Episode 14: Session 3 with Camillia: EMDR - Healing the Inner Child
Release Date: 08/14/2023
Episode 30: Codependent to Co-Independent: Love Yourself Well
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Codependency is the need to make someone else happy with the expectation they will make you happy. It is driven by the need to feel loved. CoIndependent means living a life full of love and joy in yourself that you can both share with others and receive. Accepting that we are not only lovable but that the essense of what we are is love helps us realize we don't need to seek love from outside ourselves but its already there. When we learn to connect with that love in ourselves and in God (or your higher power) we no longer have a need to seek it outside ourselves. Love yourself well and...
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Episode 29: My Daughter makes me so angry! An interview.
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Most of the time when we get mad, we immediately can identify the source of our frustration, be it a careless driver, someone cutting in line, a loud child, a less than compassionate friend or coworker or partner or whatever. "That person makes me so mad..." is often our refrane. But, what if our anger is not about the current situation? What if our inability to respond as a kind, compassionate person is not about the other person? What if it is about us? That's good news because if its about us, we can do something about it. In this episode, I interview "Suzie" who's anger is often triggered...
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Episode 28: Why My Marriage Failed (and how to save yours)
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I went through an awful divorce in 2016 to 2018. I thought my wife and I were doing all the right things to save our marriage (go to church, talk, pray, go to marriage seminars, etc) but still, we ended up in a divorce. Since that time I have been doing a lot of my own trauma work, a lot more praying and had, I think, I bit of good insight. Essentially, I thought was doing all the right things (good job, good income, good, vacations, nice house, went to church, prayed and so forth). I didn't do the bad things (yell, drink, smoke, do drugs, have affairs or whatever) but what I didn't know how...
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Episode 27: Divorce, God, Sin, and Grace
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I am divorced. Am I doomed to hell? In the sermon on the mount (Mt. 5) Jesus says if you get divorced except for infidelity you commit adultry. Jesus says several other things that are a sin (including anger) then leads up to the last verse of the chapter to say you must be perfect as your heavenly father is perfect (Mt. 5: 48) and if we don't keep the law as well as the pharisees and teachers of the law we will not enter the kingdom of heaven (5:20). But is that the end of it? Shouldn't there be more? What about grace, hope, love, all that stuff? If that's the end, I am totally screwed....
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Episode 26: Camilla, DID and Healing her inner Children
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In the last episode, we talked about the three (3) phases of healing your inner child: self-regulation, working with internal defenders and finally, how to connect with the inner child. In this epsisode, I interview Camilla (psuedonym), a client of mine who has participated in several earlier episodes (thank you Camilla). She has DID (disassociative identity disorder) and has to date, identified 14 internal personalities. In this episode Camilla (with the help of her parts) reflects on the last episode and how those same steps have helped (or, in some cases, not helped) her. In all...
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Episode 25: Healing Your Inner Child
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This is a summary of a workshop I recently did at PlayThink 2024 (thanks Paige Zen, it was an awesome festival). The three steps to healing are: Spend time learning how to ground yourself through B - Breathing, T- tapping, S - stretching, S - Shaking. BTSS used 2 minutes 3 or 4 times a day will help you establish a calm safe center which will serve as a foundation for a safe space to connect with your inner child. As you being to reach to your inner child, you may have blocks that prevent you from connecting. Those blocks may have protected you from the scary memories or feelings but now keep...
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Episode 23: Kind Compassionate Curious Movies
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In past episodes, I've talked about kindness, compassion and curiosity. I've had on guests to talk about different aspects of healing through kindness, compassion and curiosity. In this episode, I want to share some of my favorite movies that illustrate healing through, yes, kindness, compassion and curiosity. 1 - Forrest Gump How can an "idiot" (Forrest Gump as played by Tom Hanks) have such a successful life, make such good friends and never seem to be phased by others anger or judgment? His momma taught him the fundamental lessons of life. You are OK just the way you are (self- compassion)....
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Episode 22: Camilla DID and Breaking Barriers
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This week I am talking to Camilla about how to break out of her current living situation and move to be closer to her children. Camilla has disassociative identity disorder (multiple personalities) so making any change is hard but making a change in living situation to a totally different city is overwhelming. In this episode we explore the logistical and emotional barriers to moving to be closer to her children. While logistically, this seems pretty easy, emotionally, she has fear her husband will not support her. She has fear of rejection of by extended family (based on some broken...
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Episode 21: Camilla, DID and Safe Connections
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How can we build safe connections with others when we often don't even have a safe connection with ourselves? In this episode, I interview a client, Camilla (pseudonym) who has disassociative identity disorder (meaning she has multiple sub-parts to her personality). How has she learned to have a safe connection with herself, her subparts, let alone people around her? Sometimes its just basic self-care (breathing, stretching, drinking plenty of water, getting good food and sleep). Other times it might be finding a safe person to listen a little to see if they react in a safe, non-judgmental way...
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Episode 20: Kindness Matters
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We need kindness to thrive but unfortunately many of us did not have kindness modeled for us so we do now what we did when we were children in order to feel safe. We hide. We blame others. We yell and hit. We pretend to be happy when we're not and we try to make everyone around us happy. No wonder we don't feel feel happy. The key to joy is learning to be kind to ourselves and others. By channeling kindness through our bodies, we bring healing to ourselves and potentially bring healing to others. Even if others don't receive our kindness, we still get to feel good for channeling that energy in...
info_outlineI am excited to have my client "Camilla" join me in this podcast to capture what an EMDR session looks like.
EMDR (Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing) is a well researched processing tool for healing trauma.
The major components of EMDR processing include:
- Identifying a negative message (in this case, touch is not safe)
- Identifying a positive message the client would rather have (I can trust my judgment)
- Assigning a level of validity from 1 - totally false to 7 - totally true. One(1) means the client does not feel the positive message feels true at all. 7 means if feels totally true.
- Identify a trauma event which instilled the negative message (in this case, a trauma at a medical facility at age 3 or 4 where "Camilla" recieved several shots).
- Use eye movements or "tappers" (two small plastic vibrators about 1.5" square by 0.5" deep that alternate vibrate back and forth; wires connect the vibrators to a controller that controls the speed and intensity of the left/right vibrations)
Usually a client would start with a high level of disturbance (typically 7, 8, 9 or even 10) and a 1 or 2 level of validity (how true does the message feel on a 1 to 7). Processing heals the trauma and allows the positive message to feel very true, like 6 or 7 and at the same time reduces the level of disturbance to a 0 or 1. In most cases, several sessions of EMDR are needed to heal the trauma wound and effectively replace the negative belief with a postive belief. In this case, "Camilla's" negative belief is "touch is not safe". She was even getting triggered when getting a hug from her kids. The positive message that we are working on replacing this with is "I can trust my judgement".
Special appreciation to "Camilla" for doing this session with me. This was a big ask for her to be so vulnerable and she did a wonderful job.
I hope you find this episode helpful. EMDR (developed by Francine Shapiro) is one of the most powerful trauma healing tools available (as you will see when you listen to this episode).
Thank you for listening. As always, be kind in your actions, compassionate in your thoughts and curious in all things.
If you have questions or comments, feel free to contact me at [email protected]