The Porn to Purpose Podcast
Helping Committed Fathers & Husbands End Their Habit of Watching Porn So They Can Reignite the Passion in Their Relationships and Be Better Role Models to Their Children.
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EP 132: The Daily Maintenance of a Recovered Man
11/19/2025
EP 132: The Daily Maintenance of a Recovered Man
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose Podcast, we unpack a powerful real-life story that connects recovery, fatherhood, and the deeper purpose behind breaking free from porn. What started as a simple morning moment—an 18-year-old son asking his dad to come collect eggs—turned into a vivid metaphor for the recovery journey itself. The story reveals that it’s never about the eggs… it’s about connection. Coach Yeadon shares how this ordinary moment with his son became a mirror for his own healing. He reflects on the front-loaded work of recovery—the early struggle to rebuild your foundation after years of unhealthy coping—and why real transformation comes when a man learns to stay present with pain instead of running from it. This episode dives deep into the daily maintenance of recovery, the cost of disconnection, and how fatherhood can become one of the most powerful motivators for lasting change. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:15] Welcome back to the Porn to Purpose Podcast — Matt and Yeadon set the stage for today’s story. [01:29] The story begins: Yeadon’s 18-year-old son invites him to collect eggs out in the country. [03:21] Yeadon shares the backstory—his father’s dream of raising chickens and how the family turned it into reality. [06:15] “It’s not about the eggs—it’s about connection.” How this became a powerful metaphor for fatherhood and recovery. [08:00] Yeadon opens up about the real reason his recovery began—his desire to connect deeply with his children. [10:06] The lesson: Porn was never the problem. Pain was. Porn was the pill he took for pain. [12:09] The “front-loaded” work of recovery—why the hardest effort comes at the beginning before the fruit ever appears. [14:09] The ongoing maintenance of recovery and the habits that keep freedom sustainable long-term. [19:59] “The relapse doesn’t happen when you type in Pornhub—it happens the moment you step off the path.” [23:12] The identity shift from addict to recovered dad—a man who no longer hides, but leads his family with truth and strength. Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned: Learn More About the Liberation Boot Camp: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook:
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EP 131: How Recovery Skills Build Real Adulthood
11/12/2025
EP 131: How Recovery Skills Build Real Adulthood
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose Podcast, Coach Yeadon flies solo to dive deep into one of the most overlooked dimensions of recovery: how the skills that free you from porn also build the foundation of real manhood. After 20 years of marriage and watching his son step into adulthood, Yeadon reflects on what it actually means to become a man—and how his recovery journey reshaped his ability to lead, love, and live with integrity. This episode isn’t just about quitting porn—it’s about taking ownership, building emotional discipline, and creating systems that produce real freedom. Yeadon unpacks the difference between being “18 and liable” versus being an adult with accountability, purpose, and structure. If you’ve ever wondered why you can’t stay consistent, why you keep repeating the same patterns, or why you still feel like a boy trapped in a man’s body—this episode is your blueprint for transformation. Top 10 Show Highlights [00:00] Welcome back to the Porn to Purpose Podcast — Coach Yeadon introduces today’s solo episode. [01:00] Reflections on 20 years of marriage and watching his son turn 18. [02:30] “Being 18 doesn’t make you responsible—it just makes you liable.” Yeadon explains what true adulthood means. [03:40] The connection between recovery and maturity — how porn addiction masks deeper pain. [04:20] “I didn’t have a porn problem. I had a pain problem.” Why managing pain is the foundation of real healing. [05:10] The first step: taking extreme ownership of your choices, mindset, and habits. [07:00] The truth about freedom: why it requires structure, discipline, and daily systems. [09:00] Boundaries as sacred protection — how to safeguard your mission, energy, and relationships. [13:40] Emotional regulation as the true mark of masculinity: learning to sit in discomfort without reacting. [18:40] Legacy over lust — how to become the kind of man your children can look up to. Resources Mentioned Learn More About the Liberation Boot Camp: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook: Follow Yeadon Smith on Instagram:
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EP 130: The Power of Community in Porn Recovery
11/05/2025
EP 130: The Power of Community in Porn Recovery
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose Podcast, I sat down with Coach Yeadon to unpack one of the most overlooked truths in recovery: you can’t do this alone. For years, both of us tried to fight the battle against porn in isolation—relying on willpower, self-discipline, and secrecy. But in this conversation, we reveal why isolation is the silent killer of progress and how true transformation happens only in brotherhood. We break down the three pillars that make recovery sustainable—community, accountability, and healing—and share how each of these transforms shame into strength. From learning through other men’s stories to practicing loving responsibility instead of judgment, this episode gives men a clear path to rebuild their integrity and walk in freedom. This isn’t about theory. It’s about truth, experience, and what it really takes to rise. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:30] Welcome to the Porn to Purpose podcast with Matt and Yeadon—today’s topic: Why You Can’t Do This Alone. [01:15] Matt shares how community became the missing piece in his recovery after years of trying to do it solo. [02:41] “If you want to go fast, go alone. If you want to go far, go together.” The power of shared growth and guidance. [03:40] “Alone we are guessing. Together we are equipped.” Why community gives you the tools and clarity to move forward. [05:07] Yeadon exposes the myth of the lone warrior and why even the most independent men rely on others to learn. [06:37] “The truth is, brother—you will not beat this on your own.” Why isolation is just another form of denial. [08:26] Accountability redefined: visibility, responsibility, and compassion that build strength instead of shame. [10:21] “We call each other up, not out.” The unique brotherhood culture inside Porn to Purpose. [15:17] Why shame-based accountability fails—and how real growth comes through grace and ownership. [17:00] “One of the blessings of community is the blessing of healing.” The closing reflection on why brotherhood leads to freedom. Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned: Learn More About the Liberation Boot Camp: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook:
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EP 129: Real Life Stress Test
10/29/2025
EP 129: Real Life Stress Test
