The Recovered Dad Podcast
Helping Committed Fathers & Husbands End Their Habit of Watching Pxxn So They Can Reignite the Passion in Their Relationships and Be Better Role Models to Their Children.
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EP 141: The 95% Blueprint - Make it past 'quitter's day'
01/21/2026
EP 141: The 95% Blueprint - Make it past 'quitter's day'
In today’s episode of the Recover Dad Podcast, we dive headfirst into why so many men fail at change—especially when it comes to pxxn addiction recovery—and what actually creates lasting freedom. Using a personal story about weight loss, “Quitter’s Day,” and fatherhood, this episode breaks down the three non-negotiables for real transformation: rock bottom, belief, and environment. What starts as a reflection on New Year’s resolutions quickly turns into a raw conversation about the all-or-nothing trap, why white-knuckling never works, and how men repeatedly sabotage themselves by relying on willpower instead of structure. We explore the data behind accountability, why environment always beats discipline, and how recovery becomes urgent when your children are watching. This episode is especially for fathers and high-performing men who are tired of repeating the same cycle every year—and are ready to take responsibility, lead their families with integrity, and finally break free from pxxn for good. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:01] Welcome back to the Recover Dad Podcast and a reflection on why this time of year is dangerous for men trying to change. [01:01] A personal story about weight gain, failed resolutions, and the illusion of “This is the year.” [02:31] Introduction of “Quitter’s Day” and why most resolutions collapse within weeks. [03:30] “I tried quitting pxxn for 34 years—and it never worked.” [05:37] The rock bottom moment: seeing the future clearly and realizing change is non-negotiable. [07:47] How witnessing someone else’s transformation created belief and hope. [09:14] The three keys to real change: rock bottom, belief, and environment. [11:44] Why accountability groups work—and why recovery cannot happen in isolation. [16:02] The statistics behind success: why accountability raises your odds to 95%. [18:29] A direct call to fathers: your recovery matters because your children are watching. Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned: Learn More About The Liberation Boot Camp: Apply to Join The Liberation Boot Camp:
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EP 140: The Daily Cadence/Rhythm of the Recovered Dad
01/14/2026
EP 140: The Daily Cadence/Rhythm of the Recovered Dad
In today’s episode of The Recovered Dad Podcast, we unpack a powerful, unexpected moment that reveals what real recovery actually produces—not just sobriety, but deep connection, emotional regulation, and trust inside the family. What begins as a simple text message from an 18-year-old son—“I vacuumed out the car for you”—opens the door to a much deeper conversation about fatherhood, pxxn addiction recovery, and the long-term impact of daily habits. This episode explores how recovery work shows up in real life: calmer responses, safer emotional space, and relationships with our children that don’t disappear as they grow older. We break down why the opposite of addiction isn’t just abstinence—it’s connection, and how daily recovery rhythms like exercise, journaling, meditation, and brotherhood create the emotional stability our families can feel. This conversation is a roadmap for men who want to quit pxxn, reclaim their integrity, and become the kind of fathers their kids actually want a relationship with as adults. Top 10 Show Highlights [00:59] Welcome back to The Recovered Dad Podcast and the mission of recovery, fatherhood, and living life as a recovered dad. [01:25] A real-life story that shows the “fruit” of pxxn addiction recovery—not theory, but lived experience. [02:42] An unexpected text from an 18-year-old son sparks an emotional moment of connection and gratitude. [06:21] Why this small act of generosity reveals emotional safety, awareness, and trust in the parent-child relationship. [08:30] A powerful reminder: by age 12, dads have already experienced most of the time they’ll ever spend with their kids. [09:52] Recovery as legacy—building relationships that last beyond childhood into adulthood. [11:08] How pxxn addiction recovery pays real-world dividends in emotional regulation and presence. [14:20] The “Core Four” daily recovery habits: exercise, reading, journaling, and meditation. [18:24] The Three C’s of recovery: Core Four, Community, and Connection. [26:56] “The opposite of addiction is connection”—and why safe emotional space changes everything at home. Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned Learn More About The Liberation Boot Camp: Apply to Join The Liberation Boot Camp:
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EP 139: The Recovered Dad Launch!!!
01/07/2026
EP 139: The Recovered Dad Launch!!!
In this transitional episode, after four years of the Porn to Purpose Podcast, Matt Sinkovitz and Coach Yeadon Smith officially launch the first episode of the Recovered Dad Podcast, introducing a refined vision for the community and the men it serves. This conversation explains the inspiration behind the branding shift and why the mission had to expand beyond simply quitting porn into helping fathers recover from the deeper pain, pressure, and isolation driving addiction in the first place. Drawing from years of work with men in recovery and informed by Yeadon’s own journey as a husband and father, the episode clarifies that porn addiction is not a behavior problem but a pain problem rooted in unmanaged stress and emotional disconnection. Rather than centering on one personal story, this episode sets the foundation for what Recovered Dad stands for: recovery that strengthens marriage, deepens fatherhood, restores integrity, and equips men with the emotional regulation and leadership skills needed to show up fully at home and in life. This is not about white-knuckling sobriety—it’s about becoming a grounded, present, emotionally regulated father with the courage to do the work that truly changes a family’s future. Top 10 Show Highlights [00:15] Introducing the first episode of the Recovered Dad Podcast [01:45] Why Porn to Purpose evolved into Recovered Dad [03:56] Yeadon’s recovery journey as a father and why it matters [05:03] The reality of raising kids in a world of unlimited pornography access [07:52] Identifying the true avatar: fathers with the most at stake [10:45] Why guilt, fear, and shame-based approaches don’t work [12:13] “It’s not a porn problem—it’s a pain problem” [14:35] How recovery skills improve fatherhood, marriage, and leadership [16:27] Why fathers can’t afford to avoid their inner work [21:32] Becoming the dad you needed growing up Resources Mentioned Learn more about the Recovered Dad Community and Liberation Boot Camp
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EP 138: Three Things Every Dad Should Know (about recovery)
12/31/2025
EP 138: Three Things Every Dad Should Know (about recovery)
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, I sit down with Coach Yeadon to have a raw and honest conversation specifically for fathers—the men who carry the most pressure, the most responsibility, and often the deepest unspoken pain. Together, we break down the truth that porn isn’t the real problem—pain is, and we explore why so many fathers turn to porn not for pleasure but for relief from stress, loneliness, and the weight of feeling unseen. Coach Yeadon and I dig into the idea of counterfeit validation, the power of daily habits, and the sobering reality that the wounds we ignore in ourselves become the emotional inheritance we hand to our children. My hope is that this episode gives you clarity, conviction, and the courage to step into the healing and leadership you were meant for. Top 10 Show Highlights [00:35] Introduction to today’s focus: why fathers have the most at stake in porn recovery. [01:05] The emotional truth about fathers carrying invisible pressure while feeling unappreciated. [03:29] The core insight: “You don’t have a porn problem—you have a pain problem.” [04:10] How urges that feel sexual are really driven by stress, fear, fatigue, and loneliness. [05:55] Coach Yeadon explains porn as “fake validation” when life feels overwhelming. [07:28] Why porn “almost works”—and why that makes it a dangerous emotional coping mechanism. [08:41] Insight #2: recovery is a marathon, not a sprint—freedom comes from daily consistency. [10:05] The tooth-brushing metaphor: why emotional and spiritual maintenance matters daily. [14:51] Community data showing that consistent habits predict consistent sobriety. [17:18] The generational truth: unhealed wounds in fathers become inherited trauma in children. Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned Learn More About the Liberation Boot Camp: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook:
