EP 104: Why Do I Watch Porn Even When I'm not Horny?
Release Date: 05/07/2025
EP 123: Fathering Your Inner Child: The Missing Key in Pørn Addiction Recovery
The Porn to Purpose Podcast
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, I sat down with Coach Yeadon to unpack a powerful story that unexpectedly cracked open a deeper truth about healing. What started as a simple moment—getting the family dog from his son’s bed—turned into a vivid example of how the inner child still lives in us, how triggers hijack our nervous system, and how porn has historically been our escape hatch when emotional chaos strikes. We explore how recovery isn’t about managing behavior—it’s about learning to respond to the fear, shame, and panic that still live in the body. Yeadon...
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EP 122: Is M@sturbation Without Pørn Still a Problem?
The Porn to Purpose Podcast
In today’s episode of the “Porn to Purpose” podcast, we tackle one of the most common questions on the recovery journey: “Can I still masturbate if I’m not watching pørn?” This discussion uncovers the hidden traps of swapping pørn for masturbation without addressing the deeper emotional and psychological drivers, showing how this substitution can keep you stuck in the same cycle, outsourcing intimacy to fantasy, and capping your personal growth, intimacy, and masculine power. Whether you’re just starting out or have been pørn-free for months, this episode will help you spot...
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EP 121: Inside the Bubble: Why You Relapse (And How to Stop It for Good)
The Porn to Purpose Podcast
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, I’m joined by Coach Yeadon as we dive into one of the most important and often overlooked parts of the recovery journey—what we in the rooms call “The Bubble.” It’s that foggy mental space where logic disappears, the addict voice takes over, and we end up doing things we swore we’d never do again. We unpack a heartbreaking real-life story about a father whose compulsive behavior led to a devastating moment of neglect—one that could’ve ended in tragedy. It was a powerful reminder for both of us of where this path can lead when...
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EP 120: The Substitution Trap
The Porn to Purpose Podcast
In today's episode of the Pørn to Purpose podcast, we dive into a deceptive trap that keeps men stuck in addiction—even after they’ve technically quit watching pørn. Coach Yeadon shares a vulnerable and powerful personal story from early in his marriage when he thought he was escaping pørn… but had simply swapped it for another addiction. This episode confronts the myth of willpower, the lie of substitution, and the deeper truth that real recovery isn’t about quitting pørn—it’s about healing the pain beneath it. If you’ve ever swapped one behavior for another and still felt...
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EP 119: Visibility Breeds Integrity
The Porn to Purpose Podcast
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, Coach Yeadon and I explore how visibility plays a vital role in building integrity throughout the pørn recovery process. So many men try to white-knuckle it in the dark, believing secrecy is the only way to protect themselves. But what I’ve come to learn—and what we discuss in this episode—is that being seen is actually one of the fastest ways to grow. We talk about the resistance many of us feel toward being public or open about our struggle with pørn. We discuss the fears of being judged, exposed, or misunderstood—and how those...
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EP 118: Should You Tell Her? What to Do If you've Been Hiding Your Pørn Habit...
The Porn to Purpose Podcast
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, I sit down with Coach Yeadon to tackle one of the most gut-wrenching and pivotal questions a man can face in his recovery journey: “Should I tell her?” Whether you're married, dating, or in any form of committed relationship, this episode dives deep into the emotional and relational weight of hiding a porn habit. We explore the spiritual and psychological costs of secrecy, the deadly role of shame, and what true transparency and integrity require. You’ll learn when and how to approach the conversation, the role of community in...
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EP 117: Yeadon's Story
The Porn to Purpose Podcast
In this powerful episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, I sit down with Yeadon Smith—entrepreneur, husband, father of four, and now 900 days pørn-free. From the outside, Yeadon looked like he had it all: success, family, even a yacht. But inside, he was trapped—buried in shame, silently battling a pørn addiction he couldn’t talk about, even in therapy. What changed? A wake-up call from his wife and the realization that “hope” wasn’t enough to protect his sons from the same struggle. Yeadon joined the Liberation Boot Camp not just to break free—but to break the cycle. In this...
