Ep 9: My Miscarriage Story

Disclaimers:

This episode may contain sensitive topics related to miscarriage, infertility, and infant loss. If these subjects are triggering for you, please listen with care. While there may be conversations about medications or medical treatments, I am not a doctor, and I am not offering any medical advice. Please consult an actual doctor for your own medical care.

There are some types of pain you don’t want to forget, pain that comes from love and loss. In the months following my miscarriage, I couldn’t help but try to hold on to every memory–learning I was pregnant, hearing the heartbeat, even losing my baby. It hurts to remember those times, but holding those memories close and sharing them with the world have helped me heal in more ways than I can count.

In today’s episode, I’m sharing the full story of my miscarriage. I’m sharing how it felt to be pregnant after over a year of infertilityand how I had to come to terms with the possibility of a miscarriage. I’m also opening up about what it was like to hear the worst news I could have imagined and how my husband and I made it through the days and weeks following my D&C. Finally, I’m sharing how I keep the memory of my baby, Poppy, alive as I continue on my conception journey.

What’s in this episode:

• [1:09] Why I think it’s important to talk about miscarriage and infertility
• [7:00] How my memory of my miscarriage has evolved as I’ve gotten further from it
• [8:20] My pregnancy experience and coming to terms with the possibility of a miscarriage
• [14:56] Receiving good news and communicating my experience with family and friends
• [21:12] Hearing that I had miscarried and managing that appointment without my husband
• [25:36] Why I’m glad I told my family about my pregnancy, even after I lost it
• [29:40] Struggling to take care of myself immediately following my miscarriage
• [34:02] My D&C and recovery experience
• [38:57] How I’ve been processing not being able to bury my baby
• [44:38] Finding comfort with my husband and how he worked through his grief
• [49:30] The hormone drop and depression after my miscarriage
• [53:34] How I’ve processed my grief over time
• [59:41] Holding on to my memories of my baby, Poppy

If you’ve struggled on your healing journey after a miscarriage and want to feel less alone, I invite you to tune in to this episode.

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