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EP 137: Danger Zones, Holiday Chaos, and Getting Back on Track
12/24/2025
EP 137: Danger Zones, Holiday Chaos, and Getting Back on Track
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose Podcast, I sit down with Coach Yeadon to break down why the holiday season is one of the most dangerous times of year for men in recovery—not because of porn itself, but because of the disrupted routines, emotional pressure, family dynamics, late nights, and hidden pain that make us vulnerable long before a relapse ever happens. We talk openly about how the “middle circle” becomes a trap during Thanksgiving and Christmas, how fatigue and overwhelm quietly pull you off track, and why most slips start with being tired, stressed, or out of your normal rhythm. This conversation is about getting honest, preparing before triggers hit, staying committed to your core habits, and learning to course-correct quickly and gracefully instead of spiraling into shame. If you want to stay strong through the holidays, protect your integrity, and stay aligned with your recovery, this episode gives you the clarity and tools to do exactly that. Top 10 Show Highlights: [08:38] Matt explains the “middle circle” danger zone and why hanging out there long enough almost always leads to inner circle behaviors. [09:36] They reveal how porn addiction often starts with simple drift—fatigue, overeating, staying up too late, or feeling emotionally overwhelmed. [10:51] A powerful reminder: “We don’t have a porn problem. We have a pain problem. Porn is the pill we take to manage the pain.” [12:19] The guys break down how skipping routines and habits lowers emotional resilience, making triggers harder to handle. [14:28] Practical tools for planning ahead, managing urges, and interrupting patterns before they escalate. [19:11] What to do when you’ve already “gone off the rails” and how to course-correct without shame. [22:09] The importance of telling on yourself early and using visibility to break the power of secrecy. [23:09] Simple reset strategies: movement, water, breath, environment change, and rest. [24:31] Why checking in with community removes the emotional charge and brings clarity back online. [25:36] How to extract the lesson from a slip, rebuild quickly, and return to self-compassion and accountability. Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned: Learn More About the Liberation Boot Camp: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook:
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EP 136: Thanksgiving Episode 2025
12/17/2025
EP 136: Thanksgiving Episode 2025
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, we dive into a raw and timely conversation about one of the most overlooked challenges in recovery: holiday-triggered emotional chaos. With Thanksgiving and the holiday season approaching, Coach Yeadon breaks down why this time of year activates old wounds, intensifies emotional pressure, and amplifies the urge to reach for pxrn as a way to escape the storm inside. This episode is a powerful call to rise above holiday chaos, master your thoughts, and lead your life with peace and purpose. Top 10 Show Highlights [00:15] Welcome back to the Porn to Purpose podcast — kicking off a holiday-focused conversation. [01:00] Yeadon explains why the holiday season creates emotional turbulence and amplifies triggers. [02:10] Family interactions often activate old patterns — “nobody irritates us like family.” [04:27] The truth behind addiction: “It’s not that you have a pxrn problem — you have a pain problem.” [05:10] Why emotional overwhelm leads directly to pxrn urges, especially during stressful gatherings. [06:35] How stories in the mind (“nobody appreciates me… nobody sees what I carry”) create relapse conditions. [07:52] Introduction to the 4RAC Formula as a real-time tool to stop emotional spirals. [09:40] A powerful moment on a walk with his dogs — and how shifting focus can dissolve panic. [12:05] Choosing your thoughts isn’t easy — but it’s a muscle that gets stronger with practice. [15:51] A moment of gratitude: the paradox of grieving lost years yet being grateful for the growth recovery created. Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned Learn More About the Liberation Boot Camp: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook:
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EP 135: Choose Your Hard: The Power of Habits, Commitment, and Accountability
12/10/2025
EP 135: Choose Your Hard: The Power of Habits, Commitment, and Accountability
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose Podcast, Coach Yeadon takes us deep into a raw, personal story that reveals one of the most important truths about lasting recovery: your freedom is built on your systems, not your feelings. What starts as a simple morning routine—getting up, dropping off his daughter, doing the Core Four—turns into a powerful lesson about discipline, emotional resilience, and the hard choices every man must make if he wants his life back. From cold plunges in freezing weather to the daily battle between comfort and commitment, Yeadon unpacks why porn addiction survives in the shadows of convenience… and why true recovery requires a man to rise, choose his hard, and build a structure strong enough to hold him when life punches back. This episode is a truth bomb about accountability, systems, emotional coping, and the brutal honesty required to walk from pornography into purpose. Whether you’re early in recovery or rebuilding your life brick by brick, this conversation is a wake-up call to stop trying harder—and start building the plan that will finally set you free. Top 10 Show Highlights [00:15] Welcome back to the Porn to Purpose Podcast as Coach Yeadon hosts solo while Matt is away on a meditation retreat. [01:30] The morning routine setup—getting his daughter to school and stepping straight into the Core Four. [02:30] The “big rocks” lesson: recovery has to go into the bucket first or nothing else will fit. [04:00] Why avoiding porn is not a plan—and how porn acted as a coping mechanism for deeper emotional pain. [05:17] The Four-R Formula: remembering pain, identifying needs, and choosing a new behavior when the urge hits. [06:49] The cold plunge story: resisting comfort, facing the shock, and using discomfort as emotional training. [09:14] “Choose your hard”—the idea that addiction is hard, recovery is hard, and every man must choose which hard will shape his life. [12:04] The science of commitment: why accountability raises success from 10% to 95%. [13:41] Understanding porn as a coping system—not a moral failure—and why healing requires replacing it with healthier mechanisms. [16:55] “You don’t rise to the level of your goals; you fall to the level of your systems.” Why structure and brotherhood matter more than motivation. Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned Learn More About the Liberation Boot Camp: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook:
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EP 134: Detective Work In Recovery
12/03/2025
EP 134: Detective Work In Recovery
