Fertile Ground: A mind-body approach to getting pregnant - without it taking over your life.
You’ve done everything “right.” Now it’s time to do what actually works. Fertile Ground is where you’ll learn the mind-body approach proven to increase your chances of pregnancy by 55% — not through more tracking or control, but through rebuilding trust in yourself, your body, and life itself. It’s a space to slow down, feel what’s real, and trade control for connection. Because when you stop trying to earn your baby through effort and start allowing life to meet you halfway — everything falls into place.
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Episode 169 - HELD IN HER STORIES: Dana Stopped Waiting. Life Didn’t.
12/16/2025
Episode 169 - HELD IN HER STORIES: Dana Stopped Waiting. Life Didn’t.
Okay so this isn’t one of those “just checking in 😇” message. It’s the last day to join FMBM. Like, ever. No reopening. No “maybe later.” It’s *closing time* 🎶 And I wanted to send something that actually felt like me. Which is why I’m ending the HELD IN HER STORIES series with a story from a lovely FMBM graduate, Dana. Dana talks about how, very quickly into TTC, the pressure took over. How age narratives, fear, and scarcity turned something so special into an emergency. She joined FMBM because even more than wanting a baby, she wanted herself back. ⭐️How surrender sounded nice… but felt impossible. ⭐️How reading my book gave her the first sense of relief she’d felt in a long time. ⭐️And how joining FMBM didn’t magically make things easy – but gave her a place where she didn’t have to pretend she had it together – so she could unravel what wasn’t working. What stood out most to me in this conversation is how clearly she describes the shift: Nothing changed because she tried harder. Things changed because she stopped fighting herself. FMBM gave her the space, support, and surrender to face the fear underneath the urgency, and to learn how to be with uncertainty w/o turning on herself. And guess what? She’s now weeks away from giving birth 🥹 But the part that matters most to me? She learned how to trust herself before life resolved anything. That’s the heart of Fertility Mind-Body Mastery. Not just getting pregnant. But knowing you can feel relief on the way to what you want the most. You can stop waiting to get your life back ❤️ So if you’ve been listening… reading… circling… If something in your body keeps saying this feels different — I just want you to know: This is the absolute last day to join Fertility Mind-Body Mastery. And my honest question for you is: Do you want to keep resisting this experience… or meet yourself inside it? 👉 LISTEN NOW!
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Episode 168 - HELD IN HER STORIES: Chelsea’s leap of faith.
12/09/2025
Episode 168 - HELD IN HER STORIES: Chelsea’s leap of faith.
If you’ve ever hit that one-year mark and thought, “Okay. That’s it. Something’s wrong with me…” this episode is going to land in all the cells of your body. In today’s Held in Her Stories episode, I sit down with Chelsea — one of the incredible women inside Fertility Mind-Body Mastery — and she lets you into the real behind-the-scenes of her journey: Not the polished Instagram version. The crying to a friend because it’s been a year version. The buying every book, every supplement, every device version. The “I’ll try anything that worked for someone else” version. You know… the human version. Inside this episode, we go there: The moment she realized she’d spent so much money trying to “do it right”… and why none of it actually touched the part of her that was truly hurting What it really means to be “in tune” with yourself when you’re TTC (hint: it does not mean you’re pregnant yet, and it does not mean you never have fearful thoughts) The HUGE shift that happened when she stopped outsourcing her decisions to doctors, family, and the internet — and started trusting her own channel again The wild sign she and her husband received on a hill in San Francisco… from a dog… with the exact name they want to give their baby 😭 How FMBM helped her go from critiquing her body (former dancer life, mirror always on “what’s wrong”) to thanking her body for a cycle and feeling her emotions as proof that she’s alive This isn’t a story about someone who did one mindset shift and got pregnant overnight. This is about a woman who reclaimed her self-trust, her body, her voice, her creativity, and her life while still on the journey to her baby. Meaning, you don’t have to keep waiting to feel good. Listen if… You’ve bought all the things, done all the things, and still feel like you’re failing somehow You secretly believe you have to be perfectly healed / perfectly positive / perfectly self-loving before your baby will come You’re tired of fertility content that talks at you instead of making you feel less alone and less broken This episode is a love letter to the part of you that is so done performing and so ready to be loved and accepted — exactly as you are. Let it release all that tension while you go for a walk, fold laundry, or lie in bed doing absolutely nothing productive. You get to be human here. AND incredibly fertile. 👉 LISTEN NOW!
