When Heaven Meets Hell
When Heaven Meets Hell x Love Lust Fridays: Crossover In this special crossover episode, Allyn is joined by Jake Deptula and Michelle Locke, co-hosts of Love Lust Fridays. Jake, widely recognized for his work as co-host of Strictly Stalking, brings his expertise on themes of love, betrayal, and resilience; while Michelle, a former associate family court judge and current family law attorney with over 5,000 domestic violence cases under her belt, adds invaluable insights from the legal field. Together, they dive deep into When Heaven Meets Hell, exploring Allyn’s experiences and the impact of...
info_outline DJ, Play ‘Smallest Man’When Heaven Meets Hell
In this powerful final episode, Allyn brings the series full circle by summing up the lasting effects of intimate partner violence, coercive control, and betrayal trauma. She dives deep into her personal experience, putting numbers to the loss and healing that followed, making the aftermath of such relationships tangible for listeners. By offering relatable insights, she highlights the emotional and psychological toll these dynamics take on survivors and their communities. Allyn also shares a moving final statement from fellow survivors, giving voice to those who have bravely come forward with...
info_outline Karma Always EatsWhen Heaven Meets Hell
In this powerful episode, Allyn delves into the challenges victims face when navigating the justice system. She uncovers the many barriers that often stand in the way of justice and healing, offering insights into how to break free from the grips of trauma bonds and move forward in life. Allyn is joined by a special guest, former Green Beret and co-founder of War Party Movement, Jeremiah Wilber, who shares his unique perspective on motivation and resilience. Support the Show: Leave us a review: Your positive reviews help us grow! Don’t see your preferred listening platform? No...
info_outline Devil In The DaylightWhen Heaven Meets Hell
Allyn dives deeper into the fallout of her shattered relationship—uncovering lies, betrayal, cheating, and emotional abuse. As grief, anxiety, and depression take hold, she confronts the harsh realities of trauma and its lasting effects. In this episode, she’s also joined by another woman who faced her ex’s deception. Together, they explore the damaging cycles of toxic relationships and share how they found strength and community amidst the destruction. Support the Show: Leave us a review: Your positive reviews help us grow! Don’t see your preferred listening platform? No worries!...
info_outline Hiding in Plain SightWhen Heaven Meets Hell
Allyn shares the raw and emotional aftermath of her unexpected breakup. Left reeling from the shock of betrayal, she embarks on a journey to find closure and answers, but what she uncovers is more horrifying than she ever imagined. As she navigates the emotional wreckage, Allyn sheds light on the red flags she missed and how narcissistic abuse and manipulation played a devastating role in her story. Support the Show: Leave us a review: Your positive reviews help us grow! Don’t see your preferred listening platform? No worries! You can go directly to the platform and leave a review...
info_outline Into the Hollow HouseWhen Heaven Meets Hell
Allyn finally finds herself allowed into his home, which opens the door to more suspicious activity and a look into his mind in a deeper and disturbing way. As the layers begin to peel back, Allyn discovers more about his manipulative behavior, and his carefully constructed façade starts to crumble. Guest expert Kris Prochaska (LMHC & LPC) joins the conversation, offering a powerful look into the energetics of narcissists. She explains how these individuals operate at a superficial level, moving horizontally through life, unable to connect with deeper emotions or higher truths. Kris...
info_outline Breadcrumbs For BreakfastWhen Heaven Meets Hell
Allyn spends more time with his family as the odd and troubling behavior continues to increase. She recounts how the little breadcrumbs left behind kept her moving forward in the relationship. In this episode, Dr. Morgan Anderson discusses attachment styles and how understanding them can help you build securely attached relationships. Dr. Nadine Macaluso sheds light on trauma bonds and cognitive dissonance, explaining how they can keep you feeling confused and stuck in unhealthy relationships. Support the Show: Leave us a review: Your positive reviews help us grow! Don’t see your...
info_outline Dancing Around The FireWhen Heaven Meets Hell
As their bond grows stronger, the stakes get higher. Allyn finds herself questioning everything and gets answers that only complicates and confuses her situation. Dr. Nadine Macaluso and Kris Prochaska (LMHC & LPC) continue to offer their expert opinions on “The Dark Triad/Tetrad” and the techniques that narcissists use to break down a person’s sense of self. Support the Show: Leave us a review: Your positive reviews help us grow! Don’t see your preferred listening platform? No worries! You can go directly to the platform and leave a review there. Subscribe to the...
info_outline In Lies We TrustWhen Heaven Meets Hell
Allyn flies to Montana to spend time with her new potential boyfriend and meets his family. As the relationship begins to grow deeper, some disturbing acts begin to drastically alter the dynamic of the relationship. Guest expert Dr. Nadine Macaluso joins the podcast to talk about "The Big Five" personality traits. Support the Show: Leave us a review + rating: Your positive reviews and ratings help us grow! Don’t see your preferred listening platform? No worries! You can go directly to the platform and leave a review there. Subscribe to the show for new episodes every Tuesday. ...
info_outline He Called Me Dream WomanWhen Heaven Meets Hell
In the premiere episode of “When Heaven Meets Hell”, host Allyn Amerongen sets the scene for what will become a harrowing tale of surviving narcissistic abuse and coercive control. Allyn reflects on her past, chronic health issues, and a pivotal revelation during EMDR therapy. She also recounts a trip to Montana, her dating app experience and the fateful moment when she became someone’s “Dream Woman”. Support the Show: Leave us a review: Your positive reviews help us grow! Don’t see your preferred listening platform? No worries! You can go directly to the platform and...
info_outlineAllyn dives deeper into the fallout of her shattered relationship—uncovering lies, betrayal, cheating, and emotional abuse. As grief, anxiety, and depression take hold, she confronts the harsh realities of trauma and its lasting effects.
In this episode, she’s also joined by another woman who faced her ex’s deception. Together, they explore the damaging cycles of toxic relationships and share how they found strength and community amidst the destruction.
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Mentioned in This Episode:
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Jordan B Petersen’s website here
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More on Jennifer Freyd and Betrayal Trauma here
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Resources on Intimate Partner Violence and Partner/Family Member Assault
- Dr. Ramani’s work: It’s Not You: Identifying and Healing From Narcissistic People
- Rachel Louise Snyder’s work: No Visible Bruises: What We Don’t Know About Domestic Violence Can Kill Us