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, Coach Yeadon shares a breakthrough that surfaced during a Liberation Boot Camp call—revealing how missing just a few key practices can quietly weaken your recovery framework. After two back-to-back travel weekends, he found himself overwhelmed, disconnected from his wife and kids, and struggling internally despite staying consistent with his daily habits. It wasn’t until he returned to breathwork and reciting the Noble Code that everything clicked, helping him see how those two missing practices had eroded his emotional stability without him realizing it. This conversation drives home why emotional pressure builds from within, why it eventually finds the cracks in your framework, and why you can’t see these breakdowns alone. If you’ve ever felt the urge to escape even while "doing everything right," this episode reveals what’s really happening beneath the surface and how brotherhood and structure bring you back into alignment. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:15] Welcome listeners back to the Porn to Purpose podcast. [01:00] Yeadon introduces the story of his two-week travel stretch and the emotional fallout that followed. [02:53] He describes the disconnect—feeling distant from his wife, overwhelmed, and stuck in a rising storm of uncomfortable emotions. [03:51] “The DJ was spinning the record”—how internal narratives get louder when your framework weakens. [05:02] Breathwork and the Noble Code: the two grounding practices he didn’t realize he had been missing for over two weeks. [07:36] The moment everything clicked—how breathwork instantly reset his nervous system and shifted the emotional chaos into the background. [09:34] The epiphany: his defensive structure had eroded without him noticing. Missing these practices weakened him more than he realized. [14:02] The truth: porn isn’t a porn problem—it’s a pain and pressure problem, and pressure always finds the weakest spot. [19:03] Feeling the pull: Yeadon talks openly about the real-time moments where the urge to escape showed up during the week. [26:23] Why isolation makes recovery impossible, and why every man needs a brotherhood to help reveal what he can’t see in himself. Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned: Learn More About the Liberation Boot Camp: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook:
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EP 133: If I Stray From The Path
11/26/2025
EP 133: If I Stray From The Path
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, Coach Yeadon and I broke down a real-life weekend story that reveals what true recovery looks like when no one’s watching. A simple guys’ trip turns into a masterclass on discipline, relapse, and what it means to “return to the path.” Coach Yeadon opens up about going away with friends—once a guaranteed recipe for relapse—and how, through systems, structure, and brotherhood, he faced temptation without falling. The conversation dives deep into why recovery isn’t about perfection; it’s about returning. They discuss what happens when we drop our habits, why systems matter more than willpower, and how to rebuild after a slip without shame or self-destruction. You’ll learn why every man’s success or struggle comes down to the system he’s running, how to recognize when pressure finds the weak spot in your framework, and what it takes to build one that lasts. This episode is a grounded, honest look at masculine discipline, accountability, and the vow every free man must live by: “If I stray from the path, I vow to return.” Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:10] Welcome back to the Porn to Purpose podcast. [01:30] Yeadon shares his guys’ trip to Nashville and Chattanooga with two lifelong friends. [02:58] He reflects on how, before recovery, trips like this were “binge events” driven by his inner addict. [03:34] The Noble Code reminder—“If I stray from the path, I vow to return”—sets the tone for the discussion. [05:02] Daily Core Four habits—reading, journaling, meditation, exercise—as the cornerstone of lasting sobriety. [07:31] How discipline in nutrition and health mirrors discipline in recovery. [09:24] Yeadon admits skipping his tracking for two days and parallels it with relapse behavior: “Do not recommend.” [13:17] Why perfection isn’t realistic—and how ownership turns failure into feedback. [17:08] “Straying isn’t failure; it just means something in our framework was weak.” [19:10] The key insight: You don’t have a porn problem—you have a pain problem. Porn was the pill. Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned Learn More About the Liberation Boot Camp: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook:
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EP 132: The Daily Maintenance of a Recovered Man
11/19/2025
EP 132: The Daily Maintenance of a Recovered Man
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose Podcast, we unpack a powerful real-life story that connects recovery, fatherhood, and the deeper purpose behind breaking free from porn. What started as a simple morning moment—an 18-year-old son asking his dad to come collect eggs—turned into a vivid metaphor for the recovery journey itself. The story reveals that it’s never about the eggs… it’s about connection. Coach Yeadon shares how this ordinary moment with his son became a mirror for his own healing. He reflects on the front-loaded work of recovery—the early struggle to rebuild your foundation after years of unhealthy coping—and why real transformation comes when a man learns to stay present with pain instead of running from it. This episode dives deep into the daily maintenance of recovery, the cost of disconnection, and how fatherhood can become one of the most powerful motivators for lasting change. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:15] Welcome back to the Porn to Purpose Podcast — Matt and Yeadon set the stage for today’s story. [01:29] The story begins: Yeadon’s 18-year-old son invites him to collect eggs out in the country. [03:21] Yeadon shares the backstory—his father’s dream of raising chickens and how the family turned it into reality. [06:15] “It’s not about the eggs—it’s about connection.” How this became a powerful metaphor for fatherhood and recovery. [08:00] Yeadon opens up about the real reason his recovery began—his desire to connect deeply with his children. [10:06] The lesson: Porn was never the problem. Pain was. Porn was the pill he took for pain. [12:09] The “front-loaded” work of recovery—why the hardest effort comes at the beginning before the fruit ever appears. [14:09] The ongoing maintenance of recovery and the habits that keep freedom sustainable long-term. [19:59] “The relapse doesn’t happen when you type in Pornhub—it happens the moment you step off the path.” [23:12] The identity shift from addict to recovered dad—a man who no longer hides, but leads his family with truth and strength. Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned: Learn More About the Liberation Boot Camp: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook:
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EP 131: How Recovery Skills Build Real Adulthood
11/12/2025
EP 131: How Recovery Skills Build Real Adulthood
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose Podcast, Coach Yeadon flies solo to dive deep into one of the most overlooked dimensions of recovery: how the skills that free you from porn also build the foundation of real manhood. After 20 years of marriage and watching his son step into adulthood, Yeadon reflects on what it actually means to become a man—and how his recovery journey reshaped his ability to lead, love, and live with integrity. This episode isn’t just about quitting porn—it’s about taking ownership, building emotional discipline, and creating systems that produce real freedom. Yeadon unpacks the difference between being “18 and liable” versus being an adult with accountability, purpose, and structure. If you’ve ever wondered why you can’t stay consistent, why you keep repeating the same patterns, or why you still feel like a boy trapped in a man’s body—this episode is your blueprint for transformation. Top 10 Show Highlights [00:00] Welcome back to the Porn to Purpose Podcast — Coach Yeadon introduces today’s solo episode. [01:00] Reflections on 20 years of marriage and watching his son turn 18. [02:30] “Being 18 doesn’t make you responsible—it just makes you liable.” Yeadon explains what true adulthood means. [03:40] The connection between recovery and maturity — how porn addiction masks deeper pain. [04:20] “I didn’t have a porn problem. I had a pain problem.” Why managing pain is the foundation of real healing. [05:10] The first step: taking extreme ownership of your choices, mindset, and habits. [07:00] The truth about freedom: why it requires structure, discipline, and daily systems. [09:00] Boundaries as sacred protection — how to safeguard your mission, energy, and relationships. [13:40] Emotional regulation as the true mark of masculinity: learning to sit in discomfort without reacting. [18:40] Legacy over lust — how to become the kind of man your children can look up to. Resources Mentioned Learn More About the Liberation Boot Camp: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook: Follow Yeadon Smith on Instagram:
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EP 130: The Power of Community in Porn Recovery
11/05/2025
EP 130: The Power of Community in Porn Recovery