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose Podcast, I sat down with Coach Yeadon to unpack one of the most eye-opening truths in recovery: it’s not a porn problem — it’s a pain problem. What started as a personal story about his father’s emergency heart surgery turned into a powerful reflection on how emotional pain drives addictive behavior—and how true recovery means learning to face discomfort without reaching for the “digital pain pill.” Yeadon opens up about walking through one of the most emotionally charged weeks of his life and realizing how far his recovery had brought him. Through meditation, journaling, and honest connection, he found peace and strength in moments that once would have sent him spiraling. We talk about the myth of “just quitting,” why white-knuckling doesn’t work, and what real active recovery looks like when the storms of life hit. This episode dives deep into emotional resilience, masculine integrity, and how learning to sit with pain transforms men from the inside out. This isn’t about behavior management—it’s about healing the man behind the habit. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:20] Welcome listeners back to the Porn to Purpose Podcast with Matt and Coach Yeadon. [01:00] Yeadon shares his recent personal story—his father’s open-heart surgery and his mother’s cancer procedure. [04:40] The emotional chaos of the week becomes a mirror for what recovery has taught him: how to sit with pain without escaping. [05:10] “It’s not a porn problem. It’s a pain problem. Porn is the pill we take for the pain.” [07:25] How unprocessed emotional pain fuels addiction and keeps men trapped in the relapse cycle. [09:10] Yeadon shares how his “pain protocol” of meditation, reading, and walking helped him stay grounded. [11:05] “I was able to be present for my family with peace and power—that’s what recovery builds.” [13:20] Why learning to navigate pain is worth every ounce of work and discipline it takes. [15:00] “We show up thinking we’re fixing our porn habit—but what we’re really fixing is our relationship with ourselves.” [17:30] The conversation closes with gratitude and a challenge to every man: do whatever it takes to build freedom from the grip of porn. Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned: Learn More About the Liberation Boot Camp: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook:
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EP 128: Exposing Your Ambush Zones
10/22/2025
EP 128: Exposing Your Ambush Zones
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, I sat down with Coach Yeadon to talk about ambush zones—those predictable traps where porn temptation strikes hardest. Whether it’s late-night screen time, a lonely hotel room, or the stress after a fight at home, these moments can derail recovery if you’re not prepared. We share raw stories from our own lives, unpack why willpower almost never works, and show you how awareness, safeguards, and accountability can turn these hidden dangers into preventable victories. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:28] Matt introduces the theme of “Exposing Your Ambush Zones” and why it’s essential for lasting freedom. [02:00] A story of a recovering alcoholic who avoided bars—and how the same principle applies to porn addiction recovery. [03:15] Matt describes how he feels strong in daylight, around people, but vulnerable late at night alone with a computer. [05:00] The difference between obvious traps (like strip clubs) and hidden ones (like stress, conflict, or downtime). [06:40] Yeadon shares a “slippery spot” story—slipping in the mud during a race—as a metaphor for falling when you least expect it. [08:25] The danger of drifting through your day without awareness—why complacency is the enemy of recovery. [10:15] Common ambush zones: business trips, late-night screen time, weekends alone, conflict with loved ones, and boredom. [12:45] Yeadon’s raw example: feeling the pull during his father’s surgery week, exhausted and alone in his office. [14:20] The power of “telling on yourself”—getting visible with brothers instead of hiding in silence. [16:45] The three-part strategy: (1) have a strategy in place, (2) create an action plan, (3) build accountability through community. Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned: Learn More About the Liberation Boot Camp: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook:
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EP 127: You Can't Outsource Your Recovery
10/15/2025
EP 127: You Can't Outsource Your Recovery
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, Coach Yeadon and I dig into one of the hardest truths about recovery—you can’t outsource your recovery. We’ve all tried filters, accountability partners, and silver-bullet solutions, hoping something outside of us would fix the problem. But the truth is, porn isn’t the real issue—it’s the pain underneath. And unless you face that pain, do the daily reps, and rewire your brain, you’ll stay stuck in the same cycle. This conversation is about progress over perfection, why sobriety is not the same as recovery, and what it really takes to build a life of freedom and strength. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:15] Welcome listeners back to the Porn to Purpose podcast. [01:00] Coach Yeadon shares a comic that sparked today’s theme: you can’t hire someone to do your pushups. [02:14] Why outsourcing your recovery—through tech, groups, or coaches—will never create real freedom. [03:16] Porn isn’t a problem—it’s a pain problem. Porn is the pill we take to numb the wound. [04:35] Matt shares his early attempts with filters and accountability partners—and why they failed. [06:05] The myth of silver bullets: no filter, no coach, no group can make you sober. [07:05] Why accountability fails if you don’t learn to fight the battle at midnight—alone. [10:00] Relapse starts earlier than you think—it begins when emotional wounds get triggered. [13:04] Coach Yeadon opens up about how porn was never about sex—it was about fake validation, trying to feel “enough.” [15:13] The truth about help vs. hard work—coaching and community can guide you, but only you can face the pain. [17:28] The HALT tool (Hungry, Angry, Lonely, Tired) and why these cracks in the dam lead to relapse. [20:38] Track your inputs, not just your streaks. Reps rewire your brain—sobriety doesn’t. [22:56] Progress over perfection: why chasing streaks keeps men stuck and shame keeps them weak. [23:50] Closing invitation: stop outsourcing, start training, and step into true recovery. Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned: Learn More About the Liberation Boot Camp: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook:
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EP 126: Three Things That I Learned in 12-Step Recovery
10/08/2025
EP 126: Three Things That I Learned in 12-Step Recovery