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Episode 167 - HELD IN HER STORIES: How Macey took the baby off the pedestal.
12/02/2025
Episode 167 - HELD IN HER STORIES: How Macey took the baby off the pedestal.
If you’ve ever thought… ⭐️“I should be further along by now.” ⭐️“Once I finally get pregnant, then I’ll feel okay.” ⭐️“If I don’t control this, it won’t happen…” …then this week’s Fertile Ground episode is for you. It’s part of my Held in Her Stories series — real women, real fertility journeys — and this one with my client Macey is… a lot. In the best, most honest way. Macey got pregnant the very first month she tried. Then she miscarried two months later. She was still bleeding from her loss when her best friends announced their pregnancy — the friends she had always dreamed of being pregnant with at the same time. From there, she went straight into:“I need to get pregnant again. I need to catch up. I need that baby back. Once I get that baby, I’ll be okay.” Every period felt like reliving the miscarriage. Every cycle felt like proof she had “failed” again. Until she found my book Fertile Ground, and then joined Fertility Mind-Body Mastery — not because she was in a good place, but because she was miserable and would’ve tried anything to feel even a tiny bit of peace again. (Hint: You don’t have to feel perfect to ask for help!) In this episode, Macey shares: The moment she realised her suffering was coming more from her perspective than from her circumstances. How she went from obsessively needing a baby to realising, “If I never had kids, my life is actually… beautiful.” The difference between clean grief (“I’m sad this didn’t happen”) and dirty grief (“I messed up, I failed again”). How she stopped treating her body like an enemy and started seeing it as a teammate. The wild month she genuinely found herself looking forward to her period — not because she didn’t want a baby, but because she knew she could hold herself through whatever came. Why getting a puppy instead of waiting for a “hypothetical baby” became a nervous-system-level turning point… and what happened right after. 😉 This is not a before-and-after “I suffered, then I did this program, and now everything is perfect” story. It’s a story about: ✨Letting go of the pressure to prove you’re worthy. ✨Taking the baby off the pedestal (without pretending you don’t want it). ✨Learning that you don’t have to be “doing more” to deserve love, support, or a beautiful life. ✨What it actually looks like to get your life back while you’re still on the fertility journey. If your heart has been heavy lately… If the holidays amplify the ache… If you feel like everyone else is “moving on with their lives” while you’re stuck in baby limbo… I would love for you to curl up with a tea, take a deep breath, and listen to this conversation. It’s soooo healing! 👉 LISTEN NOW!
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Episode 166 - HELD IN HIS + HER STORIES: Rebuilding trust in your marriage while TTC
11/25/2025
Episode 166 - HELD IN HIS + HER STORIES: Rebuilding trust in your marriage while TTC
If we’re honest… for a lot of us, TTC quietly turns our partner into a project. Did you take your vitamins? Don’t get in the hot tub. Drink more water. Not that beer. Let me just manage literally everything so this can finally work. On top of tracking, appointments, and Google spirals… you end up carrying the mental load for you, your body, and your partner. And suddenly, the person you fell in love with feels more like… a fertility coworker you’re constantly correcting. 😬 Today’s podcast is medicine for that part of the journey. 🎧 New episode: Held in His & Her Stories — with my husband, Dan. In this episode, I bring my husband Dan (yes, the famous spreadsheet-loving money guy 😉) onto the mic to talk about: What happens in a marriage when control becomes your default survival strategy How our differences (he’s a doer, I’m a feeler) almost pulled us apart… and then became our superpower Why healthy conflict is not a sign something’s wrong, but the doorway to deeper intimacy What it actually feels like, from a man’s perspective, when he’s being micromanaged vs. trusted The quiet, very un-Instagrammable power of vulnerability — and how it made our marriage feel like a dream again (his words, not mine 🥹) We also share really honest stories about resentment, asking for what you need, emotional check-ins, and the moment I stopped being “mom” to my husband… and started letting him rise as my partner again. If you’ve ever thought: “If I don’t control this, it won’t happen.” “If I let go, everything will fall apart.” “I’m exhausted from holding all of this by myself…” …this episode is for you. And if your partner is open to it, this is a beautiful episode to listen to together. Let it be a starting point for one honest conversation about what you each need right now. LISTEN NOW!