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose Podcast, I sat down with Coach Yeadon to unpack one of the most overlooked truths in recovery: you can’t do this alone. For years, both of us tried to fight the battle against porn in isolation—relying on willpower, self-discipline, and secrecy. But in this conversation, we reveal why isolation is the silent killer of progress and how true transformation happens only in brotherhood. We break down the three pillars that make recovery sustainable—community, accountability, and healing—and share how each of these transforms shame into strength. From learning through other men’s stories to practicing loving responsibility instead of judgment, this episode gives men a clear path to rebuild their integrity and walk in freedom. This isn’t about theory. It’s about truth, experience, and what it really takes to rise. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:30] Welcome to the Porn to Purpose podcast with Matt and Yeadon—today’s topic: Why You Can’t Do This Alone. [01:15] Matt shares how community became the missing piece in his recovery after years of trying to do it solo. [02:41] “If you want to go fast, go alone. If you want to go far, go together.” The power of shared growth and guidance. [03:40] “Alone we are guessing. Together we are equipped.” Why community gives you the tools and clarity to move forward. [05:07] Yeadon exposes the myth of the lone warrior and why even the most independent men rely on others to learn. [06:37] “The truth is, brother—you will not beat this on your own.” Why isolation is just another form of denial. [08:26] Accountability redefined: visibility, responsibility, and compassion that build strength instead of shame. [10:21] “We call each other up, not out.” The unique brotherhood culture inside Porn to Purpose. [15:17] Why shame-based accountability fails—and how real growth comes through grace and ownership. [17:00] “One of the blessings of community is the blessing of healing.” The closing reflection on why brotherhood leads to freedom. Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned: Learn More About the Liberation Boot Camp: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook:
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EP 129: Real Life Stress Test
10/29/2025
EP 129: Real Life Stress Test
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose Podcast, I sat down with Coach Yeadon to unpack one of the most eye-opening truths in recovery: it’s not a porn problem — it’s a pain problem. What started as a personal story about his father’s emergency heart surgery turned into a powerful reflection on how emotional pain drives addictive behavior—and how true recovery means learning to face discomfort without reaching for the “digital pain pill.” Yeadon opens up about walking through one of the most emotionally charged weeks of his life and realizing how far his recovery had brought him. Through meditation, journaling, and honest connection, he found peace and strength in moments that once would have sent him spiraling. We talk about the myth of “just quitting,” why white-knuckling doesn’t work, and what real active recovery looks like when the storms of life hit. This episode dives deep into emotional resilience, masculine integrity, and how learning to sit with pain transforms men from the inside out. This isn’t about behavior management—it’s about healing the man behind the habit. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:20] Welcome listeners back to the Porn to Purpose Podcast with Matt and Coach Yeadon. [01:00] Yeadon shares his recent personal story—his father’s open-heart surgery and his mother’s cancer procedure. [04:40] The emotional chaos of the week becomes a mirror for what recovery has taught him: how to sit with pain without escaping. [05:10] “It’s not a porn problem. It’s a pain problem. Porn is the pill we take for the pain.” [07:25] How unprocessed emotional pain fuels addiction and keeps men trapped in the relapse cycle. [09:10] Yeadon shares how his “pain protocol” of meditation, reading, and walking helped him stay grounded. [11:05] “I was able to be present for my family with peace and power—that’s what recovery builds.” [13:20] Why learning to navigate pain is worth every ounce of work and discipline it takes. [15:00] “We show up thinking we’re fixing our porn habit—but what we’re really fixing is our relationship with ourselves.” [17:30] The conversation closes with gratitude and a challenge to every man: do whatever it takes to build freedom from the grip of porn. Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned: Learn More About the Liberation Boot Camp: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook:
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EP 128: Exposing Your Ambush Zones
10/22/2025
EP 128: Exposing Your Ambush Zones
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, I sat down with Coach Yeadon to talk about ambush zones—those predictable traps where porn temptation strikes hardest. Whether it’s late-night screen time, a lonely hotel room, or the stress after a fight at home, these moments can derail recovery if you’re not prepared. We share raw stories from our own lives, unpack why willpower almost never works, and show you how awareness, safeguards, and accountability can turn these hidden dangers into preventable victories. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:28] Matt introduces the theme of “Exposing Your Ambush Zones” and why it’s essential for lasting freedom. [02:00] A story of a recovering alcoholic who avoided bars—and how the same principle applies to porn addiction recovery. [03:15] Matt describes how he feels strong in daylight, around people, but vulnerable late at night alone with a computer. [05:00] The difference between obvious traps (like strip clubs) and hidden ones (like stress, conflict, or downtime). [06:40] Yeadon shares a “slippery spot” story—slipping in the mud during a race—as a metaphor for falling when you least expect it. [08:25] The danger of drifting through your day without awareness—why complacency is the enemy of recovery. [10:15] Common ambush zones: business trips, late-night screen time, weekends alone, conflict with loved ones, and boredom. [12:45] Yeadon’s raw example: feeling the pull during his father’s surgery week, exhausted and alone in his office. [14:20] The power of “telling on yourself”—getting visible with brothers instead of hiding in silence. [16:45] The three-part strategy: (1) have a strategy in place, (2) create an action plan, (3) build accountability through community. Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned: Learn More About the Liberation Boot Camp: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook:
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EP 127: You Can't Outsource Your Recovery
10/15/2025
EP 127: You Can't Outsource Your Recovery
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, Coach Yeadon and I dig into one of the hardest truths about recovery—you can’t outsource your recovery. We’ve all tried filters, accountability partners, and silver-bullet solutions, hoping something outside of us would fix the problem. But the truth is, porn isn’t the real issue—it’s the pain underneath. And unless you face that pain, do the daily reps, and rewire your brain, you’ll stay stuck in the same cycle. This conversation is about progress over perfection, why sobriety is not the same as recovery, and what it really takes to build a life of freedom and strength. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:15] Welcome listeners back to the Porn to Purpose podcast. [01:00] Coach Yeadon shares a comic that sparked today’s theme: you can’t hire someone to do your pushups. [02:14] Why outsourcing your recovery—through tech, groups, or coaches—will never create real freedom. [03:16] Porn isn’t a problem—it’s a pain problem. Porn is the pill we take to numb the wound. [04:35] Matt shares his early attempts with filters and accountability partners—and why they failed. [06:05] The myth of silver bullets: no filter, no coach, no group can make you sober. [07:05] Why accountability fails if you don’t learn to fight the battle at midnight—alone. [10:00] Relapse starts earlier than you think—it begins when emotional wounds get triggered. [13:04] Coach Yeadon opens up about how porn was never about sex—it was about fake validation, trying to feel “enough.” [15:13] The truth about help vs. hard work—coaching and community can guide you, but only you can face the pain. [17:28] The HALT tool (Hungry, Angry, Lonely, Tired) and why these cracks in the dam lead to relapse. [20:38] Track your inputs, not just your streaks. Reps rewire your brain—sobriety doesn’t. [22:56] Progress over perfection: why chasing streaks keeps men stuck and shame keeps them weak. [23:50] Closing invitation: stop outsourcing, start training, and step into true recovery. Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned: Learn More About the Liberation Boot Camp: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook:
