Carolyn North Out Loud

For many years I’ve been writing very short pieces that are musings on the passing scene, taking on the serious dilemmas of our time in personal and laugh-aloud ways. The trick has been to end with a positive twist on the dilemmas we are all facing. I wish to show how all this pain and negativity is our opportunity to shift focus and change how we live in the world.

The Quantum Field 05/15/2025

The Quantum Field "Between one breath and another my world disassembled and then reassembled right before my eyes, becoming vast and wondrous enough to contain everything that was or ever would be.” We continue Season Five of Carolyn North OutLoud podcast with a reading by producer, Leslie Jackson from Carolyn’s book Ecastatic Relations.” This one is a commentary on “” from . It stands alone, but you may wish to go back and listen to that Episode first. Carolyn's Website is: Music: Composer: Joey Fabian. Carolyn North Out Loud is produced by: Leslie Jackson: Please rate, review, and share—it is how Carolyn spreads this message of comfort in these weird times. /episode/index/show/cnorthoutloud/id/36584990

Ecstatic Relations: Duke 05/07/2025

Ecstatic Relations: Duke "Dukie simply arrived at our house one summer evening—just like that." Welcome to Season Five of Carolyn North Out Loud. This Season is the audio companion to Carolyn's book, Ecstatic Relations which came out in 2006, and like a lot of her message was before its time. It presents true love stories from real life—not just romantic but all kinds of capital L love and attraction. Each story is wonderfully written in exquisite detail, drawing you in and bringing you back to your own stories of love. Each piece has a sort of Commentary after it, in the tradition of The Talmud, discussing an aspect of universal law addressed in that story. You’ll see what is meant by being ahead of her time. Carolyn's Website is: Music Composer: Joey Fabian. @joeyfabianbass. Carolyn North Out Loud is produced by: Leslie Jackson: Please rate, review, and share—it is how Carolyn spreads this message of comfort in these weird times. /episode/index/show/cnorthoutloud/id/36464470

Alice's Story 04/02/2025

Alice's Story "It was like stepping into the shallows of a river and being dragged suddenly unexpectedly on an irresistible wild current." We continue Season Four of Carolyn North OutLoud podcast with a reading by producer, Leslie Jackson of Carolyn’s piece from Death, the Experience of a Lifetime, “Alice’s Story.” Carolyn's Website is: Music: Composer: Kaila Flexer Performed by Carolyn North Out Loud is produced by: : Please rate, review, and share—it is how Carolyn spreads this message of comfort in these weird times. /episode/index/show/cnorthoutloud/id/35979950

Clearing the Air–for Malcolm M. 01/13/2025

Clearing the Air–for Malcolm M. "I want my time here to be not dulled by fear but enriched by the edge of danger we are living through." We continue Season Four of Carolyn North OutLoud podcast with a reading by producer, Leslie Jackson of Carolyn’s brand new piece, “Clearing the Air–for Malcolm M.” Carolyn's Website is: Music: Composer: Kaila Flexer Performed by Teslim: Kaila Flexer and Gari Hegedus Carolyn North Out Loud is produced by: Leslie Jackson: Please rate, review, and share—it is how Carolyn spreads this message of comfort in these weird times. /episode/index/show/cnorthoutloud/id/34840980

Johnny the Pig 12/16/2024

Johnny the Pig "Oink, oink!" We continue Season Four of Carolyn North Outloud podcast with a reading by producer, Leslie Jackson of Carolyn’s piece, “Johnny the Pig.” Music: Composer: Kaila Flexer Performed by : Kaila Flexer and Gari Hegedus Carolyn North Out Loud is produced by: Leslie Jackson: Please rate, review, and share—it is how Carolyn spreads this message of comfort in these weird times. /episode/index/show/cnorthoutloud/id/34477435

Soul Dance 10/09/2024

Soul Dance "I unlocked my bike slowly and cycled home through Berkeley traffic to my family who would by now all be waiting home for me and the chicken would be ready for it's last-minute garnish of crushed lemon peel and garlic." We continue Season Four of Carolyn North Outloud podcast with a reading by producer, Leslie Jackson of Carolyn’s piece, “Soul Dance.” Music: Composer: Kaila Flexer Performed by Carolyn North Out Loud is produced by: Leslie Jackson: Please rate, review, and share—it is how Carolyn spreads this message of comfort in these weird times. /episode/index/show/cnorthoutloud/id/33392737

