Angus Eye Tea: Anxiety, Depression, And Other Cheerful Topics
The no bull podcast about all things anxiety, depression & other cheerful topics. New episodes every Wednesday.
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The Problem with Trying to “Make Up” for Your Mental Health Disorder
05/04/2022
The Problem with Trying to “Make Up” for Your Mental Health Disorder
Hey, Heifers! I tend to take on a lot. Like, a lot. And usually all at once. Upon reflection, I realized that I do this to somehow “make up” for my bipolar disorder. It’s a battle against it, in a way. “See? I can do it all still and even MORE on top of it! You can’t stop me!” Unfortunately, this means that I take on too much, I burn out, and get frustrated. Maybe it’s a form of denial, or maybe it’s me trying to prove myself to others (others who, for clarification, don’t exist). I look forward to our lovely chat today, Heifers! Moo, Elaine *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! Follow me on and @AngusEyeTea. Email: You can find the show notes for this episode at . I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at
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“It gets better,” but what about right now?
04/06/2022
“It gets better,” but what about right now?
Hey, Heifers! It’s advice we’ve all received at some point or another. “It gets better.” And while I do believe things usually get better with time–situations change, people grow, opportunities come and go–I know that it’s a phrase that can feel useless when you’re going through it in the moment. I wanted to mull this over with y’all and try to find a way we can use “it gets better” that doesn’t feel like an impossible pipe dream. As a reminder, y’all are truly the best. Thanks for coming on this journey with me <3. Moo, Elaine *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! Follow me on and @AngusEyeTea. Email: You can find the show notes for this episode at . I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at
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Purposeful Couch Potato: Why You Should Be Lazy
03/02/2022
Purposeful Couch Potato: Why You Should Be Lazy
Hey Heifers! I was featured in an article recently as one of the ! And I feel pod-validated enough that, yes, I have published two consecutive episodes. But don’t get it twisted–I am still a firm believer in allowing laziness into your life, which is today’s topic! Maybe we don’t always need to be go, go, go. Moo, Elaine *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! Follow me on and @AngusEyeTea. Email: You can find the show notes for this episode at . I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at
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Why I’m saying “Eh” to Setting Goals for 2022
02/23/2022
Why I’m saying “Eh” to Setting Goals for 2022
I know, I know. I am the goal-setting queen. I had a whole goal-setting series at one point. I’ve had planners–sometimes multiple ones at the same time. I’ve made dream boards. I’ve downloaded apps. I did yearly, quarterly, and monthly tarot spreads. I was that goal-setting heifer. But I’m not trying anything for 2022. It’s (hopefully!) less depressing than it seems, which I talk about in this episode. Let's be lazy and have a lovely chat, Heifers! Moo, Elaine *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! Follow me on and @AngusEyeTea. Email: You can find the show notes for this episode at . I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at
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How to Neglect the Things That Make You Happy :)
02/02/2022
How to Neglect the Things That Make You Happy :)
Hey, Heifers! Life can be busy, and when things pick up, it’s easy to let hobbies or things that don’t keep a roof over your head fall to the wayside. It’s no secret that I’ve had a rough go of it, and then a good go of it, and then just . . . a LOT of IT. (The “it” mostly being a mega to-do list that keeps refreshing). Doing this podcast is sometimes like therapy in that it’s good for me to reflect on my life. But, like therapy, sometimes I don’t want to think about my life lol. I’ve come back and I’m going to do things differently from here on out! Thank you for listening, dear Heifers <3. Moo, Elaine If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! Follow me on and @AngusEyeTea. Email: You can find the show notes for this episode at . I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at
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The Ungodly Horror of Gift Giving and Receiving
12/24/2021
The Ungodly Horror of Gift Giving and Receiving
Hey, Heifers! MERRY CHRISTMAS. If you get stressed about getting gifts or giving gifts then you are not alone, my friend! I tend to get VERY stressed about this, soooo I did a whole episode on it beeboobop it’s 1:38 a.m. and I edited this in my childhood bedroom so it’s a weird vibe mmk HOLLY JOLLY HEIFER MOOS. Moo, Elaine you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at . Follow me on and @AngusEyeTea. Email: I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at
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What Makes a Good Life?
12/13/2021
What Makes a Good Life?
Hey, Heifers! So much has happened omg y’all. This episode was originally recorded at the end of November, so it’s a tad outdated. The good news is that I have a lot of ideas for upcoming episodes, so this creative break has been WONDERFUL. Enjoy these life updates and I’ll talk to you soon!