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EP 126: Three Things That I Learned in 12-Step Recovery
10/08/2025
EP 126: Three Things That I Learned in 12-Step Recovery
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, I’m joined by Coach Yeadon as we dive into the raw truths we’ve learned from years of battling porn addiction and walking through 12-Step recovery. What started as skepticism toward “powerlessness” and the phrase “I’m an addict” eventually revealed itself as life-changing wisdom. Together, we unpack the difference between sobriety and recovery, why streaks aren’t enough, and how the power of community and radical honesty destroys shame at its root. This episode is not about theory—it’s about the hard-earned lessons that separate the men who relapse endlessly from the men who finally walk free. Whether you’re a husband, father, or leader tired of the double life, these three principles will call you higher. Top 10 Show Highlights [00:15] Welcome to the Porn to Purpose podcast—today’s focus: lessons from 12-Step recovery. [01:34] Matt’s early resistance to 12-Step work and the identity of “I’m an addict.” [04:26] The first big lesson: understanding powerlessness and where true power begins. [07:21] “If I take my foot off the gas, eventually I will relapse”—why recovery requires constant action. [09:44] The razor’s edge: how one click, one look, opens the floodgates. [14:02] Why identifying as an addict can actually empower you to stop playing games with porn. [16:50] Sobriety vs. Recovery: the crucial difference that changes everything. [19:35] Why streaks don’t save you—and how recovery stacks up even through setbacks. [21:04] The healing power of community and brutal honesty. [23:58] “Shame dies when stories are told in safe places”—how brotherhood breaks isolation. Linked Resources Learn More About The Liberation Boot Camp: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook:
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EP 125: What Pørn Addiction Is Really Costing You: The Hidden Stakes Every Man Must Face
10/01/2025
EP 125: What Pørn Addiction Is Really Costing You: The Hidden Stakes Every Man Must Face
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, I sat down with Coach Yeadon for a raw, unfiltered conversation about what’s really at stake when we stay trapped in pørn addiction. This isn’t just about lust or habit — it’s about marriage, fatherhood, legacy, and who we are when no one’s looking. Coach Yeadon shares his own journey of being stuck in a double life for 17 years. As a former youth minister battling secret addiction, he unpacks the fear of exposure, the slow collapse of intimacy, and the crushing weight of shame. Most powerfully, he reveals how his pørn use wasn’t just affecting him — it was infecting his marriage, endangering his children, and robbing him of true connection. We explore why white-knuckling doesn’t work, how pørn rewires your brain, and the silent war most men are losing behind closed doors. If you’re a man who feels torn between who you pretend to be and who you really are — this one’s for you. This conversation is a powerful wake-up call, and an invitation to reclaim your integrity before it costs you everything. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:10] Welcome to today’s conversation with Coach Yeadon. [01:05] “What are the stakes that pørn addiction is putting at risk in my life?” [03:17] First exposure to pørn at age 8 — and how it set the tone for decades of struggle. [04:41] The fear of passing addiction down to his kids. [06:05] The devastating impact of being caught — and the false hope of “trying harder.” [07:32] Why real sex stopped being enough — and how pørn hijacked his arousal. [08:46] Living in fear of being exposed — even in everyday conversations. [10:21] “Someday” is not a strategy: the high cost of delay and denial. [12:55] The inner voice that whispered, “You are not who you say you are.” [15:12] The moment he realized he had to change — or lose everything. Resources Mentioned: Learn More About the Liberation Bootcamp: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook:
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EP 124: From Food to Fantasy: Coping Mechanisms in Addiction Recovery
09/24/2025
EP 124: From Food to Fantasy: Coping Mechanisms in Addiction Recovery
In today’s episode of the Pørn to Purpose podcast, we reveal the real reason you keep going back to pørn—and it’s not about sex. It’s about emotional pain, unhealed wounds, and the need to escape. We draw a powerful parallel between food addiction and pørn addiction, using the lens of the Biggest Loser documentary. Just like food isn’t the real problem for a food addict, pørn isn’t your problem either—it’s the pill you take to numb what you’re not ready to feel. Whether you're dealing with stress, loneliness, rejection, or shame... this episode breaks down why most recovery attempts fail and how you can take the first step toward real, lasting transformation. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:29] Why it’s called the Liberation Boot Camp—and why it matters. [01:24] The emotional roots of food and pørn addiction. [01:54] “You don’t have a pørn problem. You have a pain problem.” [02:22] How pørn becomes a coping mechanism, not just a bad habit. [02:51] The dopamine hit that almost works—but leaves you emptier. [03:16] Why white-knuckling your way through never works. [03:49] True recovery = identity shift, not just restriction. [05:45] Real stories of emotional coping with pørn use. [06:40] How cravings for food and pørn hit the same emotional centers. [08:35] Breaking the cycle of “this is my year”—and actually changing. Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned: Learn More About the Liberation Boot Camp: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook:
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EP 123: Fathering Your Inner Child: The Missing Key in Pørn Addiction Recovery
09/17/2025
EP 123: Fathering Your Inner Child: The Missing Key in Pørn Addiction Recovery
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, I sat down with Coach Yeadon to unpack a powerful story that unexpectedly cracked open a deeper truth about healing. What started as a simple moment—getting the family dog from his son’s bed—turned into a vivid example of how the inner child still lives in us, how triggers hijack our nervous system, and how porn has historically been our escape hatch when emotional chaos strikes. We explore how recovery isn’t about managing behavior—it’s about learning to respond to the fear, shame, and panic that still live in the body. Yeadon breaks down what it looks like to show up for yourself in those moments, to become the grounded father your inner child never had, and to stop handing the wheel to the boy who just wants relief. This conversation is a deep dive into emotional mastery, self-parenting, and how we transform shame into strength. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:15] Welcome listeners back to the Porn to Purpose podcast. [01:15] Yeadon introduces the story of his son’s fear and the title: “The Night My Inner Child Woke Up.” [04:44] His son wakes in terror—mirroring the very same disoriented, fear-based responses Yeadon often feels when emotionally triggered. [06:14] “I’m not okay”—Yeadon explains how our inner child often gets activated and how unsafe it can feel in the body. [07:30] The link between emotional overwhelm and the addict’s urge to reach for porn as a way to feel "okay." [08:43] A separate moment: an innocent comment from Yeadon’s wife triggers a full internal shame response. [09:41] He breaks down how trauma responses aren’t about logic—they’re about patterning and nervous system memory. [10:45] How the smallest things can send us spiraling when deeper emotional wounds go unaddressed. [12:30] What it means to “father yourself” and offer the calm, safe presence your younger self never received. [14:15] Recovery as re-parenting: why real freedom comes when we stop escaping and start nurturing the part of us that’s still afraid. Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned: Learn More About the Liberation Bootcamp: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook:
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EP 122: Is M@sturbation Without Pørn Still a Problem?
