From Dark Night to Divine Light: A New Year Homecoming

There are some moments when my life gently asks me to sit down, soften, feel and tell the truth. This solo episode of Season 14 marks a moment, recorded at sunset in Santa Fe, opening under the theme Dark Night to Divine Light. 

This episode is a quiet, powerful homecoming and nourishing personal reflection of why I have returned to solo episodes and why I coach. Not from theory. Not from branding. But from lived experience, grief, integration, and devotion to Truth.

In this tender and revealing episode, I explore what happens when we stop suppressing our feelings and stop performing to keep others happy. I speak about how every time we abandon a part of ourselves, that separation echoes outward into our relationships. And how, when we bring those parts home, something in us finally rests. Our nervous system softens. Our presence deepens. Our intimacy becomes real. This is what it means to meet ourselves, so we can be truly met by another. 

I share about moving into my new home in Santa Fe after seven years of living nomadically, and the grief that arose when I let go of a dream that did not unfold the way I once imagined. The grief associated with accepting life as it is, rather than how I hoped it would be, made me melancholy. And yet that acceptance became a doorway to peace, power and deeper alignment.

This episode explores why living in the “why?” keeps us stuck in our heads, spinning in analysis, while avoiding the feelings that actually want our presence. I speak about the alchemy that happens when we allow ourselves to feel fully. Pain does not just pass. It transforms. Shame becomes wisdom. Betrayal becomes clarity. Fear becomes embodied knowing. We are MORE from feeling. 

I share client stories that illustrate this truth, from individuals learning to come home to their bodies after years of over-intellectualizing, to couples transforming their relationships through radical honesty, presence, and community witnessing. From a young man whose nervous system finally found safety, to couples renewing vows not from obligation but from Soul Truth.

Throughout the episode, I return again and again to the heart of my work. Coaching is not about fixing or saving. It is about walking with someone into the places they thought were unfeelable, staying present, and bowing to their courage as they reclaim themselves. It is about integrity, ownership and humility. I cannot ask someone to do what I am unwilling to do myself.

This solo is also a meditation on the mystery and the beauty of NOT knowing. I reflect on how the question “What if?” does not have to lead to worse case scenario fear. It can lead to wonder. What if it turns out better than you ever imagined? What if love finds you? What if your presence becomes the answer to someone else’s prayer? 

This episode is an invitation to live with your heart splayed wide open. To welcome your darkness and your light, to be with it all. To remember that intimacy begins within, and that when we come home to ourselves, we discover we were never separate from the Divine at all.

Thank you for being here. I love you with all my heart.

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