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Episode 165 - HELD IN HER STORIES: When control stops working
11/18/2025
Episode 165 - HELD IN HER STORIES: When control stops working
Ahhh – you don’t want to miss this one! The 2nd episode in our HELD IN HER STORIES series is for the woman who’s smart (Like, scientist smart), resourced, doing all the things… and still feeling anxious underneath it all. Today I’m talking to a member of FMBM with a PhD who came into fertility like it was a science experiment — 5 rounds of IVF, deep in the research, treating her body like a problem to solve. And then she walked through IVF and miscarriage… and had to learn how to trust her body again after loss. This convo is raw and so, so validating. We get into: That belief: “If I don’t control every detail, it won’t work” — and how it actually creates more contraction in the body Anxiety and OCD on the fertility journey (we actually name it) and what it looks like to stop resisting the resistance. Moving from “I can think my way out of this” to “my body is telling me in real time what it needs” Rebuilding trust after loss And the sweetest part: creating relationship with baby before they arrive (her French blue nursery curtains are iconic) She said: “I realized how much I withheld love for myself. Once I let myself have it, I became a better wife, daughter, and future mom.” And I have to say it plainly: what she learned inside Fertility Mind-Body Mastery was how to love herself before becoming a mother — so she didn’t need a positive pregnancy test to give her permission to do it. The amazing news? Self-love isn’t just a cute concept — it’s biology. Because when you start loving yourself, your body finally feels safe. Your nervous system settles. Your hormones find balance. Your heart opens up to receive life again. LISTEN NOW!
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Episode 164 - HELD IN HER STORIES: Amber’s Story – Worth Isn’t a Number
11/11/2025
Episode 164 - HELD IN HER STORIES: Amber’s Story – Worth Isn’t a Number
I’m thrilled to share something brand spankin’ new with you — a special Fertile Ground podcast series called HELD IN HER STORIES. These are real conversations with women inside my program, Fertility Mind-Body Mastery, who are rewriting and rewiring what it means to trust life, their bodies, and themselves. Each story is a living example of what happens when we stop trying to “get it right” and start letting ourselves be held — by the messiness of our emotions, the safety of community, and the unseen forces conspiring in our favor. In today’s chat – I sat down with Amber, a returning FMBM member who got pregnant with her first baby inside the program. She came back — not because she was broken — but because she wanted to see what this fertility, this pregnancy, this baby had in store for her. In this episode, we explore the moment Amber realized she’d tied her value to a number—and how she gently untied it. We talk about why we so often think we’re failing when we’re really not, and the difference between shame-based self-awareness and compassionate self-awareness — how one closes you while the other opens you. You’ll also hear what joy actually feels like in the body (think: grilled cheeses, pumpkin carving, laughter at the park) and why receiving your real life now isn’t “giving up” but actually getting you closer. Plus, we dive into fear vs. desire — letting your desire be just a little louder so your life can change — and how modeling sovereignty for our kids helps them learn to trust themselves, too. “I stopped looking for proof that something was wrong with me, and life got a thousand times easier — even though nothing outside me changed.” If you’ve done all the work and still secretly wonder, “What’s wrong with me?” — this one’s for you. LISTEN NOW!
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Episode 163 - Support doesn’t make you weak —it makes you a f*cking force!
06/24/2025
Episode 163 - Support doesn’t make you weak —it makes you a f*cking force!