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Here's Your Permission to Create Crappy Things | NaNoWriMo
11/17/2021
Here's Your Permission to Create Crappy Things | NaNoWriMo
Hey Heifers! How many things have you wanted to do in your life that you never did because you knew you'd be awful at it? For me it's theater. I've always thought it'd be fun to be part of a musical but in my head I've decided I would be awful at acting and therefore there's no point in trying. But today I'm telling you to ditch that mindset! Obviously there are limitations on what we can do based on our situations. We also sometimes assign these wants to a version of ourselves we'd love to be that we have decided is perfect but may not actually be so fun and great in the end. Today, however, I ask that you let at least one of these things happen and let it be bad. Awful. Crappy. Just do it and allow it to SUCK. This is kind of the motto for National Novel Writing Month, a challenge that happens every November asking people to write 50k words in the month of November. Since you have to write so much you can't get bogged down in making all your words sound pretty. Some of them are cringey and in my case make me question if I've ever even written an email, let alone a novel. Enjoy the episode and GO BE SHITTY AT YOUR DREAMS! Moo, Elaine If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! Follow me on and @AngusEyeTea. Email: I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at
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Wonka Watch: How We Got Here
11/03/2021
Wonka Watch: How We Got Here
Hey Heifers! Meet my third podcast, Wonka Watch! Today, I gift you the very first episode of my new podcast ft. my cohost Felicia. Timestamps 1:32 Welcome to our countdown to the Wonka Rapture! 2:16 Meet your cohosts, Felicia and Elaine! 3:58 Our Wonka origin stories: How did we end up dedicating an entire podcast to Willy Wonka? Who does that? What’s wrong with us? 12:22 This is Elaine’s third podcast. She’s tired. Felicia’s friends casually accepted this Wonka podcast, stating “It fits.” 15:43 Wonka Watch: For each episode, we’ll review any news or updates we have regarding the Wonka prequel. 20:22 Prior to the Wonka prequel, what was our experience/exposure to Wonka? 20:23 Elaine saw the 1970s movie, 2005 version (hated it). Never obsessed with Wonka but loved the idea of an edible room. Had a dream she would swim in a room of tuna salad. Never read the book. Overall feelings on Wonka were medium to mild dislike. 22:31 Felicia doesn’t really care about Wonka. When thinking about Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, it reminds her of a middle school musical version…that may have never existed. 23:20 Uh, wait a sec . . . who is Roald Dahl?? 25:21 To make this podcast as successful as possible, we filled out the John Lee Dumas notebook The Podcast Journal: Idea to Launch in 50 Days. As we all know, John Lee Dumas is the Willy Wonka of podcasting (we have no idea who he is). Here are the questions we completed from his book: 27:49 “Who is the one perfect listener for this podcast?” 33:14 “Why do you want to create a podcast?” 32:48 “What is your commitment to podcasting?” 34:06 “Contact people who would listen to your podcast and interview them.” We both had our friends respond as our interview pool. The results were not promising. 34:26 “How do you feel about the topic Wonka in your life?” 36:29 “Ideally, where would you like to be when it comes to Willy Wonka?” 38:34 “What’s your biggest struggle when it comes to Wonka?” 39:09 “What would be most helpful for you about approaching, learning more, or even mastering Wonka?” 41:12 Prequel Predictions: For each episode, Felicia and Elaine will provide their own predictions for anything regarding the Wonka prequel, be it about the film, marketing, merch, the actors, etc. 44:27 Remember: it’s really not that important.
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I'm...happy? | She Podcasts Live 2021
10/27/2021
I'm...happy? | She Podcasts Live 2021
Hey, Heifers! I AM SO SORRY MY UPLOADING SCHEDULE HAS BEEN INCONSISTENT FOR MONTHS NOW. I have no intention of stopping Angus Eye Tea. In reality, my life keeps getting busy or to be honest, I have some rough mental health days and just need to take a step back. However, I feel so rejuvenated after getting to go to my FAVORITE conference She Podcasts Live! I forgot how awesome it is to be around your kind of creative weirdos lol. I, uh, also left the conference with a third podcast?? More on that to come, but do go follow on Instagram thx. Again, I appreciate your patience during these past few months! Your support means the world to me. I hope y’all are doing alright and are enjoying spooky season! Moo, Elaine TIMESTAMPS 00:00 I’mmmmmmm baaaaack! Again! Ha ha ha! 02:01 I went to She Podcasts Live (SPL) in Arizona and the journey there was a hoot and a half lol. 10:42 The much needed vacation element to this entire trek, and also werkin’ it at a conference. 12:42 I chat about this 4:00 a.m. voice memo I made detailing everything that happened during SPL. Leaving home gave me some much needed space and relief from my car accident shit and other life shit. 18:30ish A life-changing train museum and the birth of Harvey the Cow. 21:57 I have a THIRD PODCAST: Wonka Watch! Lololol someone pls stop me. 26:26 Final takeaways from She Podcasts Live! 2021. Also, yeah, I’m doing NaNoWriMo this year while having three podcasts lmao. 29:67 Outro! *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at . Follow me on and @AngusEyeTea. Email: I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at
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Just Trudging Through a Rough Patch, Don't Mind Me
10/06/2021
Just Trudging Through a Rough Patch, Don't Mind Me