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, I’m joined by Coach Yeadon as we dive into the raw truths we’ve learned from years of battling porn addiction and walking through 12-Step recovery. What started as skepticism toward “powerlessness” and the phrase “I’m an addict” eventually revealed itself as life-changing wisdom. Together, we unpack the difference between sobriety and recovery, why streaks aren’t enough, and how the power of community and radical honesty destroys shame at its root. This episode is not about theory—it’s about the hard-earned lessons that separate the men who relapse endlessly from the men who finally walk free. Whether you’re a husband, father, or leader tired of the double life, these three principles will call you higher. Top 10 Show Highlights [00:15] Welcome to the Porn to Purpose podcast—today’s focus: lessons from 12-Step recovery. [01:34] Matt’s early resistance to 12-Step work and the identity of “I’m an addict.” [04:26] The first big lesson: understanding powerlessness and where true power begins. [07:21] “If I take my foot off the gas, eventually I will relapse”—why recovery requires constant action. [09:44] The razor’s edge: how one click, one look, opens the floodgates. [14:02] Why identifying as an addict can actually empower you to stop playing games with porn. [16:50] Sobriety vs. Recovery: the crucial difference that changes everything. [19:35] Why streaks don’t save you—and how recovery stacks up even through setbacks. [21:04] The healing power of community and brutal honesty. [23:58] “Shame dies when stories are told in safe places”—how brotherhood breaks isolation. Linked Resources Learn More About The Liberation Boot Camp: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook:
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EP 125: What Pørn Addiction Is Really Costing You: The Hidden Stakes Every Man Must Face
10/01/2025
EP 125: What Pørn Addiction Is Really Costing You: The Hidden Stakes Every Man Must Face
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, I sat down with Coach Yeadon for a raw, unfiltered conversation about what’s really at stake when we stay trapped in pørn addiction. This isn’t just about lust or habit — it’s about marriage, fatherhood, legacy, and who we are when no one’s looking. Coach Yeadon shares his own journey of being stuck in a double life for 17 years. As a former youth minister battling secret addiction, he unpacks the fear of exposure, the slow collapse of intimacy, and the crushing weight of shame. Most powerfully, he reveals how his pørn use wasn’t just affecting him — it was infecting his marriage, endangering his children, and robbing him of true connection. We explore why white-knuckling doesn’t work, how pørn rewires your brain, and the silent war most men are losing behind closed doors. If you’re a man who feels torn between who you pretend to be and who you really are — this one’s for you. This conversation is a powerful wake-up call, and an invitation to reclaim your integrity before it costs you everything. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:10] Welcome to today’s conversation with Coach Yeadon. [01:05] “What are the stakes that pørn addiction is putting at risk in my life?” [03:17] First exposure to pørn at age 8 — and how it set the tone for decades of struggle. [04:41] The fear of passing addiction down to his kids. [06:05] The devastating impact of being caught — and the false hope of “trying harder.” [07:32] Why real sex stopped being enough — and how pørn hijacked his arousal. [08:46] Living in fear of being exposed — even in everyday conversations. [10:21] “Someday” is not a strategy: the high cost of delay and denial. [12:55] The inner voice that whispered, “You are not who you say you are.” [15:12] The moment he realized he had to change — or lose everything. Resources Mentioned: Learn More About the Liberation Bootcamp: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook:
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EP 124: From Food to Fantasy: Coping Mechanisms in Addiction Recovery
09/24/2025
EP 124: From Food to Fantasy: Coping Mechanisms in Addiction Recovery
In today’s episode of the Pørn to Purpose podcast, we reveal the real reason you keep going back to pørn—and it’s not about sex. It’s about emotional pain, unhealed wounds, and the need to escape. We draw a powerful parallel between food addiction and pørn addiction, using the lens of the Biggest Loser documentary. Just like food isn’t the real problem for a food addict, pørn isn’t your problem either—it’s the pill you take to numb what you’re not ready to feel. Whether you're dealing with stress, loneliness, rejection, or shame... this episode breaks down why most recovery attempts fail and how you can take the first step toward real, lasting transformation. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:29] Why it’s called the Liberation Boot Camp—and why it matters. [01:24] The emotional roots of food and pørn addiction. [01:54] “You don’t have a pørn problem. You have a pain problem.” [02:22] How pørn becomes a coping mechanism, not just a bad habit. [02:51] The dopamine hit that almost works—but leaves you emptier. [03:16] Why white-knuckling your way through never works. [03:49] True recovery = identity shift, not just restriction. [05:45] Real stories of emotional coping with pørn use. [06:40] How cravings for food and pørn hit the same emotional centers. [08:35] Breaking the cycle of “this is my year”—and actually changing. Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned: Learn More About the Liberation Boot Camp: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook:
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EP 123: Fathering Your Inner Child: The Missing Key in Pørn Addiction Recovery
09/17/2025
EP 123: Fathering Your Inner Child: The Missing Key in Pørn Addiction Recovery
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, I sat down with Coach Yeadon to unpack a powerful story that unexpectedly cracked open a deeper truth about healing. What started as a simple moment—getting the family dog from his son’s bed—turned into a vivid example of how the inner child still lives in us, how triggers hijack our nervous system, and how porn has historically been our escape hatch when emotional chaos strikes. We explore how recovery isn’t about managing behavior—it’s about learning to respond to the fear, shame, and panic that still live in the body. Yeadon breaks down what it looks like to show up for yourself in those moments, to become the grounded father your inner child never had, and to stop handing the wheel to the boy who just wants relief. This conversation is a deep dive into emotional mastery, self-parenting, and how we transform shame into strength. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:15] Welcome listeners back to the Porn to Purpose podcast. [01:15] Yeadon introduces the story of his son’s fear and the title: “The Night My Inner Child Woke Up.” [04:44] His son wakes in terror—mirroring the very same disoriented, fear-based responses Yeadon often feels when emotionally triggered. [06:14] “I’m not okay”—Yeadon explains how our inner child often gets activated and how unsafe it can feel in the body. [07:30] The link between emotional overwhelm and the addict’s urge to reach for porn as a way to feel "okay." [08:43] A separate moment: an innocent comment from Yeadon’s wife triggers a full internal shame response. [09:41] He breaks down how trauma responses aren’t about logic—they’re about patterning and nervous system memory. [10:45] How the smallest things can send us spiraling when deeper emotional wounds go unaddressed. [12:30] What it means to “father yourself” and offer the calm, safe presence your younger self never received. [14:15] Recovery as re-parenting: why real freedom comes when we stop escaping and start nurturing the part of us that’s still afraid. Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned: Learn More About the Liberation Bootcamp: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook:
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EP 122: Is M@sturbation Without Pørn Still a Problem?
09/10/2025
EP 122: Is M@sturbation Without Pørn Still a Problem?
