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I Have Bipolar Disorder

Angus Eye Tea: Anxiety, Depression, And Other Cheerful Topics

Release Date: 02/17/2021

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Angus Eye Tea: Anxiety, Depression, And Other Cheerful Topics

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Hey there, Heifer, and welcome to Angus Eye Tea - the podcast all about anxiety, depression, and now, BIPOLAR DISORDER! WEEEEEEE! Yes, you’ve been punk’d for over a year now, SUCKER. All jokes aside, a little over a year ago, I saw a psychiatrist for the first time and when she put the sorting hat on me, it yelled out “bipolar.” There’s been a lot of changes in my life, as you can imagine, and just when everything was leveling out for me, the pandemic hit. This is kind of a scary episode for me to post because I don’t know how people will react. I don’t know if this will affect...

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Hey there, Heifer, and welcome to Angus Eye Tea - the podcast all about anxiety, depression, and now, BIPOLAR DISORDER! WEEEEEEE! Yes, you’ve been punk’d for over a year now, SUCKER. All jokes aside, a little over a year ago, I saw a psychiatrist for the first time and when she put the sorting hat on me, it yelled out “bipolar.” There’s been a lot of changes in my life, as you can imagine, and just when everything was leveling out for me, the pandemic hit. This is kind of a scary episode for me to post because I don’t know how people will react. I don’t know if this will affect any opportunities for me in the future, like if future friends/coworkers learn I’m bipolar and decide to stay away from me. I wouldn’t want to hang out with those people anyway but you get the picture. I don’t want to become a terrifying demon because I’m bipolar - I’d like to earn that right fair and square!

I’m excited to talk to you more about my experiences with bipolar disorder. Thank you for all of your support. It means the world to me. <3

Moo,

Elaine

TIMESTAMPS

00:00 SURPRISE! I HAVE BIPOLAR DISORDER. 

01:00 Why I didn’t tell you earlier.

05:30 How I learned I was bipolar and came to grips with it

10:50 Giving an *unprofessional* breakdown on the differences between my ol’ anxiety/depression and my bipolar disorder. Here are some resources that speak better on the ins-and-outs of this mental health fun:

What is Bipolar Disorder? - Katie Morton

National Alliance on Mental Health (NAMI)

21:10 That good ol’ medication change I was talking about and how it’s changed my life.

22:30 I feel like I’m finally getting to be me.

25:02 So, what does this mean for you and me?

28:40 I say “thank you” about 50 times and it’s a bit much.

30:13 Outro!

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I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with an anxiety and depression disorder (and now bipolar!). Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a resources page on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at https://anguseyetea.com/resources/