S48E4: *sultrily* Cum On In

Well, you know, I - I moved here because, uh…I moved here because, you know, well, I had to leave the states, but I picked Thailand because I always had a thing for Asian girls, you know. And when I got here, you know, I was like a kid in a candy store: got money, no attachments, nothing to do, and I started partying. It got wild. I was picking up girls every night. Always different ones. Petite ones, chubby ones, older ones, and sometimes multiple ladies a night. I – I was out of control. I became insatiable. And, you know, after about a thousand nights like that, you start to lose it. I started wondering “where am I going with this? Wh- why do I feel this need to fuck all these women? What is desire? The form of this cute Asian girl, why does it have such a grip on me? Because she’s the opposite of me? Is she gonna complete me in some way?” I realized, I could fuck a million women, I’d still never be satisfied. Maybe – maybe what I really want is to BE one of these Asian girls. So one night I took home some girl, turned out to be a ladyboy, which I’d done before, but this time, instead of fucking the ladyboy, the ladyboy fucked ME. And it was kinda magical. And it got outta my head, what I really wanted was to BE one of these Asian girls, getting fucked, by me, and to feel that. So I put out an ad, looking for a white guy, my age, to come over and fuck me. And that guy looked a lot like me. Then I put on some lingerie and perfume, made myself look like one of these girls, and - I thought I looked pretty hot. And then this guy came over and railed the shit outta me. And then I got addicted to that. Some nights three, four guys would come over and rail the shit outta me. Some I even had to pay. And at the same time, I’d hire an Asian girl, that’d just sit there and watch the whole thing. I’d look in her eyes while some guy was fucking me and I’d think, “I am her. And I’m fucking me.”