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EP 116: This One Habit Is Keeping You Trapped in the Shame Cycle
The Porn to Purpose Podcast
In today’s episode of the Pørn to Purpose podcast, we tackle the hidden force keeping most men trapped in a vicious loop of relapse and regret: isolation. Coach Yeadon and I expose the damaging belief that you have to fight your battle with pørn addiction alone — and why that belief is the doorway to shame, secrecy, and stagnation. This conversation dives deep into the shame cycle — how secrecy breeds guilt, guilt leads to relapse, and the loop repeats endlessly. You'll learn why silence isn't strength, why connection is the antidote, and how speaking up in safe spaces can be the first...
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EP 115: The Secret to Recovery (Isn't a Secret)
The Porn to Purpose Podcast
In today’s episode of the Pørn to Purpose podcast, I’m joined by Coach Yeadon, who shares an incredible story of breakthrough—not just in weight loss, but in reclaiming personal integrity. After tracking his food intake for 106 days and losing 25 pounds of fat, Coach Yeadon draws the powerful parallel between tracking physical habits and overcoming pørn addiction. This episode is a raw, honest reflection on how self-deception and emotional escape mechanisms feed addictive behavior—and how structure, accountability, and radical ownership are the keys to lasting freedom. Coach Yeadon...
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EP 114: The Two Rung Ladder That Keeps You Stuck in Pørn
The Porn to Purpose Podcast
In this episode of the Pørn to Purpose Podcast, I’m joined by Coach Yeadon to unpack one of the most frustrating struggles men face in recovery—the feeling that no matter how hard you try, you just keep falling short. We call it the “two-rung ladder.” It’s that trap of trying to leap from addiction to total sobriety overnight… and always crashing back down. Coach Yeadon and I talk about why white-knuckling your way through pørn addiction doesn’t work, and how to finally build a framework that does. You’ll learn about the Zero Day Doc, a powerful tool born from my own relapse,...
info_outlineIn today’s episode of the "Porn to Purpose" podcast, I’m joined by Coach Yeadon as we dive into a question many of us have silently asked ourselves: “Why am I watching porn even when I’m not even horny?” This episode explores the deeper emotional drivers behind porn addiction—stress, anxiety, loneliness, fear, and emotional exhaustion—and why porn becomes our default coping mechanism.
Together, we unpack the truth that porn use often has little to do with sex and everything to do with emotional avoidance. We look at how this habit develops, why it “almost works,” and how we’ve been misled into thinking we just have a high sex drive. The truth is, unmet emotional needs are what drive most compulsive behaviors.
Yeadon and I also share practical tools and powerful mindset shifts to help you build the capacity to sit with discomfort, regulate your nervous system, and begin choosing healthier ways to meet your needs. Whether you’re just starting out or deep in the work, this conversation offers real insight, emotional clarity, and an invitation to rise above old patterns.
Top 10 Show Highlights:
[00:12] Matt and Yeadon open with the real question: “Why do I watch porn when I’m not even aroused?”
[01:34] Breaking the myth: it’s not about sex, it’s about emotional pain and avoidance.
[02:04] A look at how stress, boredom, anxiety, and loneliness fuel compulsive porn use.
[03:57] Calling out the lie of the “high sex drive” narrative—porn is not about libido.
[05:12] Yeadon shares how emotional overwhelm led to habitual porn use in his past.
[06:50] The role of awareness and the HALT check-in: hungry, angry, lonely, tired.
[08:42] “Porn almost works”—why short-term relief keeps you stuck in the cycle.
[10:12] Training the brain to face pain: how to sit with discomfort and not run.
[12:57] Practical tools: breathwork, cold showers, movement, and brotherhood.
[15:26] Emotional intelligence: learning to respond, not react—and how to begin that journey.
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