Topic Roulette | Maintenance: The Things That Keep Us Going
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This episode introduces a new format I’m calling Topic Roulette — where I pull one word and let it take me wherever it wants to go. Today’s word is maintenance. We usually think of maintenance as something boring or inconvenient. But the more I sat with it, the more I realized how much of life quietly depends on it. Relationships, friendships, work, and even our sense of self don’t fall apart all at once — they fade when they’re no longer maintained. In this episode, I think out loud about the unglamorous, often invisible work it takes to keep things alive. Not to fix them. Not to...
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The Waiting Game: Not Yet or Never?
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Some seasons of life don’t come with clear answers. In this episode of Unpack My Brain, I sit with the discomfort of waiting — the kind where nothing feels like a clear yes or a definite no. Just… stuck in between. I share my personal experience of being in a waiting season, the confusion and frustration that comes with it, and the quiet ways it starts to affect how you see yourself. We unpack what it means to wait without clarity, to question whether something is “not yet” or “never,” and how exhausting it can be to keep showing up when you don’t know what you’re waiting...
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Welcome to Unpack My Brain!
In our first episode, I talk a little bit about how this show is going to be. And not so little later, we went a little deep to talk through the feeling that hits after the excitement of New Year’s resolutions fades — when motivation turns into overwhelm and expectations start to feel heavy.
This episode isn’t about productivity hacks or fixing yourself. It’s about slowing down, sitting with uncertainty, and reminding ourselves that feeli
info_outlineSome seasons of life don’t come with clear answers.
In this episode of Unpack My Brain, I sit with the discomfort of waiting — the kind where nothing feels like a clear yes or a definite no. Just… stuck in between.
I share my personal experience of being in a waiting season, the confusion and frustration that comes with it, and the quiet ways it starts to affect how you see yourself. We unpack what it means to wait without clarity, to question whether something is “not yet” or “never,” and how exhausting it can be to keep showing up when you don’t know what you’re waiting for.
This isn’t an episode about patience quotes or trusting the process perfectly. It’s a real-time reflection on uncertainty, expectation, and learning how to exist in the in-between without losing yourself.
In this episode, we unpack:
- What the “waiting game” actually feels like in real life
- The confusion between not yet and never
- How waiting can quietly impact confidence and identity
- The frustration of wanting clarity but not getting answers
- My personal interpretation of my waiting — and how I’m choosing to approach it differently
A gentle reminder from this episode
Waiting doesn’t mean you’ve failed.
It doesn’t mean you’re incapable.
Sometimes it just means you’re in a season that hasn’t explained itself yet.
If you’re honest with yourself — what are you waiting for right now?
And what would it look like to stop treating this season as wasted time?
If this episode resonated with you, follow Unpack My Brain and come back next time as we continue unpacking life, one thought at a time.
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