Hey, Heifers! I will be attending She Podcasts Live next week, an awesome, women-led podcast conference, so I wanted to make this episode part life update, part Angus Eye Tea intro in case I don't have time to do a real one before I head out. I talk about the rough patch I’m in and how October is sort of my make or break month for EVERYTHING. NO PRESSURE HA HA HA. I’m so excited to see my friends and hopefully find my spark again at this conference. It helped me so much last time. Can’t wait to tell you all about it! Moo, Elaine TIMESTAMPS 00:00 This episode is a lead up to She Podcast Live! 2021, my hopes and dreams for the conference, and trying to figure out what my next step in life is. 3:00 A quick recap on who I am and what this podcast is about! Specifically 2021: quit my job, 9:15 My tarot has been really spooky lately. 12:00 I’m stressed about not having my episode of Sloshbucklers ready in time. I’ve been sitting on it for about six months. Eek. 14:00 My writing senses are back on! NaNoWriMo is around the corner! 17:30 The continued fatigue of the pandemic. Thanks, Delta and anti-vaxxers. 20:00ish I am having good days, though! 21:15 I don’t want you to get the impression that my life is all rainbows and candy just because I come on here and giggle. 24:00 Outro! *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at . Follow me on and @AngusEyeTea. Email: Want additional content including a secret blog? Check out my Patreon at ! I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at
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"Left On Read" Anxiety
09/29/2021
"Left On Read" Anxiety
Hey, Heifers! Being “left on read” can feel awful. You text someone, they read the response, and then...nothing. You wait and wait and wait, yet hear no reply, even though they’ve 110% read your message. Anxiety levels INCREASED. However, today I’m going to share with you my philosophies on being left on read, as well as if you’re the person leaving people on read. Mental health can get in the way of things like responding to our friends and family, so there are a lot of layers to look at here! Thanks for listening and have a lovely day! Moo, Elaine TIMESTAMPS 1:27 Tech companies want us to be constantly engaging with our phones/their apps because it means they make more money. I think that has trickled down to us feeling we have to respond to texts and messages immediately because of the idea of falling behind or not keeping up. [I’m tired, I’ll add in the rest of these later lololol <3). *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at . Follow me on and @AngusEyeTea. Email: Want additional content including a secret blog? Check out my Patreon at ! I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at
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Tips for Dealing with Phone Call Phobia
09/22/2021
Tips for Dealing with Phone Call Phobia
Hey, Heifers! Phone calls are not my favorite thing in the world. I tend to feel put on the spot and usually think I'm going to sound like an idiot. But, over the years I've built up some phone call skillz and thought I'd share some of my tips with you! Mostly, just know that it's okay if you hate phone calls. But hey, if you're reading this, go ahead and make that phone call you've been putting off! I believe in you! Moo, Elaine TIMESTAMPS 00:00 Calling all phone-call-phobes! 1:22 Texting has helped reduce the amount of phone calls we’ve had to escape. But that also means we’re a little more rusty at dealing with phone calls. Most likely the phone calls we’re having to deal with are business or appointment wise (doctor stuff, prescriptions, insurance, etc.). 6:04 Make a script for your call! 11:16 Don’t sweat what customer service thinks of you. They’re most likely working from a script as well and have been asked everything under the sun. Kindness goes a long way! 14:15 Make your phone call in a cozy/safe environment (in bed, your torture chamber, McDonald’s bathroom, etc.). 15:17 Also, you can come up with contingency plans. The final escape. 16:21 The phone call anxiety gets better the more you do it. I’ve personally become more comfortable asking questions and that’s really helped me feel more confident going into more phone calls. 17:42 What’s the worst that could happen? They either don’t know the answer to your question or the person is blunt. If anyone is rude to you, you have a choice to not return to those establishments, hang up, or compartmentalize the call and remember that they do not define your worth or character! 20:37 Also, it’s okay if you never feel comfortable making a phone call! There are things in this life that we just find yucky no matter what. But it can get better and manageable with work (def recommend therapy--again, I’m not a professional). 18:43 Don’t sit on a call. The longer you wait, the worse your anxiety becomes. 21:51 Outro! Stay safe, Heifers! *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at . Follow me on and @AngusEyeTea. Email: Want additional content including a secret blog? Check out my Patreon at ! I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at
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Handling the Unexpected Pivots in Your Life
09/01/2021
Handling the Unexpected Pivots in Your Life
Hey, Heifers! Today, I chat about the unexpected twists that happen in our lives and how we handle them. I reflect on what I said last episode, and what I’ve been saying over the summer, and how it all hits a little different now. I hope you enjoy the episode! Moo, Elaine TIMESTAMPS 00:00 I had a WONDERFUL surprise happen to me last week! 5:51 I’ve had a lot of unexpected pivots recently. I was already wheeling from my recent life changes (moving, new job). And now, something that was completely out of my control has happened to me. I’m working on accepting that I can’t always control the situation but it’s hard to digest that idea. 8:45 My coping mechanism as of now is trying to be present. 10:36 I’ve been trying new things in my life, one of them being ice skating! In South Carolina! During the summer! 14:08 I swear, the Universe is thwarting this podcast with all these life changes lol. I’m excited because I now have things in my life that require a planner which means I CAN BUY 10 PLANNERS NOW HA HA HA HA THAT’S A SANE THING TO DO. 15:33 Back to being in the present and battling freak-out mode with everything-is-obviously-fine-hahaha. 16:45 I’m really grateful, especially for sweatpants. 22:42 Outro! *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at . Follow me on and @AngusEyeTea. Email: Want additional content including a secret blog? Check out my Patreon at ! I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at