On Generosity 09/16/2024

On Generosity "No it is I who should be thanking you!" We continue Season Four of Carolyn North Outloud podcast with a reading by producer, Leslie Jackson of Carolyn’s piece, “Comfort and Care.” Music: Composer: Kaila Flexer Performed by Carolyn North Out Loud is produced by: Leslie Jackson: Please rate, review, and share—it is how Carolyn spreads this message of comfort in these weird times. /episode/index/show/cnorthoutloud/id/33082347

Comfort and Care 08/14/2024

Comfort and Care "He gave a deep sigh and we crunched companionably together. Almonds with toffee. 72% cacao." We continue Season Four of Carolyn North Outloud podcast with a reading by Carolyn of her piece, “Comfort and Care.” Music: Composer: Kaila Flexer Performed by Carolyn North Out Loud is produced by: Leslie Jackson: Please rate, review, and share—it is how Carolyn spreads this message of comfort in these weird times. /episode/index/show/cnorthoutloud/id/32581367

S4 E36 Getting Real 06/14/2024

S4 E36 Getting Real "It was easy to forget that only moments before we accompanied Daisy on her own feet to this place." We continue Season Four of Carolyn North Outloud podcast with a reading by Carolyn from her book, Freeflow Stories published by . Music: Composer: Kaila Flexer Performed by . Carolyn North Out Loud is produced by: Leslie Jackson: Please rate, review, and share—it is how Carolyn spreads this message of comfort in these weird times. /episode/index/show/cnorthoutloud/id/31750277

Decoding Donald 05/25/2024

Decoding Donald “If the puppies in Chernobyl can do it, why not us?” We continue Season Four: Freeflow Stories with a reading by Carolyn North from her book, Freeflow Stories available through the publisher’s website, . Carolyn North Out Loud is produced by: Leslie Jackson: Music: Composer: Kaila Flexer Performed by Teslim: Subscribe to the blog, and find more books. Please rate, review, and share this show—it is how we spread this message of comfort in these weird times. /episode/index/show/cnorthoutloud/id/31465172

Up in the Air 04/19/2024

Up in the Air "I just know that whatever it is we are supposed to do now, it is big. And it will take great strength and courage." We continue Season Four with a reading by Carolyn from her book, . Music: Composer: Kaila Flexer Performed by Carolyn North Out Loud is produced by: Leslie Jackson: Contact Carolyn North: Please rate, review, and share. /episode/index/show/cnorthoutloud/id/30901918

SANCTUARY ARE US 03/28/2024

SANCTUARY ARE US " "As the surface congeals into fascist arrangements and as hate and fear get codified into law, there is yet one place to go; which is beneath the surface…'" —Bayo Akomolafe We continue Season Four with a reading by Carolyn’s from her book, published by ICRL Press: Music: Composer: Kaila Flexer Performed by Carolyn North Out Loud is produced by: Leslie Jackson: Please rate, review, and share. /episode/index/show/cnorthoutloud/id/30583298

Hurting 03/12/2024

Hurting "Look for your calm core on the other side of the pain ... We can make it through these hard times by staying calm, breathing." We continue Season Four with a reading by the author Carolyn North from her book, published by ICRL Press. Music: Composer: Kaila Flexer Performed by Carolyn North Out Loud is produced by: Leslie Jackson: Contact Carolyn North: [email protected] Please rate, review, and share this show—it is how we spread this message of comfort in these weird times. /episode/index/show/cnorthoutloud/id/30346863

Friendship 02/23/2024

Friendship "We contemplate the possible and the impossible, and then prepare to do both." We continue Season Four with a reading by Carolyn from her book, Freeflow Stories published by ICRL Press: . Music: Composer: Kaila Flexer Performed by Teslim: Kaila Flexer and Gari Hegedus Carolyn North Out Loud is produced by: Leslie Jackson: Contact Carolyn North: Please rate, review, and share this show—it is how we spread this message of comfort in these weird times. /episode/index/show/cnorthoutloud/id/30084113

Migrations 02/11/2024

Migrations “I wrote down every single thing I could remember.” We continue Season Four with a reading by the producer Leslie Jackson from Carolyn’s book, Freeflow Stories published by . Music: Composer: Kaila Flexer Performed by : Kaila Flexer and Gari Hegedus. Carolyn North Out Loud is produced by: Leslie Jackson: Contact Carolyn North: Please rate, review, and share this show—it is how we spread this message of comfort in these weird times. /episode/index/show/cnorthoutloud/id/29895793