In today’s episode of the “Porn to Purpose” podcast, we tackle one of the most common questions on the recovery journey: “Can I still masturbate if I’m not watching pørn?” This discussion uncovers the hidden traps of swapping pørn for masturbation without addressing the deeper emotional and psychological drivers, showing how this substitution can keep you stuck in the same cycle, outsourcing intimacy to fantasy, and capping your personal growth, intimacy, and masculine power. Whether you’re just starting out or have been pørn-free for months, this episode will help you spot hidden patterns, face uncomfortable truths, and take real steps toward lasting freedom. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:12] Introduction to the question: “Can I still masturbate without pørn?” [01:40] How “The Substitution Trap” keeps men stuck in the same addictive cycle. [02:35] Why quitting pørn doesn’t automatically mean you’re free from compulsion. [03:50] The dangers of outsourcing intimacy to fantasy instead of real connection. [05:01] How rebranded coping mechanisms keep you from true recovery. [06:20] The deep connection between shame, guilt, and early sexual conditioning. [07:43] The real question to ask: not “Can I?” but “Why am I?” [08:12] How compulsive masturbation impacts emotional health, focus, and drive. [09:35] The “glass ceiling” effect on personal growth and masculine development. [10:50] Encouragement to seek deeper healing and join a supportive brotherhood. Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned: Learn More About the Liberation Bootcamp: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook:
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EP 121: Inside the Bubble: Why You Relapse (And How to Stop It for Good)
09/03/2025
EP 121: Inside the Bubble: Why You Relapse (And How to Stop It for Good)
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, I’m joined by Coach Yeadon as we dive into one of the most important and often overlooked parts of the recovery journey—what we in the rooms call “The Bubble.” It’s that foggy mental space where logic disappears, the addict voice takes over, and we end up doing things we swore we’d never do again. We unpack a heartbreaking real-life story about a father whose compulsive behavior led to a devastating moment of neglect—one that could’ve ended in tragedy. It was a powerful reminder for both of us of where this path can lead when left unchecked. From there, we explore how our inner dialogue—when left unspoken—can talk us into relapse, and how visibility and brotherhood are the keys to real transformation. Top 10 Show Highlights: [01:00] The story of a father’s addiction gone too far—and the tragic consequences that followed. [03:49] Why addiction isn't just about impulse—but deep emotional wounds left unaddressed. [07:09] Introduction to “The Bubble”—a dissociative state where clear thinking disappears. [08:40] How rationalizing thoughts lead men to break their own values. [10:33] What it feels like to be “in the bubble”—and how time distortion plays a role in relapse. [12:27] Why men constantly think they’re the exception—and how that keeps them stuck. [15:31] The addict voice that shows up like a friend—and how to spot its deception. [17:46] How visibility and community support lead to clarity, healing, and power. [19:21] Why emotional awareness is essential—and how most men were never taught it. [24:58] An overview of the Four R.A.C. Formula from the Liberation Boot Camp. Resources Mentioned in This Episode: Learn more about Liberation Boot Camp: Join the Pørn to Purpose Community on Facebook:
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EP 120: The Substitution Trap
08/27/2025
EP 120: The Substitution Trap
In today's episode of the Pørn to Purpose podcast, we dive into a deceptive trap that keeps men stuck in addiction—even after they’ve technically quit watching pørn. Coach Yeadon shares a vulnerable and powerful personal story from early in his marriage when he thought he was escaping pørn… but had simply swapped it for another addiction. This episode confronts the myth of willpower, the lie of substitution, and the deeper truth that real recovery isn’t about quitting pørn—it’s about healing the pain beneath it. If you’ve ever swapped one behavior for another and still felt stuck, numb, or triggered—this episode is your wake-up call. Discover why it’s not a pørn problem—it’s a pain problem, and what you must do to finally break free. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:29] – Introduction to the episode and Yeadon’s story from early marriage [01:51] – Working in ministry while secretly battling pørn addiction [02:20] – The only tools Yeadon had: guilt, shame, and white-knuckling [03:13] – How he substituted video games to avoid watching pørn [05:13] – The hidden truth: the game was just another dopamine hit [06:21] – Understanding that he never healed—he just distracted himself [07:08] – "It’s not a pørn problem. It’s a pain problem." [08:04] – Why substitution is not recovery and never leads to true freedom [09:01] – The lie of distraction: you’re playing a game, but still thinking about pørn [10:08] – The need to heal your pain at the root, not just manage symptoms Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned: Learn More About the Liberation Bootcamp: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook:
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EP 119: Visibility Breeds Integrity
08/20/2025
EP 119: Visibility Breeds Integrity
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, Coach Yeadon and I explore how visibility plays a vital role in building integrity throughout the pørn recovery process. So many men try to white-knuckle it in the dark, believing secrecy is the only way to protect themselves. But what I’ve come to learn—and what we discuss in this episode—is that being seen is actually one of the fastest ways to grow. We talk about the resistance many of us feel toward being public or open about our struggle with pørn. We discuss the fears of being judged, exposed, or misunderstood—and how those fears are almost never realized. We also dig into how accountability, leadership, and visibility don’t just keep us in line, they elevate us. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:12] Kicking off the episode with a reflection on consistency and showing up. [00:55] Breaking down the theme of the episode: visibility breeds integrity. [01:53] The role public visibility played in launching Matt’s personal recovery and coaching journey. [03:20] How sharing your pørn recovery story publicly can deepen your commitment. [04:13] Weekly tracker check-ins as an example of applied accountability in the community. [05:10] Coach Yeadon’s reflections on his previous career as a health coach and the power of being seen. [06:36] The internal fear of sharing publicly about pørn recovery—and what actually happened. [07:34] Stepping into integrity and leadership through transparency. [08:03] How leadership in the community reinforces integrity and healing through service. [09:37] Coach Yeadon shares how none of the feared judgment ever materialized when he became visible. Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned: Learn More About the Liberation Bootcamp: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook:
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EP 118: Should You Tell Her? What to Do If you've Been Hiding Your Pørn Habit...
08/13/2025
EP 118: Should You Tell Her? What to Do If you've Been Hiding Your Pørn Habit...