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3rd Anniversary: How I’ve Kept This Podcast Afloat While Dealing with Mental Health
08/25/2021
3rd Anniversary: How I’ve Kept This Podcast Afloat While Dealing with Mental Health
Hey, Heifers! ANGUS EYE TEA IS THREE YEARS OLD. HOLY COW. MOO. I’m blown away. Hitting year one was cool. Year two was like, wowowowowow wild. But three years? So much has happened! I skimmed through my episodes and it’s wild to think that I used to eat blocks of cheese for dinner. Now I accompany them with a slice of bread! I figured I’d talk about how I managed to keep this podcast running for three years, especially since my mental health took some dips here and there. Thanks for listening and being the best Heifer around <3. Moo, Elaine TIMESTAMPS 1:12 How did I stick with podcasting for three years? (This episode is mostly so I can figure out how I did it like lol wat). 2:35 The Beginning of AET: Where was I mental health wise when I started Angus Eye Tea? I think this can affect how a project will go sometimes. 14:00 Starting is always the hardest part of any hobby or pursuit. 14:36 When I felt bored of AET or it felt wrong, I reframed what the podcast meant to me. “How to’s” vs. tarot vs. “Let’s drink tea and” episodes were ways that I fiddled around with my format to keep myself excited to create. The different formats also allowed me some brain space if I was tired (ex: tarot is me literally reading the card with the occasional giggle). Trying to find what felt like me, not what I thought people wanted me to be, was a big milestone. 18:30 Dealing with depression and Angus Eye Tea. How I still created while in the fuckery. 24:10 When I was depressed and didn’t care about anything, I worked hard to remember what made me excited about AET. I wrote my five star reviews on sticky notes and posted them around my computer as inspo. 26:23 Podcasting with manic phases is a new thing I’m dealing with! 30:00 Not focusing on the numbers is possibly the best tip I can give you for starting out with any hobby/venture/passion. 32:36 In short... 34:23 Outro! *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at . Follow me on and @AngusEyeTea. Email: Want additional content including a secret blog? Check out my Patreon at ! I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at
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Freaking Out About Not Freaking Out | New Move, New Job
08/18/2021
Freaking Out About Not Freaking Out | New Move, New Job
Hey, Heifers! Yeah, remember how two weeks ago I was all like, “I’m back, better than ever! Yay! Ready for a regular schedule!” And then I just didn’t post at all last week? Well, that is because every undecided thing in my life suddenly made a decision. At the same time. In the span of two weeks, I’ve moved and started a new job. This episode is incredibly rambly, even by my standards, so hang in there! I *will* be back next week as promised. Moo, Elaine TIMESTAMPS 1:30 I moved and I have a new job! 2:34 I thought I would be a lot more emotional considering the big life changes I’ve undergone, but so far I’m doing a-okay. 7:00ish Having a roommate for the first time in four years. 10:15 While everything has been a lot, it’s also all felt right. Clicking into place. 12:20 I’m still incredibly confused about my life. We’re on a path now that I never considered. It’s like I’m experiencing a new color. 17:05 Hoping that having a job will force a routine, keep my brain awake, and let me get back to creating for Sloshbucklers and adding more to my Patreon. 18:53 Outro! *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at . Follow me on and @AngusEyeTea. Email: Want additional content including a secret blog? Check out my Patreon at ! I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at
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Is The Life Sabbatical Over? (I'm back!)
08/04/2021
Is The Life Sabbatical Over? (I'm back!)
Hey, Heifer! I’VE RETURNED! Two months flew by and so much happened. I originally recorded this on July 24th and already I’ve had two major life changes I can’t wait to tell you about. In this episode, I regale you with my pod break and what I’ve come to learn during the Life Sabbatical (and if you’re new, I basically quit my corporate job in January to figure out my life and it’s been a hoot and a half lol). Everything is chaotic right now for me so I’m glad to have Angus Eye Tea back in my schedule to ground me! Have a lovely week, Heifer! Moo, Elaine TIMESTAMPS 1:37 What happened during my two month break? 2:11 For starters, I got older and entered my *gasp* late twenties. 9:19 Remember how I said I was going to write a book? 13:00ish Remember how we need money to survive in this capitalistic society? Here’s an update on my job hunt emotions. 18:50 I feel like I’ve finally woken up since January. 20:37 I missed podcasting! Also, the fear of taking a break and never coming back. 22:45 (I, uh, broke my no-caffeine streak and it’s been catastrophic.). 25:11 In conclusion… 27:18 Outro! *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at . Follow me on and @AngusEyeTea. Email: Want additional content including a secret blog? Check out my Patreon at ! I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at
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TTYL, Heifers!
06/02/2021
TTYL, Heifers!
