The Long Road Home // The Long Road Home, Part 4

Sometimes, we come to the conclusion that decisions and choices we’ve made – just aren’t working. But turning them around, well, it can be a long road.

For years, and years, and years, I wandered around in a spiritual desert. Now the crazy thing was that I’d been a Christian in my teenage years. But when I grew up, I rebelled and I came to the point where I kind of knew that there was a God but after all the things I’d done, after the years of wandering out there, I just didn’t know whether He’d really want me back, and at what cost? What would I have to give up of the lifestyle that I was accustomed to, in order to have a relationship with him again? For me, as it is for so many people, the road home seemed like such a long one. And what would His reaction be when I turned up on His doorstep again anyway?

I remember as a child, I did something wrong after school, I can’t remember what it was, but my Mother said to me, "You wait until your father comes home." And I can still remember, I must have only been about six or seven, or eight years old. I can still remember vividly the sense of dread, of waiting at home for the consequences when my Dad came home again. Do you remember that? I’m sure we’ve all had that experience.

This week on A Different Perspective we’re doing a small group of messages that I’ve called The Long Road Home because so many people are wandering in a spiritual desert and the thing that often keeps us from turning around, and going to God in the middle of that. The one person that we’re looking for, you know the one thing that can satisfy that longing that we have, the thing that so often stops us, is that sense of dread.

That sense of wondering well how is He going to react? Is it going to be like Dad punishing me when I was a kid? Jesus knew that, Jesus knows that. That’s why he told a story, it’s the story of the prodigal son, the lost son. We’ve been looking at it over this week on A Different Perspective. It began with a son’s rebellion. Let’s have a read of it again.

A man had a two sons, the younger of them said to his father, "Dad give me the share of the estate that I have coming to me." so the father distributed the assets to them. Not many days later the younger son gathered together all he had and traveled to a distant country where he squandered his estate on foolish living. After he had spent everything a severe famine struck the country and he had nothing. And then he went to work for one of the citizens of that land who sent him out into the field to feed the pigs.

This son longed to eat his fill from the carob pods that the pigs were eating but no one gave him anything. When he finally came to his senses he said, ‘How many of my father’s servants have more than enough food and here I am dying of hunger. I’ll get up and I’ll go to my father and say to him, ‘father I’ve sinned against Heaven and against you, I’m not worthy to be called you son anymore, just make me one of your servants’.” And so he got up and he went to his father.

It’s a cycle that began with a desire to do it my way, with a desire to rebel, with a desire for partying and excitement, and all the stuff I guess that we look for as young people, and probably as we get older as well. But I wonder how much of this cycle parallels our lives. Whether you’ve never met Jesus before, you just have a sense of spiritual longing, or maybe, maybe once you walked with him, somewhere along the road either you wandered off, or he somehow seemed to disappear, or maybe you’re trying to walk with him but in a certain area of your life, well there’s something you’re holding back.

Wherever we’re coming from, the same symptoms of spiritual hunger, of emptiness, of something missing, of something not working is what so often people feel. And what happened here for this young man, is when he finally came to his senses, what he did was this. He linked his pain with the initial cause, which was his rebellion. So often we don’t do that, so often we’re suffering and yet we go on deluding ourselves that our choices are fine and everything’s fine. Of course I can have an affair, of course I can live like this, of course I can reject God’s view on A, B, C and D. And yet, if we’re really honest with ourselves, if we really look at our predicament in our situation in this spiritual wilderness that so many people are walking through. If we’re really honest, we can see that the pain and the symptoms come back to a rebellion.

I don’t know what that rebellion looks like in your life, we all rebel in different ways but it’s not rocket science to figure it out. And then this young man-made a pragmatic decision, a selfish decision, not some altruistic decision to say I’m going to go back to my father because my father is a wonderful man. It was a decision that was driven by the hunger in his stomach looking at these pigs day and night. And he made a decision in his best interests to start on that long road home.

We’re not told in this story. It’s a parable. It’s a story that Jesus told to illustrate a point, the point of which we’ll see in tomorrow’s program. We’re not told what the journey on the road was like; we know that this young man went to some far off distant country. How long was the journey home? Weeks, month’s maybe-walking? He certainly couldn’t afford to pay for a lift. So as he was trudging along the dirt road step by step, days went by.

On this journey, on this long road home, what was he feeling, what was he thinking, what was going through his mind? Well we’re not told but we can have a fairly good guess – anger; "it’s not fair; it’s just not fair that it’s worked out this way. Why was there a famine just when I was partying?" Maybe some remorse? "How can I be so stupid and waste all that money, and do that to my Dad?" We certainly know there was hunger; he had no money so he was living as best he could at a time of famine, off the land traveling home. What about the embarrassment? "What will my brother say? What will the other servants say?" His low expectations of his Dad; "oh I won’t be taken back as a son, I’ll go as a servant." His apprehension; "what will my Dad say, what’ll he say?" And day after day walking the dusty road.

Whichever path we walk, I wonder whether sitting at the other end of that turn around decision, on the outer end of that lonely road back, we don’t experience a similar cocktail of emotions, trudging through the wilderness, it’s not working, it’s time to head towards God. Look at them all; anger, remorse, hunger, embarrassment, apprehension – they’re very human, they’re very predictable, and so often they stop us even from trying. We start with good intentions to head back towards God, but our feelings get the better of us, and the gentle nudging and the calling that’s been happening deep down somewhere in our spirits. Well, we just don’t follow it through.

Tomorrow on A Different Perspective we’re going to look at the end of Jesus’ story. How it turns out, the whole point of what he was trying to say to anyone who’s walking in a spiritual wilderness. But today, let’s remember that sometimes when we take that decision, to turn around, to step out on that long road home, sometimes we can feel these things, and sometimes we want to pull off to the side of that road and stop, and give up – don’t give up! Join me tomorrow as we look at the point of the story that Jesus told.