09/10/2025
EP 122: Is M@sturbation Without Pørn Still a Problem?
In today’s episode of the “Porn to Purpose” podcast, we tackle one of the most common questions on the recovery journey: “Can I still masturbate if I’m not watching pørn?” This discussion uncovers the hidden traps of swapping pørn for masturbation without addressing the deeper emotional and psychological drivers, showing how this substitution can keep you stuck in the same cycle, outsourcing intimacy to fantasy, and capping your personal growth, intimacy, and masculine power. Whether you’re just starting out or have been pørn-free for months, this episode will help you spot hidden patterns, face uncomfortable truths, and take real steps toward lasting freedom. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:12] Introduction to the question: “Can I still masturbate without pørn?” [01:40] How “The Substitution Trap” keeps men stuck in the same addictive cycle. [02:35] Why quitting pørn doesn’t automatically mean you’re free from compulsion. [03:50] The dangers of outsourcing intimacy to fantasy instead of real connection. [05:01] How rebranded coping mechanisms keep you from true recovery. [06:20] The deep connection between shame, guilt, and early sexual conditioning. [07:43] The real question to ask: not “Can I?” but “Why am I?” [08:12] How compulsive masturbation impacts emotional health, focus, and drive. [09:35] The “glass ceiling” effect on personal growth and masculine development. [10:50] Encouragement to seek deeper healing and join a supportive brotherhood. Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned: Learn More About the Liberation Bootcamp: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook:
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EP 121: Inside the Bubble: Why You Relapse (And How to Stop It for Good)
09/03/2025
EP 121: Inside the Bubble: Why You Relapse (And How to Stop It for Good)
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, I’m joined by Coach Yeadon as we dive into one of the most important and often overlooked parts of the recovery journey—what we in the rooms call “The Bubble.” It’s that foggy mental space where logic disappears, the addict voice takes over, and we end up doing things we swore we’d never do again. We unpack a heartbreaking real-life story about a father whose compulsive behavior led to a devastating moment of neglect—one that could’ve ended in tragedy. It was a powerful reminder for both of us of where this path can lead when left unchecked. From there, we explore how our inner dialogue—when left unspoken—can talk us into relapse, and how visibility and brotherhood are the keys to real transformation. Top 10 Show Highlights: [01:00] The story of a father’s addiction gone too far—and the tragic consequences that followed. [03:49] Why addiction isn't just about impulse—but deep emotional wounds left unaddressed. [07:09] Introduction to “The Bubble”—a dissociative state where clear thinking disappears. [08:40] How rationalizing thoughts lead men to break their own values. [10:33] What it feels like to be “in the bubble”—and how time distortion plays a role in relapse. [12:27] Why men constantly think they’re the exception—and how that keeps them stuck. [15:31] The addict voice that shows up like a friend—and how to spot its deception. [17:46] How visibility and community support lead to clarity, healing, and power. [19:21] Why emotional awareness is essential—and how most men were never taught it. [24:58] An overview of the Four R.A.C. Formula from the Liberation Boot Camp. Resources Mentioned in This Episode: Learn more about Liberation Boot Camp: Join the Pørn to Purpose Community on Facebook:
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EP 120: The Substitution Trap
08/27/2025
EP 120: The Substitution Trap
In today's episode of the Pørn to Purpose podcast, we dive into a deceptive trap that keeps men stuck in addiction—even after they’ve technically quit watching pørn. Coach Yeadon shares a vulnerable and powerful personal story from early in his marriage when he thought he was escaping pørn… but had simply swapped it for another addiction. This episode confronts the myth of willpower, the lie of substitution, and the deeper truth that real recovery isn’t about quitting pørn—it’s about healing the pain beneath it. If you’ve ever swapped one behavior for another and still felt stuck, numb, or triggered—this episode is your wake-up call. Discover why it’s not a pørn problem—it’s a pain problem, and what you must do to finally break free. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:29] – Introduction to the episode and Yeadon’s story from early marriage [01:51] – Working in ministry while secretly battling pørn addiction [02:20] – The only tools Yeadon had: guilt, shame, and white-knuckling [03:13] – How he substituted video games to avoid watching pørn [05:13] – The hidden truth: the game was just another dopamine hit [06:21] – Understanding that he never healed—he just distracted himself [07:08] – "It’s not a pørn problem. It’s a pain problem." [08:04] – Why substitution is not recovery and never leads to true freedom [09:01] – The lie of distraction: you’re playing a game, but still thinking about pørn [10:08] – The need to heal your pain at the root, not just manage symptoms Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned: Learn More About the Liberation Bootcamp: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook:
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EP 119: Visibility Breeds Integrity
08/20/2025
EP 119: Visibility Breeds Integrity
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, Coach Yeadon and I explore how visibility plays a vital role in building integrity throughout the pørn recovery process. So many men try to white-knuckle it in the dark, believing secrecy is the only way to protect themselves. But what I’ve come to learn—and what we discuss in this episode—is that being seen is actually one of the fastest ways to grow. We talk about the resistance many of us feel toward being public or open about our struggle with pørn. We discuss the fears of being judged, exposed, or misunderstood—and how those fears are almost never realized. We also dig into how accountability, leadership, and visibility don’t just keep us in line, they elevate us. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:12] Kicking off the episode with a reflection on consistency and showing up. [00:55] Breaking down the theme of the episode: visibility breeds integrity. [01:53] The role public visibility played in launching Matt’s personal recovery and coaching journey. [03:20] How sharing your pørn recovery story publicly can deepen your commitment. [04:13] Weekly tracker check-ins as an example of applied accountability in the community. [05:10] Coach Yeadon’s reflections on his previous career as a health coach and the power of being seen. [06:36] The internal fear of sharing publicly about pørn recovery—and what actually happened. [07:34] Stepping into integrity and leadership through transparency. [08:03] How leadership in the community reinforces integrity and healing through service. [09:37] Coach Yeadon shares how none of the feared judgment ever materialized when he became visible. Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned: Learn More About the Liberation Bootcamp: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook:
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EP 118: Should You Tell Her? What to Do If you've Been Hiding Your Pørn Habit...