Hey, Heifer! Today, I’m going to tell you how my May went, talk a bit about June, but overall I’m going to casually mention that I’m, um, taking a break from Angus Eye Tea until August :). You know me, so good at taking breaks. Letting go of that perfectionist tendency ha ha ha. Seriously though, I’m excited to rest and come back better than ever! I’ll be active on my Patreon at where you can hop in for $2! Until then, have a lovely Gemini season and best of luck with that Mercury in retrograde crap. Moo, Elaine TIMESTAMPS 2:27 May - I learned what I want to do and it sent me into a dark depression. YAY. 11:57 Reviewing my May goals lmao. 15:47 Let’s talk about June! 17:31 I’m taking a hiatus from Angus Eye Tea until August. Here’s why. 27:00 Me being dramatic to tide you over for the next few months. SEE YA IN AUGUST! *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at . Follow me on and @AngusEyeTea. Email: Want additional content including a secret blog? Check out my Patreon at ! I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at
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The (Almost) End of Quarantine Whiplash
05/27/2021
The (Almost) End of Quarantine Whiplash
Heyyyyy Heifer! Quarantine seems to be slowly ending and it’s been weirder than I thought it would be. Like, I knew I’d be socially rusty and would have to remember how to order food, etc. But I wasn’t expecting to have weird depression, or that my brain would short circuit and make it feel like things had always stayed open and that the last 1.5 years didn’t happen. So I figured I’d talk about that whiplash today! Enjoy this episode and get vaccinated! Moo, Elaine TIMESTAMPS 00:00 No masks, no problems? LOL. 01:23 The transition from 1.5 years of quarantine to pre-COVID routines is so weird to me. It feels like quarantine has gone by in the wink of an eye, like I want to forget all this ever happened. 06:10 For so long we’ve had external stressors affecting us that we may have never acknowledged or processed. 08:09 With things opening again, and us getting to return to our old habits/routines/haunts, there’s this fear that it will get taken away again. 12:01 Some people are going to adjust faster than others (or that’s how it may seem!). 13:15 I’ve had another wave of depression and I think part of it is the overwhelming idea of getting to “come back” to life even though I’ve continued to live life? Like, quarantine wasn’t a pause. We kept going. How do I merge the two? 17:36 TLDR: It’s really okay if your feelings about quarantine ending are: scared, happy, worried, depressed, anxious, elated, overwhelmed, etc. 19:11 My weird outro where today’s scenario is that you get a kickass MEET CUTE OMG HEART EYES. *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at . Follow me on and @AngusEyeTea. Email: Want additional content including a secret blog? Check out my Patreon at ! I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at
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I'm Tired of Not Sleeping: Fatigue and Depression
05/19/2021
I'm Tired of Not Sleeping: Fatigue and Depression
Hey, Heifer. It’s 1:00 a.m oops. I’m hanging out with my friends and I’m tired which is ironic because this episode is about striving for a healthier sleep routine. But here we are. Mmm. I can’t tell you how hard it is to write this little paragraph that no one reads after midnight. What’s the point? Who am I? Why don’t I call pancakes flap jacks? Flap jacks sounds way cooler. I’m hungry and I want pancakes. Shit, FLAP JACKS. Okay, I’m off to bed lolol jk I’m still listening to the episode and doing timestamps. This hell will never end. Moo, Elaine Want additional content including a secret blog? Check out my Patreon at ! TIMESTAMPS 00:00 Zzzzzzz I’m not a health professional zzzzz feel free to take a nap during this episode zzzzzzzz. 1:13 I have a negative thought pattern that nighttime is my only chance to be happy and the daytime is EVIL. Thus, I stay up late, ruin my sleep cycle, and end up being even more depressed/anxious during the day. 2:40 Notification Fatigue. The fear of being left “on read.” 5:24 Sleep is one of the biggest influences on my mental health. That knowledge stressed me out so much that I suddenly had alarm anxiety. (“Will my alarm go off?” Jerking awake throughout the night thinking I’ve missed my alarm, etc.). 8:58 I’m a night owl and I adjust way too quickly to staying up until 4 a.m. I’m energized by the idea that no one can interrupt me, flashbacks to secret staying up past my bedtime as a kid to read books by a flashlight, etc. 10:38 Recently, my depression has thrown a wrench in my sleep schedule. Obviously the physical symptoms, but I’ve been ignoring tasks and the stress builds up the longer I put them off (and then I do them and it takes me, like, 15 minutes lol). 12:40 Losing sleep over the idea that I will immediately ruin my morning which will then ruin my day :). 15:30 All of this to say, what happens during my day and my thought patterns greatly affect how I go about my sleep. 18:00 Depression makes me want to do less so my body and brain aren’t getting worked out which means there’s nothing tiring me out. 20:00 Dumb thoughts while staring at the ceiling, like fake arguments and disaster scenarios that aren’t real. 24:00 So now I’ve annoyed myself enough about not sleeping and trying to be healthier that I'm finally taking action lol. Reframing the why helped--I want to wake up to be more productive vs. this is actually more about me not wanting to accept that I have a mental health disorder that will be with me for life. 27:30 Thanks for listening! Lovies to my Patrons: KT & Oti, Vanessa, Rachel, Laura, and Taylor! <3 *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at . Follow me on and @AngusEyeTea. Email: I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at
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My Favorite Caffeine Alternatives
05/12/2021
My Favorite Caffeine Alternatives