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, I sit down with Coach Yeadon to tackle one of the most gut-wrenching and pivotal questions a man can face in his recovery journey: “Should I tell her?” Whether you're married, dating, or in any form of committed relationship, this episode dives deep into the emotional and relational weight of hiding a porn habit. We explore the spiritual and psychological costs of secrecy, the deadly role of shame, and what true transparency and integrity require. You’ll learn when and how to approach the conversation, the role of community in preparing for disclosure, and why doing your work before you speak is critical. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:12] Welcome and introduction to today’s critical topic: “Should I tell her?” [01:03] The emotional burden of hiding porn use in a relationship. [01:31] The impact of porn on intimacy and why this conversation matters deeply. [02:48] Why there’s no one-size-fits-all answer, but why the conversation likely needs to happen. [03:16] How shame grows in secrecy — and dies in the light. [04:17] Understanding why you're sharing: guilt relief vs. relational integrity. [06:06] A therapist’s advice: “Are you telling her to feel forgiven, or to let her know the full you?” [07:29] The danger of making the disclosure all about you — and the pain it causes. [08:00] The power of community, mentorship, and counsel before disclosure. [08:56] Who to seek advice from — and why the wrong people will just normalize porn. Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned: Apply for the Liberation Boot Camp: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook
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EP 117: Yeadon's Story
08/06/2025
EP 117: Yeadon's Story
In this powerful episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, I sit down with Yeadon Smith—entrepreneur, husband, father of four, and now 900 days pørn-free. From the outside, Yeadon looked like he had it all: success, family, even a yacht. But inside, he was trapped—buried in shame, silently battling a pørn addiction he couldn’t talk about, even in therapy. What changed? A wake-up call from his wife and the realization that “hope” wasn’t enough to protect his sons from the same struggle. Yeadon joined the Liberation Boot Camp not just to break free—but to break the cycle. In this episode, he shares how real healing began when he stopped hiding, started doing the work, and finally led his family with honesty, strength, and purpose. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:21] Yeadon’s backstory: youth ministry, business success, and hidden addiction. [03:56] What his wife said that triggered his journey: “You’re dying on the inside.” [06:30] Lying to his therapist out of fear—even while seeking help for other issues. [08:25] How fatherhood—and fear for his sons—pushed him to finally act. [10:40] Why “hope” is not a strategy when it comes to protecting your kids from pørn. [12:15] Joining Liberation Boot Camp with the intention of breaking generational chains. [16:05] The language of shame in the church—and why it kept him silent. [22:45] The paradigm shift: pørn as a coping mechanism, not a moral failure. [25:10] Tools from the Liberation Boot Camp that changed everything (4RAC Formula, zero-day doc, emotional awareness). [32:50] The ripple effect: how healing from pørn impacted his marriage, parenting, and business. Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned: Apply for the Liberation Boot Camp: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook
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EP 116: This One Habit Is Keeping You Trapped in the Shame Cycle
07/30/2025
EP 116: This One Habit Is Keeping You Trapped in the Shame Cycle
In today’s episode of the Pørn to Purpose podcast, we tackle the hidden force keeping most men trapped in a vicious loop of relapse and regret: isolation. Coach Yeadon and I expose the damaging belief that you have to fight your battle with pørn addiction alone — and why that belief is the doorway to shame, secrecy, and stagnation. This conversation dives deep into the shame cycle — how secrecy breeds guilt, guilt leads to relapse, and the loop repeats endlessly. You'll learn why silence isn't strength, why connection is the antidote, and how speaking up in safe spaces can be the first true step toward lasting freedom. If you’ve ever told yourself “I’ll deal with this on my own,” this episode will shake you awake and show you the path out. Top 10 Show Highlights: [01:23] Introduction to the topic: “The one thing keeping you trapped in the shame cycle.” [02:50] Why the belief “I can do this alone” is the root of the problem for most men. [03:22] “Shame thrives in the darkness” — the destructive power of secrecy. [03:50] The #1 habit keeping most men stuck: fighting pørn addiction in isolation. [05:16] Fear of judgment, rejection, and appearing weak — how these lies keep you hidden. [05:45] “Shame dies when stories are told in safe spaces” — the power of vulnerability. [06:36] Breaking down the shame cycle: urges, secrecy, relapse, repeat. [08:18] “You don’t have a pørn problem. You have a pain problem.” [10:19] How to begin breaking the cycle: speak to someone safe. [17:45] “You don’t get free and then tell the truth. You tell the truth — and then you get free.” Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned: Learn More About the Liberation Boot Camp: Join the Pørn to Purpose Community on Facebook:
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EP 115: The Secret to Recovery (Isn't a Secret)
07/23/2025
EP 115: The Secret to Recovery (Isn't a Secret)
In today’s episode of the Pørn to Purpose podcast, I’m joined by Coach Yeadon, who shares an incredible story of breakthrough—not just in weight loss, but in reclaiming personal integrity. After tracking his food intake for 106 days and losing 25 pounds of fat, Coach Yeadon draws the powerful parallel between tracking physical habits and overcoming pørn addiction. This episode is a raw, honest reflection on how self-deception and emotional escape mechanisms feed addictive behavior—and how structure, accountability, and radical ownership are the keys to lasting freedom. Coach Yeadon reveals how tracking helped him get out of denial and into alignment with the man he truly wanted to be. This is a must-listen for any man who’s tired of lying to himself, tired of slipping back into pørn, and ready to take his integrity, health, and purpose seriously. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:35] Coach Yeadon explains how 106 days of food tracking led to a 25-pound fat loss—and why that matters for pørn recovery. [01:57] Matt and Yeadon talk about the illusion of control and how pørn addiction hides behind “harmless” habits. [03:09] The power of hitting rock bottom—how a single moment on the scale triggered a full-life transformation. [04:52] “That which is measured improves”—Matt introduces the tracking mindset that changed everything. [05:56] The difference between external pressure (like being seen by a client) vs. internal alignment and ownership. [06:46] Why building muscle and running marathons still didn’t address the deeper lack of control. [07:16] Coach Yeadon reveals how watching his wife track food religiously inspired his own turnaround. [08:20] “It wasn’t just about weight—I was out of integrity.” A confession that hits home for every man hiding behind pørn. [09:14] The deeper truth: food and pørn are both escapes. If you're not facing your pain, you're feeding your addiction. [10:42] How structure and tracking help men stop drifting and start leading—with intentionality and purpose. Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned: Learn More About the Liberation Boot Camp: Join the Pørn to Purpose Community on Facebook:
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EP 114: The Two Rung Ladder That Keeps You Stuck in Pørn
07/16/2025
EP 114: The Two Rung Ladder That Keeps You Stuck in Pørn
In this episode of the Pørn to Purpose Podcast, I’m joined by Coach Yeadon to unpack one of the most frustrating struggles men face in recovery—the feeling that no matter how hard you try, you just keep falling short. We call it the “two-rung ladder.” It’s that trap of trying to leap from addiction to total sobriety overnight… and always crashing back down. Coach Yeadon and I talk about why white-knuckling your way through pørn addiction doesn’t work, and how to finally build a framework that does. You’ll learn about the Zero Day Doc, a powerful tool born from my own relapse, that helps you analyze exactly what went wrong—and how to bounce back stronger. If you’re tired of starting over, this one’s for you. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:31] Yeadon introduces the concept of the “two-rung ladder” and why recovery often feels impossible. [01:58] The crushing spiral of shame, guilt, and fear that keeps men stuck. [02:58] Why willpower alone doesn’t work—and what happens when you’re just “hanging” on that top rung. [04:33] How strength training revealed a powerful metaphor for long-term recovery. [06:17] Matt shares how he created a step-by-step recovery system through his work with a coach. [07:46] Introduction of the Zero Day Doc—the forensic tool for relapse analysis. [08:43] Questions from the Zero Day Doc that uncover triggers, breakdowns, and blind spots. [10:13] The importance of replacing guilt with investigation and self-compassion. [12:12] Why pørn is a failed coping mechanism that “almost works”—but never truly satisfies. [18:58] The power of community, transparency, and being witnessed in your recovery. Resources & Links Mentioned: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook: Learn More About the Liberation Bootcamp:
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EP 113: Life on the Other Side of Addiction
07/09/2025
EP 113: Life on the Other Side of Addiction
In today’s episode of the Pørn to Purpose podcast, I sit down with Coach Yeadon to dive deep into what really happens when you commit to freedom from pørn — and why most men are totally unprepared for what comes next. Spoiler: it’s not just about quitting pørn. It’s about transforming into a better man — one who leads, loves, and lives with purpose. We explore the powerful ripple effects of active recovery — how shedding pørn isn't the end, but the beginning of a new chapter: stronger marriages, deeper fatherhood, more personal integrity, and emotional clarity. If you’ve ever said, “I just want to quit,” this episode will wake you up to what’s actually possible on the other side. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:12] Welcoming you to the episode and introducing Coach Yeadon. [01:29] Why we recite “How you do anything is how you do everything” — and how it ties to freedom from pørn. [02:00] Pørn recovery isn’t just about quitting — it’s about building a new set of skills to live well [02:29] Coach Yeadon shares how he felt “catfished” by the Bootcamp — came to quit pørn, ended up changing his life. [03:57] Celebrating 865 days sober — and how that transformation has healed his marriage and fatherhood. [04:49] “You don’t have a pørn problem, you have a pain problem.” — Coach Yeadon breaks this wide open. [05:18] Pørn as a coping mechanism — how it became the one thing that offered quick (but false) peace. [06:08] Real-life examples of fatherhood stress, emotional chaos, and how pørn became the escape. [07:35] The surprising ways that recovery made him a better dad, not just a better man. [08:05] Life on the other side: confidence, clarity, leadership, connection — and why the journey is worth it. Resources & Links Mentioned: Join the Pørn to Purpose Brotherhood on Facebook: Apply for the Liberation Bootcamp:
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EP 112: The Dark Truth of Solo Recovery
07/02/2025
EP 112: The Dark Truth of Solo Recovery
In today’s episode of the Pørn to Purpose podcast, I sit down with Coach Yeadon for a raw, unfiltered conversation about something most men battling pørn addiction try to avoid: solo recovery. We’re exposing the dark truth of trying to “man up” and handle this thing alone. Coach Yeadon shares his own story—how he used all the filters, accountability tools, and white-knuckled willpower… and still stayed stuck. We’re talking about the shame that keeps men isolated, the lies we tell ourselves, and the way pørn thrives in secrecy. Most importantly, we lay out the one thing that truly moves the needle: connection. If you’ve been white-knuckling it, hiding your habit, or waiting until you “get clean” before asking for help—this episode is your wake-up call. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:12] I introduce today’s theme: the dark truth of solo recovery. [01:24] The secret shame of hidden pørn use—and a gut-check moment: “Would you hand your daughter your phone?” [01:53] “The opposite of addiction is not sobriety—it’s connection.” [03:20] Filters, apps, and promises to loved ones don’t work without real support. [04:06] Coach Yeadon’s confession: “I gave my wife access to my pørn reports... and still found workarounds.” [04:11] “Solo recovery is a trap.” [05:42] The lies that kept us stuck: “I just need more discipline” and “No one needs to know.” [06:42] “I trained for an Ironman. I had discipline. But I was still watching pørn.” [07:12] The lie of waiting: “Once I get clean, then I’ll reach out.” [08:10] Shame thrives in silence. Progress crumbles in isolation. Resources & Links Mentioned: Join the Pørn to Purpose Community on Facebook Apply for the Liberation Bootcamp
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EP 111: Sobriety vs Recovery: Why Your Streak Isn’t the Full Story
06/25/2025
EP 111: Sobriety vs Recovery: Why Your Streak Isn’t the Full Story
In today's episode of the "Pørn to Purpose" podcast, we break down one of the most common traps men fall into on their recovery journey—focusing on streaks instead of true transformation. This episode dives deep into the difference between sobriety and recovery. We unpack why white-knuckling your way through porn addiction is not the same as healing, and how relying on your "day counter" alone sets you up for shame, relapse, and a fragile sense of identity. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:12] Introduction to the episode's core theme: Progress over perfection in porn recovery. [01:20] “Sobriety is quantitative, but recovery is cumulative.” – unpacking this powerful truth. [03:41] The problem with making your streak your identity—and what to focus on instead. [04:41] The danger of perfectionism and how it sabotages real recovery. [07:28] What it means to actively build your recovery identity day by day. [08:27] Why white-knuckling fails—and what true emotional strength looks like. [09:55] Learning to recognize emotional triggers like fatigue, loneliness, and stress. [11:11] The power of awareness and daily check-ins when the inner addict flares up. [12:47] Daily habits that make sobriety sustainable—rituals, rhythms, and community. [18:29] How the Liberation Bootcamp helps men shift from surviving to thriving. Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook: Apply for the Liberation Bootcamp:
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EP 110: Am I Addicted to Pørn If I Only Watch Once a Week?
