psychedelic Church, one of the foundational truths is that each person carries divinity within themselves. But if that’s true, Dez asks a deeper question — how far does that divinity extend? Through a thought experiment centered on animism, the belief that all things possess a soul, the community explores whether divinity might exist not only within humans, but also within animals, insects, mountains, rivers, and even stones....
info_outlineIn this powerful and deeply human conversation, Teopixqui Dez sits down with Threadkeeper Sara: clergy member, mother of two, substitute teacher, and self-described “soccer mom unicorn.” Sara shares her journey through treatment-resistant depression, the trauma that shaped it, and the moment she realized her children were learning to accept sadness because she had. Through psychedelic-assisted therapy and intentional community integration, she reclaimed her joy, her purpose, and her role as the mother her daughters deserved. This episode is an honest exploration of healing, parenting, transparency, and the power of community to carry what feels unbearable alone.
In This Episode:
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Sara’s 10-year battle with treatment-resistant depression
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The realization that her children were modeling her despair
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Why she says psychedelic therapy was “cheaper than a coffin”
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Healing trauma by revisiting memories without emotional charge
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The four-month gap between therapy and finding community
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Why integration is just as important as the journey itself
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Experiencing anxiety differently through shared support
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Parenting and entheogens — safety, boundaries, and honesty
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Talking to children about psychedelics in age-appropriate ways
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Returning to work and choosing transparency about her faith
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Losing extended family members who could not accept her healing
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Hosting family events in a psychedelic church space
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Parenting from joy instead of desperation
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Why children deserve a healed version of us
About Threadkeeper Sara
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Clergy member at Colorado Psychedelic Church
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Co-leads Sisterhood gatherings
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Hosts family events
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Mother of two daughters (ages 9 and 11)
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Advocate for safe, responsible entheogen use and community integration
About the Colorado Psychedelic Church
Website: coloradopsychedelicchurch.com
Location: Colorado Springs
Weekly sermons, Sisterhood, clergy-led gatherings, family events, and integration-focused community.
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