Allowed and Proud
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This post is one of my favorites because it was truly a spur of the moment logging of my thoughts. Feeling proud of myself isn't a common theme for me, but I'm trying to be better about recognizing my accomplishments... hell, I spend enough time dwelling on my disappointments, right? Don't we all? I'll never stop reminding myself that I'm allowed to be proud.
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Marriage Scoreboard
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I've never been one to play sports so a score is meaningless to me, yet I would always attempt to keep score in my marriage; who got more personal time, who was more involved in the kids lives, who had the power due to income. All that would do is lead me down a path to misery and depression. I'm trying to express my feelings to my husband more often, so he is aware of some of the imbalances I'm feeling so we can work together to achieve a harmony that works for both of us... it may not be 50/50 in a mathematical sense, but we are striving for a mutually emotional balance. And that's been...
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Sheevani < Perfect Indian Daughter
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Growing up in the Indian community meant being held to a set of standards that felt incongruent to my strengths, but I was held to them nonetheless. Falling short of being a Perfect Indian Daughter is something I have grappled with for a long time. For anyone whose sense of worth has been defined by very stringent rules, recognizing the otherness in you will always be a complicated venture, but if you're anything like me, you'll eventually realize those tired old rules were the limits you were always supposed to break through.
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Bharati Desai
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A tribute to the wonderful woman who gave me life. As I get older and experience so many life changes as a woman, wife and mother... I find myself seeking out the stories of my own mother to guide me through. She certainly doesn't think her story is anything special, but I do and I wanted to share it.
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From the Archives - Hummus
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I found the original Impressionista post from years ago before I abandoned the blog for many years. It's a fun trip down memory lane where the first indication of my pregnancy was an obscene ingestion of hummus.
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Sexual Healing
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I always wanted to avoid becoming a cliche, but when I found myself in pretty much a sex-less marriage after having kids, I felt like the damn mayor of Cliche Town. Even though it's a common phase of marriage, I felt so incredibly alone and ashamed about my lack of libido... and I had to forgive myself first in order to make any changes.
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Inspiration Cessation
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When the well runs dry with creativity, sometimes you just have to force yourself to create with whatever is in your brain. This post is evidence of that.
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Peace Be With Me... And Also With Me
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Evolution is so necessary in our lives and sometimes we have to accept changes in our dreams in order for that to happen. Sure, I don't think my dream of being on SNL will happen now, but I've tweaked my goals to what is possible for my own talent. With that, I know I can find inner peace.
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Tripped Advisor
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My daughter has reached the "mean girls" stage in her life and I find myself struggling with advice to offer her. Lately I've been trying to figure out my approach that will both comfort her... and give her tools to deal with the inevitable bitches.
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Had to Choke to Get Woke
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Confidence is a tricky thing and often its timing is less than ideal... at least for me. But last year a slip on stage caused me many days of mental strife that perhaps I wasn't worthy of my dream. Big mistake.
info_outlineGrowing up an Indian kid in a white suburb of Detroit was an experience I hadn't reflected too much on until writing this post. Living a sort of double-life in order to belong was my normal and certainly has an impact on the way I navigate through life today.