Let’s talk about a belief that’s quietly running the show for so many brilliant, high-achieving women trying to conceive: ✨ “If I get support… if I make this easier… then I won’t be/feel worthy of my baby.” I believed that for years. But it’s a bullshit lie — and it’s one that’s keeping way too many brilliant, sensitive women stuck in cycles of shame, burnout, and isolation. In this week’s episode, we’re naming it all. The stigma. The pressure. The perfectionism. And we’re diving into the shocking research that reveals just how little emotional and mental health support women TTC are actually receiving — even though up to 40% meet the criteria for anxiety or depression, and less than 7% get help. Let that sink in. So many women are suffering in silence — doing everything “right” on paper, while quietly breaking inside. In this episode, I share: ✨ Why shame is sneakier than we think — and how it’s the biggest barrier to change. ✨ All the ways perfectionism makes you think you’re being a “responsible good girl” when really, you’ve just been taught you need to prove your worth. ✨ The trap of believing “ease = not enough effort = highly unlikely to create new outcomes” ✨ How “waiting to feel better once you’re pregnant” is secretly delaying what your body needs now This one’s juicy, honest, and full of truth bombs you didn’t know you needed. Listen now! Because support is not a f*cking luxury. It’s part of the medicine. And you don’t have to suffer your way to your baby. Not anymore.
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Episode 162 - My hot take on Unexplained Infertility (It’s not what you think)
06/03/2025
Episode 162 - My hot take on Unexplained Infertility (It’s not what you think)
I’ve noticed more and more people online saying “there’s no such thing as unexplained infertility.” That if you just test enough, fix enough, try enough… you’ll find the root cause. And although that may sound comforting to some — I respectfully and fully — disagree. All those years I was TTC, I do not believe my body was missing something that I could have found in a test. I believe I was being asked to trust something deeper. To stop playing the martyr. To stop micromanaging every second of my life in the name of “doing everything right.” And to start seeing fertility not as a puzzle to solve…but as a relationship to build. This episode isn’t for everyone. But it is for the woman who’s: Tired of being told to focus and search for what’s wrong with her body, her cycle, or her timeline—only to feel more anxious and less hopeful. Noticing that the constant testing and tweaking is affecting her mental health. (Like it was for me) Starting to wonder if there’s another way—because fixing and forcing hasn’t worked, and maybe… just maybe… it’s time to try trusting in the mystery of fertility instead. If that’s you, come listen here. And if you listen and think, “Okay, this is what I want — but how do I actually do that?” Then come join us inside Fertility Mind-Body Mastery. That’s where we take this truth and make it tangible. Where you learn how to regulate your nervous system, trust your body, and create the conditions for life to feel safe to land. No more perfection. No more proving. Just deep trust, steady support, and powerful transformation Listen now!
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Episode 161 - The moment she realized it wasn’t “just her” who wanted this baby…
04/22/2025
Episode 161 - The moment she realized it wasn’t “just her” who wanted this baby…
I have to tell you about one of the most powerful full-circle moments I’ve ever witnessed in my coaching career — and now you get to witness it too. In the latest coaching call of the Fertility Mind-Body Mastery, something magical happened. One of my longtime clients — who just completed her third (!!) round of FMBM — shows up to her very last call… with her newborn baby in her arms Baby Daniel. (Yes — partly named after a good man. My husband Dan, actually ) But that’s not even the most touching part. She opens up about a powerful force she felt all throughout trying to conceive. One she thought was pressure… or obsession… or maybe even her “crazy” for wanting another baby. But the moment she gave birth? That force left her body. And she realized… It was never fear. It was never lack. It was never selfishness. It was love. It was purpose. It was something far bigger than her, moving through her. A divine current saying: I choose you for this And now that Daniel is here, she can feel the peace again. Not because she finally got what she wanted… but because she followed the call. So my love, that’s what this episode is all about: What if your desire isn’t coming from you… but for you? What if that ache isn’t a problem to fix… but a guide to follow? What if you're not crazy for wanting more… but chosen for it? This is one of those episodes that will soften every harsh voice in your head and help you feel safe to trust your desires again — especially if the world tells you you’re asking for too much.
