When Intuition Leads You to Transfer: A Planned Freebirth, Twin Cesarean, and Healing the Trauma
Healing Birth
After leaving an unhealthy relationship, Theresa made a solemn vow to herself: she would never again say yes when her intuition told her no, or no when it told her yes. So when she became pregnant with her first baby, she knew the conventional, conveyor-belt obstetric path wasn’t for her. Instead, she sought out bodywork, worked with a naturopath, and developed a deep relationship with her body and her baby. The plan was to freebirth at home. But when labor began and she noticed thick meconium, she immediately knew the right thing to do was to face her biggest fear and transfer. Her twins...
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The Surprise Breech Homebirth of Joli’s First Baby
Healing Birth
Joli sat down with me in person to share her incredible first birth story, a first for this podcast! Raised hearing her mother speak so positively about her own home births, Joli always envisioned a similar path for herself. When it came time to welcome her first baby, she felt deeply committed to a physiological birth and chose to work with a midwife at home. After a smooth, uneventful pregnancy, everything shifted during the final stages of labor when her baby was discovered to be breech. At that point, there was no turning back. What followed was an intense and transformative experience...
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A Boss Babe Softens: Homebirth, Loss, and Healing
Healing Birth
Taylor sat down with me to share her story just twelve weeks after her second homebirth. She says she felt reborn after both of her birth experiences, but describes this most recent one as especially healing. It came after an early second trimester miscarriage and a traumatic D&C, which led her to explore femininity, softness, loss, spirituality, and more. Fear emerged at different points during the pregnancy, but she returned to faith in the unknown time and time again. If you love the show, I would greatly appreciate a review on or Follow me on Instagram Do you have a birth...
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Why Birth Can Feel So Overwhelming, and What Actually Helps
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Why do so many women leave birth feeling overwhelmed, unheard, or even traumatized? And what actually helps create a better birth experience? In this episode, I’m joined by Erica Manto Paulson, a certified doula, childbirth educator, and certified clinical hypnotherapist who has supported families in birth for more than 20 years. Erica’s passion for this work began after her own VBAC experience, where the support of a skilled doula transformed her birth. That experience inspired her to dedicate her life to helping women feel informed, supported, and empowered throughout pregnancy and...
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The Birth Was Beautiful. Postpartum Was Hard.
Healing Birth
Eva was working in a maternity home, a residential program that provides housing, prenatal care, and support for pregnant women in need, when she became pregnant with her first baby. Clear in her vision for birth, she chose midwifery care and planned a physiological, unmedicated birth at a midwife-run birth center. Her labor was smooth, relatively quick, and deeply supported. But the weeks that followed were far more difficult than she expected. Reflecting now, Eva realizes that while she prepared carefully for birth, she had not prepared for postpartum, that tender, life-changing time when...
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Rejecting Fear: Celine’s Homebirth After Cesarean (HBAC)
Healing Birth
At the end of her first pregnancy, Celine’s plans for the birth unraveled. Her baby was breech, and the natural birth she had envisioned was replaced with a scheduled cesarean. Though the surgery itself wasn’t traumatic, it shook her confidence. She was left wrestling with painful questions: Why didn’t my baby turn? Is my body broken? Her healing began in the presence of women who believed deeply in birth and in her. Their unwavering faith helped her reclaim her own. When she became pregnant again, Celine chose a different path. She planned a home birth, supported by a midwife and doula,...
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High Risk, Held by Grace: Part Two of Natalie’s Story
Healing Birth
This is part two of Natalie’s story. Be sure to listen to if you haven’t already. After the devastating second-trimester loss of her second baby, Natalie entered her third pregnancy carrying a lot of fear. Labeled as high risk, she once again had to navigate frequent interactions with the medical system, the same one that had dismissed her concerns so many times in her previous pregnancy. Her beautiful, much-longed-for son was born healthy. But in the process, Natalie once again came close to losing her life. Through the ups and downs, the tears and fears, the pain and the joy, Natalie...
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Finding God in the Midst of Tragedy: Part One of Natalie’s Story
Healing Birth
Content note: This episode includes the story of infant loss. If you are not in a space to hear about this topic, I trust you know what to do. From the very beginning of Natalie’s second pregnancy, she felt that something was wrong. As early as the first trimester, she experienced breathing issues, swelling, and eventually severe headaches. When she brought these symptoms to her care providers, they were dismissed as simply “pregnancy.” In her second trimester, she was finally diagnosed with . To save her life, she had to deliver her baby via emergency cesarean at just 23 weeks and...
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Freebirth Beyond the Dogma
Healing Birth
Emily's first pregnancy at twenty came in the midst of heroin addiction and an abusive relationship — and became her path to sobriety. She had an unmedicated hospital birth that, while fast, came with the usual interventions: coached pushing, an unnecessary episiotomy, and IV fluids that made breastfeeding a struggle. Years later, after a stint as an L&D nurse left her disillusioned with the system she'd once hoped to change, Emily chose a home birth midwife for her second baby. When labor came, something quiet and deep told her she wanted to be alone. She never called the midwife....
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Homebirth, and Healing, After a Second Trimester Loss
Healing Birth
Lindsee’s first birth was a fairly typical hospital experience—and it left her feeling there had to be a better way to bring life into the world. When it came time to choose where her second baby would be born, she opted for a midwife-run birth center, and the difference was profound. The experience was respectful, empowering, and deeply positive. Like so many after a redeeming birth, Lindsee became fascinated by all things birth and eventually went on to become a doula herself. Pregnant with her third, she eagerly began planning a home birth. Tragically, that pregnancy ended in a...
info_outlineWelcome to Season 7 of the podcast!
When today’s guest, Jordan, reached out to me to explore what it looks like to move forward when birth isn’t healing—when it feels unresolved or leaves lingering questions—and how to find your own healing by integrating your lived experience, I knew I had to have her on the show.
Jordan shares her journey through three very different births: a long, challenging first home birth; an easy, almost freebirth during a snowstorm; and a third and final home birth that became an emergency and left her with lasting injuries.
Instead of the glorious final birth she had envisioned, this last experience shook her physically and emotionally, forcing her to deeply question her beliefs around healing and recovery. It wasn’t until she processed her new normal, stepped out of a “diagnosis” mindset, and viewed the birth through the eyes of her oldest daughter—her seven-year-old birth witness—that she was able to feel her third birth truly completed her as both a woman and a human being.
Find Jordan on her website jordanmusser.com and on Instagram @jordanmusscle
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Do you have a birth story you’d like to share on the podcast, or would like to otherwise connect? I love to hear from you! Send me a note at contactus@healingbirth.net
Intro / Outro music: Dreams by Markvard
Podcast cover photo by Karina Jensen @karinajensenphotoJordan