06/18/2025
EP 110: Am I Addicted to Pørn If I Only Watch Once a Week?
In today’s episode of the "Pørn to Purpose" podcast, I sit down with Coach Yeadon to unpack one of the most common questions men ask on the recovery journey: “Am I addicted to Pørn if I only watch it once a week?”. We break down the difference between being “functional” and being truly free, and explore how even low-frequency Pørn-use can still rewire your brain, sabotage intimacy, drain your focus, and erode your integrity over time. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:30] Why “Am I addicted?” is the wrong question — and what to ask instead [01:58] The truth about once-a-week Pørn use and why it still keeps you trapped [03:55] A real definition of addiction: returning to behavior you know is harming you [04:55] The red flags: hiding, sneaking, deleting, and rationalizing [06:18] The mental obsession: when your brain starts planning your next fix [07:38] How even occasional use rewires your arousal and wrecks intimacy [09:05] The emotional cost: why your relationship feels distant and disconnected [10:40] Integrity check: if you only lie once a week, are you honest? [12:07] Why asking the question at all means your conscience is waking up [14:03] Four steps to change: Own it, Interrupt the Pattern, Get Support, Join a Brotherhood Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned: Join the Pørn to Purpose Community on Facebook: Learn More About the Liberation Bootcamp:
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EP 109: 3 Steps to Disrupt the Shame Loop (Before It Pulls You Under)
06/11/2025
EP 109: 3 Steps to Disrupt the Shame Loop (Before It Pulls You Under)
In this episode of the Pørn to Purpose podcast, I’m joined by Coach Yeadon to expose the hidden cycle that keeps men addicted to pornography—what we call the “shame loop.” If you’ve tried to quit pørn but keep falling back into old patterns of guilt, isolation, and self-condemnation, this conversation is for you. We unpack how shame fuels porn addiction, how it distorts your identity, and most importantly—how to break free using real-world tools from our Liberation Boot Camp and men’s recovery community. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:30] Introduction to the shame loop and its impact on porn addiction recovery [01:11] Coach Matt and Coach Yeadon discuss growing up with religious shame and sexual suppression [02:23] What is the shame loop? Understanding the guilt-shame-porn cycle [03:17] Why porn becomes a coping mechanism for emotional pain and unmet needs [04:15] Step-by-step breakdown of the 5-part shame cycle keeping men stuck in addiction [06:38] Guilt vs. shame: how the wrong mindset makes recovery harder [07:31] How shame creates isolation—and why isolation fuels relapse [10:10] Why willpower and moralizing aren’t enough to quit porn [11:09] A 3-step strategy to disrupt the shame loop: Speak it, Reframe it, Make a new choice [14:29] How the Liberation Bootcamp helps men rebuild their identity and stay porn-free Resources & Links Mentioned in the Episode: Join the Porn to Purpose Private Facebook Community: Learn more about the Liberation Boot Camp:
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EP 108: NoFap vs. Real Recovery: Why White-Knuckling It Will Never Set You Free
06/04/2025
EP 108: NoFap vs. Real Recovery: Why White-Knuckling It Will Never Set You Free
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, I’m joined by Coach Yeadon, and we’re diving headfirst into one of the most misunderstood ideas in the recovery world—NoFAP. We’re calling out the truth that simply counting days doesn’t lead to real freedom. Together, we break down the difference between behavior-based abstinence and true identity-level transformation. I share insights into why white-knuckling your way through a streak doesn’t actually heal the root of the problem, and Yeadon gets real about what finally made the difference for him after decades of struggle. We unpack how emotional pain, unprocessed trauma, and isolation feed the cycle of p0rn use—and how community, connection, and inner work are the real path to freedom. This episode is for the man who’s tired of “trying harder” and ready to become someone new. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:26] Conversation around NoFAP, streaks, and real recovery. [01:34] Defining NoFAP and why it’s not enough to lead to true transformation. [02:05] “NoFAP will get you days on the counter. Real recovery sets you free.” [03:34] The danger of behavior-based change versus identity-level change. [04:26] Why most guys fail: they never address the emotional wounds underneath. [05:01] The missing ingredient in NoFAP: brotherhood and community. [06:01] Porn is the painkiller—not the problem. [07:14] Yeadon shares his breakthrough moment and how healing began. [09:43] Shame dies when stories are told in safe spaces. [12:07] What real recovery requires: tools, accountability, and identity shift. Resources & Links Mentioned: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook: Learn More About the Liberation Bootcamp:
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EP 107: Is My Porn Habit a Problem? (How to Know for Sure)
05/28/2025
EP 107: Is My Porn Habit a Problem? (How to Know for Sure)
In this episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, we dive into one of the most important questions a man can ask: “Do I actually have a porn problem?” I’m joined by Coach Yeadon as we get brutally honest about how porn quietly chips away at your integrity, marriage, energy, and mental clarity—even if it hasn’t “wrecked your life.” If you’ve ever questioned your habit, this one’s for you. We unpack the real signs of porn addiction, the lies we tell ourselves to minimize it, and the emotional pain we’re often medicating with porn. For most men, porn isn’t the core issue—it’s the symptom. Whether you’re single, married, spiritual, or just sick of the shame cycle—this episode will help you face the truth and take your first step toward freedom. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:29] Why we keep asking the same question—and why we’ll keep answering it [01:28] “Is porn a problem?” — how that question became the catalyst for change [01:58] The moment you start searching is the moment you already know [03:13] The truth about compartmentalization and why it’s not helping you [04:12] Classic justifications we use: “Every guy does it,” “At least I’m not cheating” [05:36] What white-knuckling really looks like—and why it doesn’t work [06:04] Why hiding it is a sign it’s a problem, even if it hasn’t “ruined” your life [06:42] Buying your own lies: “She knows,” “It’s not that bad,” “It’s just visual” [07:43] Key gut-check questions: Have you tried to quit? Have you failed to? [08:30+] A call to self-inventory—and why integrity is your true north Resources Mentioned: Join the Porn to Purpose Facebook Community: Apply for the Liberation Bootcamp:
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EP 106: How to Raise Sons In a Porn-Saturated World
05/21/2025
EP 106: How to Raise Sons In a Porn-Saturated World