Want additional content including a secret blog? Check out my Patreon at ! Hey, Heifer! I recently cut caffeine out of my life so I could manage my anxiety and I realized it can be a little daunting to embark on such a journey. What drinks secretly have caffeine? What can I use as replacements? Do I gain superpowers now or something? I’ve gathered some of my favorite caffeine alternatives that I enjoy (I’m not a nutritionist though so beware). Also, you can be anxious and enjoy your three cups of coffee a day. You can enjoy whatever level of caffeine works for you! We’re all built differently so at the end of the day, live your best life. Right now for me that means not adding something that heightens my gross ass symptoms :). Moo, Elaine TIMESTAMPS 00:00 Feel free to fall asleep while listening. I start off by listing my vices. 6:10 Water. Yes, H2O. I’m a genius, I know. 7:25 The drink that makes me think of Beyonce and misleading decaf labels. 14:25 What’s the tea? 17:53 Seltzer vs. soda (RIP Diet Coke). 19:46 Options that don’t require drinking or eating! 25:27 At the end of the day, just check in with yourself. Why are you having caffeine? When? How does it make you feel? 27:08 Thanks for listening! Lovies to my Patrons: KT & Oti, Vanessa, Rachel, Laura, and Taylor! <3 *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at . Follow me on and @AngusEyeTea. Email: I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at
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May Goals: A "Write" of Passage
05/07/2021
May Goals: A "Write" of Passage
Want additional content including a secret blog? Check out my Patreon at ! Hey, Heifer! New month, new goals! I genuinely had no idea May had started. I think I've been living in a perpetual March. Sigh. This month's goals focus a lot on my art. I feel like I'm turning everything into a chore these days so I want to make sure I keep my cReAtIvE sPiRiT alive. And then, of course, I have a car related goal. Are we surprised? My April wasn't great but also every month has its ups and downs. I hope your May is looking bright and beautiful! We can dooooo this, Heifers! Moo, Elaine TIMESTAMPS 00:00 I start the episode off by singing a not Dolly Parton song not called Silver and Gold. Ahem. 1:06 Welcome to the monthly goals series! 2:21 How did April go? Check your nearest drain. 6:40 April Goal 1: Do my taxes 7:58 April Goal 2: Earn money lol 14:50 April Goal 3: Go on three nature outings 16:37 Onward to May! 17:44 May Goal 1: Start The Artist’s Way by Julia Cameron 21:24 May Goal 2: Write every day 23:57 May Goal 3: Give my 14 year-old car its first car wash lolololol 27:30 Let’s put out some good vibes for May! (she said in desperation). 29:47 A snazzy outro! Thanks for listening! Lovies to my Patrons: KT & Oti, Vanessa, Rachel, Laura, and Taylor! <3 *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at . Follow me on and @AngusEyeTea. Email: I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at
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Over Pressured, Underwhelmed: The Burdens We Place on Ourselves
04/28/2021
Over Pressured, Underwhelmed: The Burdens We Place on Ourselves
Hey, Heifer! I’ve been struggling lately. I’m in a depressive episode and on top of that I’ve been agonizing over my future. Like, truly agonizing. I’m pretty sure I’m losing sleep over it. And the main reason why is that I have put so much pressure on myself to figure it all out right now. Or soon. Or really ever. And it feels like I’ll never figure it out, which means I’m afraid to move forward, which means I’m beating myself up for not moving forward, I get paralyzed, etc. etc. etc. Today is a think-out-loud episode about why I do this to myself and ways I can try to navigate these negative thought patterns. Enjoy! Moo, Elaine Want additional content including a secret blog and videos? Check out my Patreon at ! TIMESTAMPS 00:00 Somehow, I recorded this episode without making a single Queen joke. 2:25 I put too much pressure on myself and it’s the main source of my anxiety/depression these days. 4:58 Almost five months into my Life Sabbatical and the pressure is rising (mostly from me). Other things have piled onto this crap heap as time has progressed. Yayy. 11:15 How can I fight those nagging questions my brain asks that put me down? What’s next? Why don’t I have a plan? What am I doing with my life? 15:33 Trying to work backwards on my racing thoughts. If I want to live my life with x, y, and z, then how much do I need to earn? Where do I need to live? 21:46 Riding the waves where I feel EMPOWERED and MIGHTY. Do things with intention. Help my brain realize that, yes, I am doing things! I know I can’t just flip a switch and make my depression disappear, but I’m no longer going to feed into excessive wallowing on top of my depression (or do my best!). 27:55 Thanks for listening! Lovies to my Patrons: KT & Oti, Vanessa, Rachel, Laura, and Taylor! <3 *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at . Follow me on and @AngusEyeTea. Email: I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at
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Do-Si-Dos and Do-Si-Don'ts: A Dramatic Reading of My Time Selling Girl Scout Cookies
04/21/2021
Do-Si-Dos and Do-Si-Don'ts: A Dramatic Reading of My Time Selling Girl Scout Cookies
Want additional content including a secret blog and videos? Check out my Patreon at ! Hey, Heifer! Once upon a time, I was a Girl Scout. As such, it was my duty to sell Girl Scout cookies. Selling did not come naturally to me yet every year I would drag my dad with me around the neighborhood trying to sell enough cookies to win whatever prize the head organization was offering. Later, I wrote a personal essay about the experience and today I am doing a dramatic reading of it! If you want to read the piece as well as see exclusive Brownie Elaine photos, head over to my Patreon. Enjoy! Moo, Elaine TIMESTAMPS 00:00 My journey with the Girl Scouts of America and what led me to writing a series of essays about that part of my life lol. 7:57 The dramatic reading of Do-Si-Dos and Do-Si-Dont’s 13:05 The power of capitalism begins to change me. 15:03 One perk: snooping on my neighbors. 17:54 The demonic cookie costumes. 20:15 The glorious beach towel victory. 20:37 Story debrief and overall thoughts on reviewing our past (very meta here since I’m looking at my childhood and myself from a few years ago when I wrote this story). 23:05 Thanks for listening! Lovies to my Patrons: KT & Oti, Vanessa, Rachel, Laura, and Taylor! <3 *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at . Follow me on and @AngusEyeTea. Email: I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at MUSIC Pouring Out - Asher Fulero Ratatouille’s Kitchen - Carmen María Hall of the Mountain King by Kevin MacLeod is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution 4.0 license. Source: Artist: Arkansas Traveler - Nat Keefe and Hot Buttered Rum
