When ROCD Feels Too Real: A Man’s ROCD Journey (ft. Cameron)
Awaken into Love Podcast
What happens when relationship doubt feels so real you believe you have to leave? In this episode of Awaken Into Love, Kiyomi sits down with Cameron to explore his lived experience with Relationship OCD (ROCD), from the moment doubt appeared early in his relationship, to the shame, emotional suppression, and fear that followed. Cameron shares what it was like navigating ROCD as a man, including the pressure to “stay strong,” the belief that emotions were something to fix, and the deep confusion that arises when love and anxiety collide. Together, we explore why ROCD feels so convincing,...
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How I Almost Lost My Relationship To ROCD/RA (ft. Martina)
Awaken into Love Podcast
Today, Manon (Awaken into Love Director) sits with Martina, a longtime Awaken into Love ROCD/RA community member and HOME member (our ROCD/RA peer-support group) whose journey will resonate with anyone who has ever questioned their relationship, doubted their feelings, or felt shame about their intrusive thoughts. In this deeply vulnerable conversation, Martina shares how ROCD first showed up three days into her relationship, how misunderstandings from therapists intensified her anxiety, and how years later, during a stressful life transition, her symptoms resurfaced in painful and confusing...
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What if I Outgrow My Partner? I feel stuck, I want to expand! (ROCD/Relationship Anxiety)
Awaken into Love Podcast
In this episode of Awaken into Love, Kiyomi dives into one of the biggest and most confusing parts of life with ROCD: expansion. How do you grow, evolve, and follow your purpose when your mind is constantly pulling you back into fear and doubt? We explore: The paradox of wanting change while fearing it Common fears around outgrowing your partner or making the wrong choice How society’s messages about purpose can trigger obsessive thinking Why community is core medicine for OCD and ROCD Expansion doesn’t have to mean leaving your partner behind — it can mean opening to more...
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Am I the Only One STILL Struggling? (Thriving With ROCD/OCD)
Awaken into Love Podcast
We’re back for season 2 of the Awaken into Love podcast! In this first episode, Kiyomi and Manon explore what it really means to thrive with OCD and ROCD, beyond perfectionism, societal pressure, and comparison. This is the first part of the conversation. For the complete VIP episode, our Thriving Masterclass, and the LIVE deepening circle on Sept 27, join us inside our new membership: Awaken into Life. --- Awaken into Life If you are ready to explore LIFE beyond ROCD/OCD and find deeper love, peace, purpose, and community.
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How I Saved Myself and My Relationship (ft. Kim)
Awaken into Love Podcast
In this new episode, we sit down with Kim, a beloved member of the Awaken Into Love community, to talk about her powerful journey through ROCD (Relationship OCD), anxiety, and healing. Kim opens up about discovering ROCD later in life after years of uncertainty, perfectionism, and self-doubt—and how the Awaken Into Love course and peer support community (formerly KIC, now HOME) helped her find clarity, resilience, and ultimately, love. Kim shares: -Her early experiences with OCD, spiritual scrupulosity, and hyper-responsibility -The grief of missed connections and a life spent waiting for...
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I Thought I Was Crazy...Until I Found About ROCD (ft. Sherin)
Awaken into Love Podcast
In this new episode led by Manon, our Director & ROCD/RA Expert at Awaken into Love, Sherin (Awaken into Love Graduate & Member of Our HOME peer-support group) shares her struggles with Relationship Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (ROCD), detailing the shame and guilt that accompanied her feelings of disconnection from her partner. After two years of suffering in silence, discovering the existence of ROCD brought immense relief and a sense of validation. Through her journey at Awaken into Love, she learned the importance of self-trust and self-compassion, recognizing that her intrusive...
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17 Years Later: How ROCD/RA Changed My Life (ft. Kiyomi)
Awaken into Love Podcast
In this deeply personal episode, Kiyomi reflects on the journey that began in 2017 with her first vulnerable video about Relationship OCD (ROCD). She shares how that one act of courage has grown into a global movement through Awaken into Love, helping thousands find words for their pain and a path toward healing. Kiyomi revisits her journals, old Facebook photos, and memories from 17 years of living with ROCD. She shares how her pain became a portal for transformation—not just for herself, but for thousands of others around the world. She introduces the four core pillars of Awaken into...
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What if ROCD Ruins My Partners Life? (Ft. Isla)
Awaken into Love Podcast
🎙 In this powerful and vulnerable episode of the Awaken into Love Podcast, Manon sits down with Isla, a graduate of the ROCD course and former member of HOME, our peer support group (formerly known as KIC). From a small seaside town in Scotland, Isla opens up about her six-year journey with ROCD, retroactive jealousy OCD, neurodivergence (ADHD and exploring autism), and the hidden grief beneath obsessive thoughts. She shares how ROCD impacted all of her long-term relationships, how not knowing what she was experiencing made her feel broken, and how finally putting a name to it transformed...
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"How I Broke Free from Relationship OCD/ Relationship Anxiety" (ft. Monica)
Awaken into Love Podcast
In this heartfelt episode of the Awaken into Love Podcast, host Manon (Awaken into Love Director) sits down with Monica, a cherished member of the Awaken into Love community, to discuss her transformative journey through Relationship OCD (ROCD). Monica shares her story of discovering ROCD after a challenging period in her relationship and how she learned to navigate OCD, anxiety, and depression. Through supportive community and personal exploration, she moved from a place of fear and self-doubt to one of empowerment and self-compassion. This episode explores the power of community, the...
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Navigating Big Life Decisions with Your Partner (ft. Jillian)
Awaken into Love Podcast
How do you navigate big life decisions when you experience Relationship OCD? How do you make "big" steps when you experience thoughts that tell you to run? Maybe you're thinking about comitting deeper, moving into together, getting engaged, getting married, having a baby, getting a pet together or maybe it's another transition that doesn't seem "big" in societies standards. Whatever it is! This is for you. In this podcast episode, Jilian, our Awaken into Love Coach and Colorado therapist talks about how to use this period as a way to come closer and not further apart. Meet Jillian...
info_outlineIn this unique, three-person podcast episode, Kiyomi, Alexis, and Manon speak about the ONE surprising thing that will help you heal and integrate faster with Relationship OCD & Relationship Anxiety: Community. They talk about why group and community work is so crucial for healing, why we aren’t meant to heal alone and why we need others, the science behind community and healing, why we need community with ROCD/Relationship Anxiety, why people who don’t have a strong community, are more prone to project to their partners to fulfill that gap, why lack of community can lead to more ROCD/Relationship Anxiety and so much more!
(Psst: We are also celebrating Alexis being back! We have some bonuses for you at rocdcourse.com)