Diverse Blessings 02/01/2024

Diverse Blessings "That day's lesson was, stay calm until its time to be busy. Do not waste good energy getting emotional." We continue Season Four with a reading by the author Carolyn North from her book, Freeflow Stories published by . Music: Composer: Kaila Flexer Performed by : Kaila Flexer and Gari Hegedus Carolyn North Out Loud is produced by: Leslie Jackson: Contact Carolyn North: Please rate, review, and share this show—it is how we spread this message of comfort in these weird times. /episode/index/show/cnorthoutloud/id/29762663

Possible Impossibilities 01/18/2024

Possible Impossibilities “It feels like their bodies are responding to a deeper beat, down where the hidden content of dreams resides. I reach for that in my own work, and I recognize the freedom of it when I see it." We continue Season Four with a reading by the author Carolyn North from her book, Freeflow Stories published by . Music: Composer: Kaila Flexer Performed by : Kaila Flexer and Gari Hegedus Carolyn North Out Loud is produced by: Leslie Jackson: Contact Carolyn North: Please rate, review, and share this show—it is how we spread this message of comfort in these weird times. /episode/index/show/cnorthoutloud/id/29553698

Heresy and the Holy Grail 12/28/2023

Heresy and the Holy Grail “I knew—the way we sometimes know things—that I had stepped into a province in which all of reality was encompassed, whole and beautiful.” We continue Season Four: Freeflow Stories with a reading by the show's producer, from Carolyn's new book, available through her . Music: Composer: Kaila Flexer Performed by : Kaila Flexer and Gari Hegedus /episode/index/show/cnorthoutloud/id/29264373

How Much Time Do We Have? 11/03/2023

How Much Time Do We Have? “All it takes is a good blender—and over the generations we sexy humans have been very good blenders!” We continue Season Four with a reading by the author Carolyn North from her book, Freeflow Stories published by ICRL Press. Music: Composer: Kaila Flexer Performed by Teslim: Kaila Flexer and Gari Hegedus Carolyn North Out Loud is produced by: Leslie Jackson: Contact Carolyn North: Please rate, review, and share this show—it is how we spread this message of comfort in these weird times. /episode/index/show/cnorthoutloud/id/28504433

Interview with Carolyn: Early writing career and synchronicity 09/23/2023

Interview with Carolyn: Early writing career and synchronicity In this special Autumnal Equinox Episode, Carolyn sits with Producer Leslie Jackson on a routine Zoom call that evolves into an interview. It's casual and friendly and Carolyn reveals a surprising experience about her early writing days. Enjoy! We invite you to check out the other three Seasons of the featuring readings of her many books and interviews. You may subscribe to wherever you listen to podcasts. Thanks for listening! /episode/index/show/cnorthoutloud/id/28121762

Cleaning Up the Mess 09/05/2023

Cleaning Up the Mess "Dismantling an old ranch house, we discovered, meant a whole lot more than just tearing out old wiring and patching up old window frames ...” We continue Season Four with a reading by Producer Leslie Jackson from Carolyn's book, Freeflow Stories, published by . Music: Composer: Kaila Flexer Performed by Teslim: Kaila Flexer and Gari Hegedus Carolyn North Out Loud is produced by: Leslie Jackson: Contact Carolyn North: Please rate, review, and share this show—it is how we spread this message of comfort in these weird times. /episode/index/show/cnorthoutloud/id/27904809

The Fire Next Time 08/30/2023

The Fire Next Time “This is not the first time we have built new lives on top of the ruins of the old—over the centuries probably more times than we know—and we have a chance to surprise ourselves with our creativity.” We continue Season Four with a reading by Producer Leslie Jackson from Carolyn's book, Freeflow Stories, published by ICRL Press. Music: Composer: Kaila Flexer Performed by Teslim: Kaila Flexer and Gari Hegedus Carolyn North Out Loud is produced by: Leslie Jackson: Contact Carolyn North: Please rate, review, and share this show—it is how we spread this message of comfort in these weird times. /episode/index/show/cnorthoutloud/id/27887424