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Depression Loopholes: Life Hacks for Depressive Episodes
04/14/2021
Depression Loopholes: Life Hacks for Depressive Episodes
Hey, Heifer! I’m depressed! I know, such a shocker. Me? Depressed? I never talk about mental health. Ha. Ha ha. Ha ha ha. Anyway, over the years I’ve come to learn that I’m not very nice to myself when I’m depressed. If I accomplish anything less than 100 percent, I consider myself a failure. Can’t vacuum the entire house? May as well not bother. Can’t clean the kitchen? No point in trying. But that is where my life hacks come in! Procrastination really helped me discover these depression loopholes that I’ve found work for me. I’m not a medical professional so please don’t take this as official advice! We all work differently and what may work for me may not for you and vice versa! Mostly, I wanted to share my experience so you can see that yes, you can slowly walk through the murk of depression. Have a lovely day, Heifer! Moo, Elaine TIMESTAMPS 00:00 I talk about a Depression Goose a lot in this episode and I’d like to go ahead and apologize. I have never compared my depression to a goose. I don’t know what came over me. 02:40 What my depression symptoms look like and how I can hack them. 06:41 My depression hacks focus on the domino effect theory: If I can make myself do a portion of a task, then that helps me get more and more done. Give yourself some grace. 10:47 Write down things you’ve accomplished to fight the “not enough” thought pattern. 11:49 Cleaning hacks. 14:14 Grocery runs and eating meals other than chips. 17:47 I haven’t been sleeping. End up on a strange tangent. 20:39 Caffeine makes my depression worse, but when I feel tired from my depression I want it. When I have it, it affects my sleep. A vicious cycle is born! 21:37 Okay, I finally get to some sleep hacks. 24:15 Movement! Not necessarily exercise, but ways to still find movement in your day. 27:09 Find a routine that works for your depression! 28:49 Rapid-fire life hacks: Look at your credit cards; take the path of least resistance; don’t overcomplicate it; water, food, clothes, shower, etc. 31:30 Thanks for listening! Lovies to my Patrons: KT & Oti, Vanessa, Rachel, Laura, and Taylor! <3 *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at . Follow me on and @AngusEyeTea. Email: I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at
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Do You Lack Adventure in Your Life?
04/07/2021
Do You Lack Adventure in Your Life?
Hey, Heifer! Do you ever have one of those weekends where you can’t tell if you’re embarking on some healthy self-reflection or if you’re falling into a pit of depression? I had a weekend like that recently. It feels like everything is up in the air right now and it’s both exhilarating and burdensome. I came across a YouTube channel called and they do all these exciting adventures. I couldn’t help looking at my own life and thinking, “Wow. I’m boring.” In this episode, I think out loud about what “adventure” truly means, what I have or am lacking in that department, and the beautifully tragedy of nostalgia. Yeah, it’s one of those episodes lol. Grab your pinot grigio and enjoy! Moo, Elaine Want additional content including a secret blog and videos? Check out my Patreon at ! Tiers start as low as $1. TIMESTAMPS 00:00 This is my third time trying to record this damn episode because my brain is so scattered so this is it, this is the audio we’re sticking with hell or high water. 00:58 The art of sluggish behavior. 2:43 I had a weird, introspective weekend that inspired this episode. The kind where you’re either really enlightened or depressed lol. 5:03 The sudden stab of nostalgia consumed me due to an obsessive binge of the YouTube channel Yes Theory. 5:51 I’m crushed with the burden of knowing I can change my life however I want (within means). 7:43 This has brought up many questions: Where do I want to live? Do I want to sell everything and live in a van for a year? 8:09 The difference between an adventure for yourself and an adventure to be seen by others/proving your worth/for likes. 11:18 Realizing I set standards for myself to live a “fascinating life” and to prove to myself that bipolar doesn’t hold me back. This way of thinking has...consequences :). I’m losing my travel muscle and it scares me. 13:57 I think nostalgia is a bitch <3. I’m nostalgic for my lovely time in Venice. 17:12 But maybe if I can’t relive the memory, I can recreate the mood. 19:03 Ever since I quit my job, I keep finding people that are doing what I want to do, but I never knew that was an option. 19:45 What does adventure mean to you? 25:37 Thanks for listening! Lovies to my Patrons: KT & Oti, Vanessa, Rachel, Laura, and Taylor! <3 *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at . Follow me on and @AngusEyeTea. Email: I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at
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April Goals: A Need for Common Cents
03/31/2021
April Goals: A Need for Common Cents
Hey Heifer! I’m back with my monthly goal series and the first thing I want to do is throw March in the recycling bin and try again next year. You’ll get to hear about my mega car saga and all the self-doubt I battled this month. I am so excited for April, though! Sloshbucklers will go live, I have great content ideas, AND I get my second dose of the vaccine. WE’RE SO CLOSE, GUYS! I hope you have a wonderful month! Moo, Elaine Want additional content including a secret blog and videos? Check out my Patreon at ! Tiers start as low as $1. TIMESTAMPS 00:00 Intro that includes me exposing how little I know about soccer despite playing it for 10 years. Welcome to monthly goals! 1:46 How my March went. Spoiler alert: It was a 2 out of 5 stars. 2:08 March Goal 1: Launch Patreon. Success! 4:41 March Goal 2: Get a new back windshield for my car. Technical foul had by car, but I def get a Participation Trophy. Enjoy my saga. 19:32 Final goal of March: Steady stream of income. Meh? 22:19 April Goals. Goal 1: Do my taxes oops. 23:57 Goal 2: Earn $500 $1000 this month. 25:32 Goal 3: Go on three nature outings. 28:50 Outro and Patreon Lovies. *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at . Follow me on and @AngusEyeTea. Email: I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at
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How I Made a Second Podcast, Sloshbucklers!