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, I’m joined by Coach Yeadon to discuss one of the most challenging and crucial topics for fathers: raising sons in a world saturated with porn. This conversation is packed with real experiences, practical advice, and honest insights on how to guide our kids through the challenges of today’s hypersexualized digital landscape. You won’t want to miss it. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:02] Introduction to the episode and the challenge of discussing porn with kids. [01:27] Yeadon shares his journey into recovery and how concern for his children was the catalyst. [02:25] Discussing the fears and challenges fathers face when talking to their kids about porn. [04:52] Emphasizing the importance of intentional leadership in guiding kids. [06:26] The role of technology in exposing children to pornography. [07:52] Why leading by example is more powerful than preaching. [10:26] How silence around the topic creates shame and leads to secret struggles. [12:19] Yeadon shares how he found freedom through recovery and the impact on his family. [17:12] The importance of creating a safe space for open, honest conversations with kids. [20:31] The power of consistency and authenticity in parenting. Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook: Learn More About the Liberation Boot Camp:
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EP 105: How to Talk to Your Wife About Porn (Without Destroying Your Marriage)
05/14/2025
EP 105: How to Talk to Your Wife About Porn (Without Destroying Your Marriage)
In this episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, I sit down with Coach Yeadon to have one of the most uncomfortable—but critical—conversations every man trapped in porn eventually faces: how to talk to your wife about porn. Let’s be real—confessing this kind of struggle feels terrifying. You’re afraid she’ll be crushed. That you’ll lose her trust—or worse, her love. But staying silent? That’s already killing your marriage. Today, Coach Yeadon and I break down what that conversation actually looks like, why timing and honesty matter, and how to lead with truth rather than shame. If you're serious about healing and rebuilding intimacy, this episode will show you how to stop hiding and start communicating with the woman who deserves your full heart. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:40] – Matthew and Coach Yeadon open the episode with the emotional weight of bringing porn into a marriage. [02:10] – Why hiding your porn habit silently erodes trust—even if she doesn’t know. [04:00] – “Secrets rot everything they touch” — why honesty matters more than perfection. [05:30] – The wrong time to tell her—and what emotional state you need to be in before you speak. [06:50] – How to avoid blame, shame-dumping, and defensiveness when coming clean. [08:20] – Why most wives aren’t hurt just by porn—but by the betrayal of being lied to. [09:55] – What real accountability looks like after the conversation. [11:15] – Why “just telling her” isn’t enough—you need a plan for recovery. [13:00] – How the Liberation Bootcamp helps men rebuild from the inside out—and lead with truth. [14:30] – A message to husbands: how to earn her trust back with action, not words. Resources Mentioned: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook: Apply for the Liberation Bootcamp:
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EP 104: Why Do I Watch Porn Even When I'm not Horny?
05/07/2025
EP 104: Why Do I Watch Porn Even When I'm not Horny?
In today’s episode of the "Porn to Purpose" podcast, I’m joined by Coach Yeadon as we dive into a question many of us have silently asked ourselves: “Why am I watching porn even when I’m not even horny?” This episode explores the deeper emotional drivers behind porn addiction—stress, anxiety, loneliness, fear, and emotional exhaustion—and why porn becomes our default coping mechanism. Together, we unpack the truth that porn use often has little to do with sex and everything to do with emotional avoidance. We look at how this habit develops, why it “almost works,” and how we’ve been misled into thinking we just have a high sex drive. The truth is, unmet emotional needs are what drive most compulsive behaviors. Yeadon and I also share practical tools and powerful mindset shifts to help you build the capacity to sit with discomfort, regulate your nervous system, and begin choosing healthier ways to meet your needs. Whether you’re just starting out or deep in the work, this conversation offers real insight, emotional clarity, and an invitation to rise above old patterns. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:12] Matt and Yeadon open with the real question: “Why do I watch porn when I’m not even aroused?” [01:34] Breaking the myth: it’s not about sex, it’s about emotional pain and avoidance. [02:04] A look at how stress, boredom, anxiety, and loneliness fuel compulsive porn use. [03:57] Calling out the lie of the “high sex drive” narrative—porn is not about libido. [05:12] Yeadon shares how emotional overwhelm led to habitual porn use in his past. [06:50] The role of awareness and the HALT check-in: hungry, angry, lonely, tired. [08:42] “Porn almost works”—why short-term relief keeps you stuck in the cycle. [10:12] Training the brain to face pain: how to sit with discomfort and not run. [12:57] Practical tools: breathwork, cold showers, movement, and brotherhood. [15:26] Emotional intelligence: learning to respond, not react—and how to begin that journey. Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook: Learn More About the Liberation Boot Camp:
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EP 103: How To Break A Porn Addiction
04/30/2025
EP 103: How To Break A Porn Addiction
In today’s episode of the “Porn to Purpose” podcast, I’m joined by Coach Yeadon as we unpack one of the most essential conversations in breaking free from porn: understanding and applying what we call the Three C’s—Community, Clarity, and Commitment. These are the foundational pillars that have helped hundreds of men step out of addiction and into lasting transformation. We get honest about the real reasons men struggle to quit, why willpower alone isn’t enough, and how most of us are fighting the wrong battle altogether. Coach Yeadon brings his personal experience of over 800 days porn-free and shares the deep inner work, tools, and frameworks that have kept him free and thriving. If you’re serious about change, this episode is a roadmap. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:12] Introduction to the Three C’s and why this episode is foundational for recovery. [01:24] Community: Why shame dies in safe spaces and how connection is the true opposite of addiction. [03:23] The power of sharing your story and normalizing the conversation around porn and addiction. [06:12] Clarity: Why porn isn’t the real problem—and how to uncover what you’re actually running from. [07:55] Understanding emotional triggers using the HALT method: Hungry, Angry, Lonely, Tired. [09:46] How porn becomes a nervous system regulation tool—and why it almost works. [10:57] The truth about needing regulation, not relief—and how to meet your needs in healthy ways. [12:26] Commitment: The importance of following a proven path with structure and guidance. [14:22] Coach Yeadon shares how visibility and brotherhood keep him accountable even 800+ days in. [17:27] Final reflections on how building a better life makes porn irrelevant—and why now is the time to act. Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook: Learn More About the Liberation Bootcamp:
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