The Dachau Stone 06/08/2023

The Dachau Stone “'This stone I give to you, symbol of the ashes of that most awful place. We, too, but for God's grace. Life and love more precious to contemplate seen hanging by the gossamer thread of fate.'” We continue Season Four with a reading by Producer Leslie Jackson from Carolyn's book, Freeflow Stories, published by ICRL Press. Music: Composer: Kaila Flexer Performed by Teslim: Kaila Flexer and Gari Hegedus Carolyn North Out Loud is produced by: Leslie Jackson: Contact Carolyn North: Please rate, review, and share this show—it is how we spread this message of comfort in these weird times. /episode/index/show/cnorthoutloud/id/27078984

Now What Shall We Talk About? 05/24/2023

Now What Shall We Talk About? "Hopping out of the pot may be just a matter of getting to know ourselves so deeply and honestly that we have the courage to open up and love, no matter what. It may be just that simple and that hard." We continue Season Four: Freeflow Stories with a reading by Carolyn from her book, Freeflow Stories, published by . Music: Composer: Kaila Flexer Performed by Teslim: Kaila Flexer and Gari Hegedus Carolyn North Out Loud is produced by: Leslie Jackson: Contact Carolyn North: Please rate, review, and share this show—it is how we spread this message of comfort in these weird times. /episode/index/show/cnorthoutloud/id/26933913

Midnight's Children 05/13/2023

Midnight's Children “I made a pledge that night... I would honor the memory of that man by continuing his work, reassuring and giving comfort wherever I could.” We continue Season Four: Freeflow Stories with a reading by the producer Leslie Jackson from Carolyn's new book, published by ICRL Press. Music: Composer: Kaila Flexer Performed by Teslim: Kaila Flexer and Gari Hegedus Carolyn North Out Loud is produced by: Leslie Jackson: Contact Carolyn North: Please rate, review, and share this show—it is how we spread this message of comfort in these weird times. /episode/index/show/cnorthoutloud/id/26827428

Lonely in America 03/30/2023

Lonely in America "What if we all had playful faeries working on our behalf, to find us our own true loves?" We continue Season Four: Freeflow Stories with a reading by the author from her book, published by ICRL Press. Music: Composer: Kaila Flexer Performed by Teslim: Carolyn North Out Loud is produced by: Leslie Jackson: Contact Carolyn North: Please rate, review, and share this show—it is how we spread this message of comfort in these weird times. /episode/index/show/cnorthoutloud/id/26398014

Getting Through Hard Times 02/10/2023

Getting Through Hard Times "…if I had been there during the war I hope I would also have the guts to go down into the streets between bombings to dance in the rubble…" We continue Season Four: Freeflow Stories with a reading by the producer Leslie Jackson from Carolyn's new book, published by . Music: Composer: Kaila Flexer Performed by Teslim: Kaila Flexer and Gari Hegedus Carolyn North Out Loud is produced by: Leslie Jackson: Contact Carolyn North: Please rate, review, and share this show—it is how we spread this message of comfort in these weird times. /episode/index/show/cnorthoutloud/id/25887300

Harmony and Hope 01/19/2023

Harmony and Hope “Where is the balance point?” We continue Season Four: Freeflow Stories with a reading by the author from her new book, available through her website, Music: Composer: Kaila Flexer Performed by Teslim: Kaila Flexer and Gari Hegedus Carolyn North Out Loud is produced by: Leslie Jackson: Contact Carolyn North: Please rate, review, and share this show—it is how we spread this message of comfort in these weird times. /episode/index/show/cnorthoutloud/id/25653789

The Healing of Humiliation 01/11/2023

The Healing of Humiliation “ … of course i am in the company we are all in the company warts and bulges and all …” We continue Season Four: Freeflow Stories with a reading by the show's producer, Leslie Jackson from Carolyn's new book, available through her website, Music: Composer: Kaila Flexer Performed by Teslim: Kaila Flexer and Gari Hegedus Carolyn North Out Loud is produced by: Leslie Jackson: Contact Carolyn North: Please rate, review, and share this show—it is how we spread this message of comfort in these weird times. /episode/index/show/cnorthoutloud/id/25567422

Change 12/24/2022

Change We continue off Season Four: Freeflow Stories with a reading by Carolyn from her upcoming book, Freeflow Stories. Freeflow Stories, by Carolyn North, is available in print as well as right here, in SEASON FOUR of Carolyn North Out Loud. Music: Composer: Kaila Flexer Performed by Teslim: Kaila Flexer and Gari Hegedus Carolyn North Out Loud is produced by: Leslie Jackson: Contact Carolyn North: Please rate, review, and share this show—it is how we spread this message of comfort in these weird times. /episode/index/show/cnorthoutloud/id/25423446

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