EP 104: Why Do I Watch Porn Even When I'm not Horny?
Release Date: 05/07/2025
EP 132: The Daily Maintenance of a Recovered Man
The Porn to Purpose Podcast
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose Podcast, we unpack a powerful real-life story that connects recovery, fatherhood, and the deeper purpose behind breaking free from porn. What started as a simple morning moment—an 18-year-old son asking his dad to come collect eggs—turned into a vivid metaphor for the recovery journey itself. The story reveals that it’s never about the eggs… it’s about connection. Coach Yeadon shares how this ordinary moment with his son became a mirror for his own healing. He reflects on the front-loaded work of recovery—the early struggle to rebuild...
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EP 131: How Recovery Skills Build Real Adulthood
The Porn to Purpose Podcast
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose Podcast, Coach Yeadon flies solo to dive deep into one of the most overlooked dimensions of recovery: how the skills that free you from porn also build the foundation of real manhood. After 20 years of marriage and watching his son step into adulthood, Yeadon reflects on what it actually means to become a man—and how his recovery journey reshaped his ability to lead, love, and live with integrity. This episode isn’t just about quitting porn—it’s about taking ownership, building emotional discipline, and creating systems that produce real...
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EP 130: The Power of Community in Porn Recovery
The Porn to Purpose Podcast
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose Podcast, I sat down with Coach Yeadon to unpack one of the most overlooked truths in recovery: you can’t do this alone. For years, both of us tried to fight the battle against porn in isolation—relying on willpower, self-discipline, and secrecy. But in this conversation, we reveal why isolation is the silent killer of progress and how true transformation happens only in brotherhood. We break down the three pillars that make recovery sustainable—community, accountability, and healing—and share how each of these transforms shame into strength....
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EP 129: Real Life Stress Test
The Porn to Purpose Podcast
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose Podcast, I sat down with Coach Yeadon to unpack one of the most eye-opening truths in recovery: it’s not a porn problem — it’s a pain problem. What started as a personal story about his father’s emergency heart surgery turned into a powerful reflection on how emotional pain drives addictive behavior—and how true recovery means learning to face discomfort without reaching for the “digital pain pill.” Yeadon opens up about walking through one of the most emotionally charged weeks of his life and realizing how far his recovery had brought...
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EP 128: Exposing Your Ambush Zones
The Porn to Purpose Podcast
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, I sat down with Coach Yeadon to talk about ambush zones—those predictable traps where porn temptation strikes hardest. Whether it’s late-night screen time, a lonely hotel room, or the stress after a fight at home, these moments can derail recovery if you’re not prepared. We share raw stories from our own lives, unpack why willpower almost never works, and show you how awareness, safeguards, and accountability can turn these hidden dangers into preventable victories. Top 10 Show Highlights: [00:28] Matt introduces the theme of...
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EP 127: You Can't Outsource Your Recovery
The Porn to Purpose Podcast
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, Coach Yeadon and I dig into one of the hardest truths about recovery—you can’t outsource your recovery. We’ve all tried filters, accountability partners, and silver-bullet solutions, hoping something outside of us would fix the problem. But the truth is, porn isn’t the real issue—it’s the pain underneath. And unless you face that pain, do the daily reps, and rewire your brain, you’ll stay stuck in the same cycle. This conversation is about progress over perfection, why sobriety is not the same as recovery, and what it really...
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EP 126: Three Things That I Learned in 12-Step Recovery
The Porn to Purpose Podcast
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, I’m joined by Coach Yeadon as we dive into the raw truths we’ve learned from years of battling porn addiction and walking through 12-Step recovery. What started as skepticism toward “powerlessness” and the phrase “I’m an addict” eventually revealed itself as life-changing wisdom. Together, we unpack the difference between sobriety and recovery, why streaks aren’t enough, and how the power of community and radical honesty destroys shame at its root. This episode is not about theory—it’s about the hard-earned lessons that...
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EP 125: What Pørn Addiction Is Really Costing You: The Hidden Stakes Every Man Must Face
The Porn to Purpose Podcast
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, I sat down with Coach Yeadon for a raw, unfiltered conversation about what’s really at stake when we stay trapped in pørn addiction. This isn’t just about lust or habit — it’s about marriage, fatherhood, legacy, and who we are when no one’s looking. Coach Yeadon shares his own journey of being stuck in a double life for 17 years. As a former youth minister battling secret addiction, he unpacks the fear of exposure, the slow collapse of intimacy, and the crushing weight of shame. Most powerfully, he reveals how his pørn use...
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EP 124: From Food to Fantasy: Coping Mechanisms in Addiction Recovery
The Porn to Purpose Podcast
In today’s episode of the Pørn to Purpose podcast, we reveal the real reason you keep going back to pørn—and it’s not about sex. It’s about emotional pain, unhealed wounds, and the need to escape. We draw a powerful parallel between food addiction and pørn addiction, using the lens of the Biggest Loser documentary. Just like food isn’t the real problem for a food addict, pørn isn’t your problem either—it’s the pill you take to numb what you’re not ready to feel. Whether you're dealing with stress, loneliness, rejection, or shame... this episode breaks down why most...
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EP 123: Fathering Your Inner Child: The Missing Key in Pørn Addiction Recovery
The Porn to Purpose Podcast
In today’s episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, I sat down with Coach Yeadon to unpack a powerful story that unexpectedly cracked open a deeper truth about healing. What started as a simple moment—getting the family dog from his son’s bed—turned into a vivid example of how the inner child still lives in us, how triggers hijack our nervous system, and how porn has historically been our escape hatch when emotional chaos strikes. We explore how recovery isn’t about managing behavior—it’s about learning to respond to the fear, shame, and panic that still live in the body. Yeadon...
info_outlineIn today’s episode of the "Porn to Purpose" podcast, I’m joined by Coach Yeadon as we dive into a question many of us have silently asked ourselves: “Why am I watching porn even when I’m not even horny?” This episode explores the deeper emotional drivers behind porn addiction—stress, anxiety, loneliness, fear, and emotional exhaustion—and why porn becomes our default coping mechanism.
Together, we unpack the truth that porn use often has little to do with sex and everything to do with emotional avoidance. We look at how this habit develops, why it “almost works,” and how we’ve been misled into thinking we just have a high sex drive. The truth is, unmet emotional needs are what drive most compulsive behaviors.
Yeadon and I also share practical tools and powerful mindset shifts to help you build the capacity to sit with discomfort, regulate your nervous system, and begin choosing healthier ways to meet your needs. Whether you’re just starting out or deep in the work, this conversation offers real insight, emotional clarity, and an invitation to rise above old patterns.
Top 10 Show Highlights:
[00:12] Matt and Yeadon open with the real question: “Why do I watch porn when I’m not even aroused?”
[01:34] Breaking the myth: it’s not about sex, it’s about emotional pain and avoidance.
[02:04] A look at how stress, boredom, anxiety, and loneliness fuel compulsive porn use.
[03:57] Calling out the lie of the “high sex drive” narrative—porn is not about libido.
[05:12] Yeadon shares how emotional overwhelm led to habitual porn use in his past.
[06:50] The role of awareness and the HALT check-in: hungry, angry, lonely, tired.
[08:42] “Porn almost works”—why short-term relief keeps you stuck in the cycle.
[10:12] Training the brain to face pain: how to sit with discomfort and not run.
[12:57] Practical tools: breathwork, cold showers, movement, and brotherhood.
[15:26] Emotional intelligence: learning to respond, not react—and how to begin that journey.
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