08/13/2025
EP 118: Should You Tell Her? What to Do If you've Been Hiding Your Pørn Habit...
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, I sit down with Coach Yeadon to tackle one of the most gut-wrenching and pivotal questions a man can face in his recovery journey: “Should I tell her?” Whether you're married, dating, or in any form of committed relationship, this episode dives deep into the emotional and relational weight of hiding a porn habit. We explore the spiritual and psychological costs of secrecy, the deadly role of shame, and what true transparency and integrity require. You’ll learn when and how to approach the conversation, the role of community in preparing for disclosure, and why doing your work before you speak is critical. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:12] Welcome and introduction to today’s critical topic: “Should I tell her?” [01:03] The emotional burden of hiding porn use in a relationship. [01:31] The impact of porn on intimacy and why this conversation matters deeply. [02:48] Why there’s no one-size-fits-all answer, but why the conversation likely needs to happen. [03:16] How shame grows in secrecy — and dies in the light. [04:17] Understanding why you're sharing: guilt relief vs. relational integrity. [06:06] A therapist’s advice: “Are you telling her to feel forgiven, or to let her know the full you?” [07:29] The danger of making the disclosure all about you — and the pain it causes. [08:00] The power of community, mentorship, and counsel before disclosure. [08:56] Who to seek advice from — and why the wrong people will just normalize porn. Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned: Apply for the Liberation Boot Camp: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook
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EP 117: Yeadon's Story
08/06/2025
EP 117: Yeadon's Story
In this powerful episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, I sit down with Yeadon Smith—entrepreneur, husband, father of four, and now 900 days pørn-free. From the outside, Yeadon looked like he had it all: success, family, even a yacht. But inside, he was trapped—buried in shame, silently battling a pørn addiction he couldn’t talk about, even in therapy. What changed? A wake-up call from his wife and the realization that “hope” wasn’t enough to protect his sons from the same struggle. Yeadon joined the Liberation Boot Camp not just to break free—but to break the cycle. In this episode, he shares how real healing began when he stopped hiding, started doing the work, and finally led his family with honesty, strength, and purpose. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:21] Yeadon’s backstory: youth ministry, business success, and hidden addiction. [03:56] What his wife said that triggered his journey: “You’re dying on the inside.” [06:30] Lying to his therapist out of fear—even while seeking help for other issues. [08:25] How fatherhood—and fear for his sons—pushed him to finally act. [10:40] Why “hope” is not a strategy when it comes to protecting your kids from pørn. [12:15] Joining Liberation Boot Camp with the intention of breaking generational chains. [16:05] The language of shame in the church—and why it kept him silent. [22:45] The paradigm shift: pørn as a coping mechanism, not a moral failure. [25:10] Tools from the Liberation Boot Camp that changed everything (4RAC Formula, zero-day doc, emotional awareness). [32:50] The ripple effect: how healing from pørn impacted his marriage, parenting, and business. Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned: Apply for the Liberation Boot Camp: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook
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EP 116: This One Habit Is Keeping You Trapped in the Shame Cycle
07/30/2025
EP 116: This One Habit Is Keeping You Trapped in the Shame Cycle
In today’s episode of the Pørn to Purpose podcast, we tackle the hidden force keeping most men trapped in a vicious loop of relapse and regret: isolation. Coach Yeadon and I expose the damaging belief that you have to fight your battle with pørn addiction alone — and why that belief is the doorway to shame, secrecy, and stagnation. This conversation dives deep into the shame cycle — how secrecy breeds guilt, guilt leads to relapse, and the loop repeats endlessly. You'll learn why silence isn't strength, why connection is the antidote, and how speaking up in safe spaces can be the first true step toward lasting freedom. If you’ve ever told yourself “I’ll deal with this on my own,” this episode will shake you awake and show you the path out. Top 10 Show Highlights: [01:23] Introduction to the topic: “The one thing keeping you trapped in the shame cycle.” [02:50] Why the belief “I can do this alone” is the root of the problem for most men. [03:22] “Shame thrives in the darkness” — the destructive power of secrecy. [03:50] The #1 habit keeping most men stuck: fighting pørn addiction in isolation. [05:16] Fear of judgment, rejection, and appearing weak — how these lies keep you hidden. [05:45] “Shame dies when stories are told in safe spaces” — the power of vulnerability. [06:36] Breaking down the shame cycle: urges, secrecy, relapse, repeat. [08:18] “You don’t have a pørn problem. You have a pain problem.” [10:19] How to begin breaking the cycle: speak to someone safe. [17:45] “You don’t get free and then tell the truth. You tell the truth — and then you get free.” Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned: Learn More About the Liberation Boot Camp: Join the Pørn to Purpose Community on Facebook:
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EP 115: The Secret to Recovery (Isn't a Secret)
07/23/2025
EP 115: The Secret to Recovery (Isn't a Secret)
In today’s episode of the Pørn to Purpose podcast, I’m joined by Coach Yeadon, who shares an incredible story of breakthrough—not just in weight loss, but in reclaiming personal integrity. After tracking his food intake for 106 days and losing 25 pounds of fat, Coach Yeadon draws the powerful parallel between tracking physical habits and overcoming pørn addiction. This episode is a raw, honest reflection on how self-deception and emotional escape mechanisms feed addictive behavior—and how structure, accountability, and radical ownership are the keys to lasting freedom. Coach Yeadon reveals how tracking helped him get out of denial and into alignment with the man he truly wanted to be. This is a must-listen for any man who’s tired of lying to himself, tired of slipping back into pørn, and ready to take his integrity, health, and purpose seriously. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:35] Coach Yeadon explains how 106 days of food tracking led to a 25-pound fat loss—and why that matters for pørn recovery. [01:57] Matt and Yeadon talk about the illusion of control and how pørn addiction hides behind “harmless” habits. [03:09] The power of hitting rock bottom—how a single moment on the scale triggered a full-life transformation. [04:52] “That which is measured improves”—Matt introduces the tracking mindset that changed everything. [05:56] The difference between external pressure (like being seen by a client) vs. internal alignment and ownership. [06:46] Why building muscle and running marathons still didn’t address the deeper lack of control. [07:16] Coach Yeadon reveals how watching his wife track food religiously inspired his own turnaround. [08:20] “It wasn’t just about weight—I was out of integrity.” A confession that hits home for every man hiding behind pørn. [09:14] The deeper truth: food and pørn are both escapes. If you're not facing your pain, you're feeding your addiction. [10:42] How structure and tracking help men stop drifting and start leading—with intentionality and purpose. Linked List of Sites or Resources Mentioned: Learn More About the Liberation Boot Camp: Join the Pørn to Purpose Community on Facebook:
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EP 114: The Two Rung Ladder That Keeps You Stuck in Pørn
07/16/2025
EP 114: The Two Rung Ladder That Keeps You Stuck in Pørn
In this episode of the Pørn to Purpose Podcast, I’m joined by Coach Yeadon to unpack one of the most frustrating struggles men face in recovery—the feeling that no matter how hard you try, you just keep falling short. We call it the “two-rung ladder.” It’s that trap of trying to leap from addiction to total sobriety overnight… and always crashing back down. Coach Yeadon and I talk about why white-knuckling your way through pørn addiction doesn’t work, and how to finally build a framework that does. You’ll learn about the Zero Day Doc, a powerful tool born from my own relapse, that helps you analyze exactly what went wrong—and how to bounce back stronger. If you’re tired of starting over, this one’s for you. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:31] Yeadon introduces the concept of the “two-rung ladder” and why recovery often feels impossible. [01:58] The crushing spiral of shame, guilt, and fear that keeps men stuck. [02:58] Why willpower alone doesn’t work—and what happens when you’re just “hanging” on that top rung. [04:33] How strength training revealed a powerful metaphor for long-term recovery. [06:17] Matt shares how he created a step-by-step recovery system through his work with a coach. [07:46] Introduction of the Zero Day Doc—the forensic tool for relapse analysis. [08:43] Questions from the Zero Day Doc that uncover triggers, breakdowns, and blind spots. [10:13] The importance of replacing guilt with investigation and self-compassion. [12:12] Why pørn is a failed coping mechanism that “almost works”—but never truly satisfies. [18:58] The power of community, transparency, and being witnessed in your recovery. Resources & Links Mentioned: Join the Porn to Purpose Community on Facebook: Learn More About the Liberation Bootcamp:
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EP 113: Life on the Other Side of Addiction
07/09/2025
EP 113: Life on the Other Side of Addiction
In today’s episode of the Pørn to Purpose podcast, I sit down with Coach Yeadon to dive deep into what really happens when you commit to freedom from pørn — and why most men are totally unprepared for what comes next. Spoiler: it’s not just about quitting pørn. It’s about transforming into a better man — one who leads, loves, and lives with purpose. We explore the powerful ripple effects of active recovery — how shedding pørn isn't the end, but the beginning of a new chapter: stronger marriages, deeper fatherhood, more personal integrity, and emotional clarity. If you’ve ever said, “I just want to quit,” this episode will wake you up to what’s actually possible on the other side. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:12] Welcoming you to the episode and introducing Coach Yeadon. [01:29] Why we recite “How you do anything is how you do everything” — and how it ties to freedom from pørn. [02:00] Pørn recovery isn’t just about quitting — it’s about building a new set of skills to live well [02:29] Coach Yeadon shares how he felt “catfished” by the Bootcamp — came to quit pørn, ended up changing his life. [03:57] Celebrating 865 days sober — and how that transformation has healed his marriage and fatherhood. [04:49] “You don’t have a pørn problem, you have a pain problem.” — Coach Yeadon breaks this wide open. [05:18] Pørn as a coping mechanism — how it became the one thing that offered quick (but false) peace. [06:08] Real-life examples of fatherhood stress, emotional chaos, and how pørn became the escape. [07:35] The surprising ways that recovery made him a better dad, not just a better man. [08:05] Life on the other side: confidence, clarity, leadership, connection — and why the journey is worth it. Resources & Links Mentioned: Join the Pørn to Purpose Brotherhood on Facebook: Apply for the Liberation Bootcamp:
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EP 112: The Dark Truth of Solo Recovery
07/02/2025
EP 112: The Dark Truth of Solo Recovery
In today’s episode of the Pørn to Purpose podcast, I sit down with Coach Yeadon for a raw, unfiltered conversation about something most men battling pørn addiction try to avoid: solo recovery. We’re exposing the dark truth of trying to “man up” and handle this thing alone. Coach Yeadon shares his own story—how he used all the filters, accountability tools, and white-knuckled willpower… and still stayed stuck. We’re talking about the shame that keeps men isolated, the lies we tell ourselves, and the way pørn thrives in secrecy. Most importantly, we lay out the one thing that truly moves the needle: connection. If you’ve been white-knuckling it, hiding your habit, or waiting until you “get clean” before asking for help—this episode is your wake-up call. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:12] I introduce today’s theme: the dark truth of solo recovery. [01:24] The secret shame of hidden pørn use—and a gut-check moment: “Would you hand your daughter your phone?” [01:53] “The opposite of addiction is not sobriety—it’s connection.” [03:20] Filters, apps, and promises to loved ones don’t work without real support. [04:06] Coach Yeadon’s confession: “I gave my wife access to my pørn reports... and still found workarounds.” [04:11] “Solo recovery is a trap.” [05:42] The lies that kept us stuck: “I just need more discipline” and “No one needs to know.” [06:42] “I trained for an Ironman. I had discipline. But I was still watching pørn.” [07:12] The lie of waiting: “Once I get clean, then I’ll reach out.” [08:10] Shame thrives in silence. Progress crumbles in isolation. Resources & Links Mentioned: Join the Pørn to Purpose Community on Facebook Apply for the Liberation Bootcamp
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