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Episode 44: Boldly Into The Darkness (2 of 4)

My Spouse Died Too

Release Date: 03/16/2021

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Barry’s face glows with promise and hope when he explains what one thing he’s working on—building the rest of his life around—where he finds meaning and beauty. You’ll also hear about Barry’s ninety-day date-cycle. How Barry landed on the roof of a barn. The frustration of six first dates (and no 2nd dates), and what Barry thinks it reveals. How much should you share on a first date—like a liver transplant? Dark humor for coping. When to go dutch--this might surprise you. How Barry manages deep dark depression with this life or death trade-off. And plenty more. Bulletasos How...

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Widower poet Barry Johnson returns! I first met Barry when we recorded about a year ago. Just four months before we recorded, Barry was almost dead. Three months before that recording, Barry’s life was saved by a liver transplant. In this episode, Barry makes a confession—I urge you to listen with compassion and empathy. Barry bares his heart about his depression-where it comes from-rough stuff. Is Barry still pissed at God? How work helps Barry cope. Barry reads his poem. And Barry’s personal demon: being unworthy of love. And lots more. Bullets Feeling Good, Finally New Pony Tail...

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What I’ve learned by doing more than fifty My Spouse Died Too podcast episodes. Not all-inclusive, just a taste of what I’ve discovered by talking for hours and hours with courageous widowed guest co-hosts. You’ll hear my self-accusations, personality quirks, views on life and death. How I make deeper connections with just about anybody. How to find gold in a conversation. How to listen better. And I’ll suggest a resource, if you take simple action, quickly changes your life in a profound way.  And more. Bulletos What I Learned My Spouse's Death Seems So Long Ago People Die...

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Widowed at twenty-eight, Tawny Platis is the queen of dead husband jokes. Tawny is a comedian, voice actor, and host of the podcast Death Is Hilarious. Tawny’s podcast explores how comedians and creatives use comedy and dark humor to cope with grief and trauma through storytelling and jokes. In this episode, Tawny discusses her botched suicide plan.  Why laughter is like her heroin. PSDD--Post Spousal Death Disorder. Pennsylvania Serah (she’s a lifesaver). Covid isolation perils. Bumble and honest dating profile advice. Tawny thinks something is wrong with her because the same evening...

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The Rebellious Widow Jill Johnson-Young packs this final episode with personal experience and generous professional advice. What you’ll discover… Stacie the Mortician—Jill’s new (and current) love connection. The reticent minister who refused to officiate Jill’s next wedding, and the baseless reasons why. Jill has a stroke on tax day—A real one. Will you grieve forever? What I was wrong about (it has to do with grieving forever). How to be like ninety-nine-year-old actress Betty White (she was widowed 40 years ago and hasn’t remarried)—or how to be like Jill with the courage,...

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Part 2 of The Rebellious Widow with guest co-host, twice-widowed author, therapist, Mom, and entrepreneur Jill Johnson-Young, LCSW. Taste Part 2: How Casper comes back into the scene and what she asked Jill's Mom. How to break the widow rules so you can live life on your terms without guilt and shame. The three-page bucket List. Introducing your dead spouse. Finishing relationships—how a therapist helps you. People uncomfortable with death: which friends or family suddenly disappeared? The Snow Goose Dress—the things you’ll wear for a dying loved one. Anticipatory Grief—when your grief...

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Jill Johnson-Young guest co-hosts. Jill is an internationally known grief therapist, Mom, author, entrepreneur, and LCSW (Licensed Clinical Social Worker). While in her 40’s, Jill lost her first wife Linda. Then, Jill lost her second wife Casper. Casper was first wife Linda’s hospice nurse. And now, Jill is married to her third wife Stacie. Stacie is the mortician who cared for both Linda and Casper. Reread and wrap your mind around that! But that’s not all… Jill is a Licensed Clinical Social Worker. In her own trial by fire, what surprised Jill is how popular conventional grief...

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Got psychotherapy? Freud’s field day on the couch. Tim revisits a childhood memory. Over and over and over. The last time we made love. Tim recollects. Covid loneliness. Emeric struggles. The first thing you should do each morning, no matter what. Prescribed by a world-renowned clinical psychologist and a Navy Seal. Let’s talk codependence. Cooking for One, Eating for Two. Emeric lives alone now, and it's not so easy, yet. Tim's late spouse Donna's last written word, and more. If you haven’t listened to parts 1, 2, and 3, listen to those first. Links: Tim's prior guest host episode...

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Three and a Half Years Since (3 of 4). The marriage question—are you all in? I wonder why my widowed friends say they’ll never marry again. And does that mean they’ll never be 100% “all-in” on any relationship? Who was sleeping with the librarian? Three and a half years since Donna died, what’s Tim’s identity now? After your spouse died you’re invited to a wedding. But now the invitation says You and guest. Gut punch? Is Tim still pissed at God? Woo Woo? Tim explains how he senses his late spouse Donna’s presence. Tim examines why it makes more sense—he should have died...

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Three and a Half Years Since (2 of 4). How not to end a relationship—Never do this chicken shyt thing. Was I right to be judgy? Why Tim mourned after his very first date. SCIENCE! The science of dating: Got chemistry? When will your family be ready to see you with another woman or man? Tim’s 30-year-old adult kid says she’s not ready. Hear what Tim says about this. Are you afraid to die? Not enough words from my Indian tribe—am I talking on borrowed time? Why are you here? (on Earth) Plus more. If you haven’t listened to part 1, listen to that first. Here’s the link: Tim's prior...

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Welcome to part 2 of Boldly Into the Darkness, with the widowed author of Boldly Into the Darkness Autumn Toelle-Jackson.

We pick up right where we left off from part 1. If you haven't listened to part 1, please do that first otherwise you'll miss a critical part of Autumn's story.

In this episode, we examine self-imposed grief starvation and Autumn's shocking weight loss.

Intimate suicide discussion. Do you have permission to live a life well-lived?

Why killing Grandma is funny.

The crazy giant hole in Autumn's memory.

Autumn discovers a fountain of hope and healing from an often misinterpreted ancient wisdom.

Functioning with chaos: The most important thing you can control even if you can't control anything else.

Stupid shyt people say to you.

Why do funeral homes dim the lights?

Why it's okay to be mad at God (only works if you believe in God).  

Is there an easy way to get out of love where everybody ends up being happy with it? And so much more.

Bulletinis-Too Many!

  • Crazy Giant Memory Hole
  • The Stoics (not a punk band)
  • Can You Control You?
  • Small Town Quirks
  • Stupid Shyt People Say
  • Closure? LOL
  • Molded by Tragedy
  • Why Funeral Homes Dim the Lights
  • God's Plan Wasn't Mine
  • Be Mad at God
  • Killing Grandma Ruth
  • Not the Same as Suicide
  • My Recognizable Car
  • Nowhere to Hide
  • Escape to The Coast
  • The Pleasing Room
  • Nature Claims
  • How to Stall Your Grief
  • Age of Indestructibility
  • Choosing Happiness
  • Fear of Pain
  • No Easy Way Out of Love

Thank you for listening. Join us for part 2 of 4 with Autumn Toelle-Jackson.

Winner of the Illumination Book Awards' 2021 Silver Medal.

Autumn's memoir Boldly Into The Darkness: Living with Loss, Growing with Grief & Holding onto Happiness can be purchased at her website https://www.GrowingwithGrief.com (Includes grief resources as well as merchandise and the book.

Ebook: https://books2read.com/BoldlyintotheDarkness 

Paperback: Available at your local independent bookstore.

Also available through Amazon.


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