03/24/2021
How I Made a Second Podcast, Sloshbucklers!
I HAVE A SECOND PODCAST! Sloshbucklers is my evil, inner child and I’m so excited about this project. Sloshbucklers is the uncanny podcast that reviews canned booze and season one focuses on hard seltzer. AHH! This has been my second Secret Project that I’ve been working on and it has been a JOURNEY. In this episode, I walk you through how I created Sloshbucklers from the first idea to the panic to the self-doubt to the first recording. The first three episodes will be live on 4/1/21! Yeehaw! Moo, Elaine Want to support Angus Eye Tea? Check out my Patreon at with tiers starting as low as $1! TIMESTAMPS 00:00 I HAVE A SECOND PODCAST CALLED SLOSHBUCKLERS! 1:23 How a cool idea I never had time for became a reality, even in the face of depression. 10:14 The honeymoon phase ends and now I’m facing my self-doubt, depression, and anxiety head on while I’m unemployed. 12:51 I realized I was having a hard time making moves on Sloshbucklers because I had a paralyzing fear that people expected a LOT from me since I already had a podcast. 17:55 How did I push through the imposter syndrome/paralyzing anxiety? 22:15 What I’ve learned from this experience: always give it a shot! 26:07 GO DO IT! Patreon lovies, socials, fun times. Talk to you next week! *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at . Follow me on and @AngusEyeTea. Email: I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at
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Task Eraser: Complete a Chore While I Share My Favorite Things
03/17/2021
Task Eraser: Complete a Chore While I Share My Favorite Things
Have you been putting off your to-do list? Use this episode to get something done! Even if you don’t finish the entire task, you’ll at least have made a dent. In the meantime, I’ll share some of my FAVORITE things (cue Julie Andrews twirl). Enjoy! Moo, Elaine Want to support Angus Eye Tea? Check out my Patreon at with tiers starting as low as $1! TIMESTAMPS 00:00 Select a task or chore to complete while you listen! 03:06 My favorite relaxing video with ambient music: 05:39 My fav pharmacy is CVS and Walgreens can go away. 12:39 Library apps for audiobooks and ebooks, Libby and Hoopla. 15:15 A book series I regrettably enjoy. 18:00 PRETTY BOXES ARE AMAZING. 21:07 The Taco Bell spicy potato taco. 23:11 Liquid IV is my favorite hangover item lol. 24:49 Music: fever dream by mxmtoon; right where you left me by Taylor Swift 27:19 My last favorite thing is my dog, even if she refuses to learn how to roll over. 28:21 How did your chores go? Did you make a dent? Yay! 28:50 A fabulous outro. *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at . Follow me on and @AngusEyeTea. Email: I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at
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What It's Like to be Manic | Bipolar Disorder
03/10/2021
What It's Like to be Manic | Bipolar Disorder
Bipolar has its ups and downs, and today we’re going to talk about the up: manic. I used to cherish my manic episodes. I wasn’t sure what happened, but it was a miracle that my severe depression had broken and I finally was able to get things done AND do them really well. I had energy! I could clean the whole house. I could get ahead on my projects and hell, start some new ones while I was at it. I was social, witty, funny. My brain was back in action. I drank coffee and it made everything feel even better, so I drank more and more. At some point, the fun ran out and all that was left was anxiety. The same level of go-go-go energy was there, the same sleepless nights, the same brain jumping to a new thought every few seconds. In this episode, I go through my symptoms of manic and all the confusion that comes with it. Below, I’ve linked previous episodes that either indirectly talked about my bipolar or were recorded when I was or was about to be manic. What fun! Have a lovely week, Heifers. Moo, Elaine Want to support Angus Eye Tea? Check out my Patreon at with tiers starting as low as $1! TIMESTAMPS 00:00 The hype begins. 1:17 Explaining the basics of manic/hypomanic episodes. I’ll be using “manic” as the main term for the remainder of the episode. 3:22 Examples of times I panicked on the podcast, as well as episodes that were directly about me being bipolar but I talked around it because I hadn’t unleashed that revelation yet! Episodes that were secretly bipolar related: The surge of guests in April/Spring of last year : I stay up late folding laundry, talking about how 2019 is “not my year,” feeling very anxious One I didn’t mention in the pod, 9:21 What are my manic symptoms? First up: talking fast. 12:51 Racing thoughts are fun, aren’t they? SLEEP IS FOR THE WEAK. 15:27 Caffeine abuse and cleaning up my act so I didn’t have to go through another medication change. 19:32 Brain is only on one setting: GO, GO, GO. Which means that once the happy drains away, anxiety picks up and moves at the same speed. Everything becomes explosive. 22:35 Those are my main symptoms, and as a reminder, this would go on for a few days, not just for an hour. I used to wake up and wait for a beat to see what kind of day I would have: happy and joyous? Extremely anxious? Super depressed? 23:33 Why it’s easy to love my manic episodes and how it’s hard to try to quell it. 26:23 Overall feelings of my manic. A question I have to ask myself a lot these days, am I happy and excited? Or am I manic? I don’t always know the answer. 30:13 SHOUT OUT TO MY PATRONS: KT and Oti from For Your Reference pod, Laura, Taylor from Who Knows? pod, Rachel, and Vanessa from Fabled pod! *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at . Follow me on and @AngusEyeTea. Email: I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at
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