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Episode 160 - When actually getting pregnant feels scary. (Even when you really want the baby)
04/15/2025
Episode 160 - When actually getting pregnant feels scary. (Even when you really want the baby)
Let’s cut the fertility fluff. You say you want the baby. And I 100% believe you. But the real question is: Does your nervous system—the bodyguard of what gets let in—believe it’s actually safe to receive this? This week’s episode is not for the surface-level manifesting girlies. This is for the woman who’s done so damn much and still feels like she’s stuck in fertility purgatory. Because here’s what no one tells you: Sometimes, it’s not the heartbreak you’re scared of anymore. It’s the vulnerability of letting yourself have it. This episode will hit if: You see your baby in a meditation—soft cheeks, tiny toes, you even feel their energy in the room with you—and without even thinking, you snap your eyes open and shake it off like it was too much. Too real. Too soon. You tell your friend, “Honestly, I’m okay either way.” But you feel your throat tighten—because you’re not. Not really. You just don’t want to sound desperate. You told yourself you’d rest today… but suddenly you’ve “accidentally” created a 12-point plan for optimizing your fertility routine again. Spoiler: That’s not self-sabotage. That’s nervous system survival mode just doin’ its thang. This week on the pod, we’re diving into: 4 reasons why receiving can feel like a threat, not a reward. How perfectionism kills your ability to hold paradox which is what regulates your nervous system. And how to stop managing the fertility journey like a job ...and start actually becoming the woman who can let it in that baby! LISTEN NOW! And if this episode lands like truth in your bones? Omg you have to join my new program HELD at It’s where we stop gripping, overthinking, and efforting... and start building real capacity to receive. Because yes, you want the baby. But deep down? You want so much more than that. You want your softness back. Your peace. Your permission to have a full, juicy, supported life And that’s exactly what we’re practicing together inside HELD. We start May 7. It’s $149 Let this be the season you stop pretending you’re fine with “maybe someday.” Let this be the season you become the woman whose God damn ready to receive.
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Episode 159 - Honoring Pregnancy Loss
04/08/2025
Episode 159 - Honoring Pregnancy Loss
If you’re not in the space to hear about pregnancy loss, please take care of yourself and skip this one. But if you’ve been through it—or are in it right now—this is for you. My intention is to honor you. To walk beside you. To name the sacredness of this experience in a world that often doesn’t know how. In this episode, I share my own story: a pregnancy loss I had this past December. I’ve had two healthy boys, and three miscarriages—each one a portal that cracked me open. This most recent one, especially. Not from fear, but from surrender. Pregnancy loss brings you into direct contact with life and death at once. And yet, we don’t freaking talk about it. We don’t honor it. We very often resist it. In this episode, we’ll explore: Why we don’t honor pregnancy loss in our culture (and how that creates suffering) ️How to gently, soulfully honor a loss in your own life Spirit baby communication & what it means to be in equal relationship with that soul ️What to do with the fear of it happening again And 5 beautiful, creative ways to mark your loss with love This isn’t about fixing anything. It’s about witnessing the deeper truth of an experience that is too often shamed and dismissed in our culture. This episode is an offering from my heart to yours. Not to rush you. Not to force meaning. But to remind you that meaning will come. And that you’re not in this alone. Listen to the episode now
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Episode 158 - Entering your season of restoration and receiving
04/01/2025
Episode 158 - Entering your season of restoration and receiving
This week’s episode is for the woman who has been through a lot lately. Has life asked you to carry more than most in the past season of your life? You’ve been the strong one. The responsible one. The one with deep resilience. You still show up — even when your heart feels shattered. Even when no one notices how much you’re really holding. And maybe you’re starting to wonder… What happens if I stop holding it all? What happens if I don’t keep over-giving, over-doing, over-functioning? That’s exactly what we’re talking about on the podcast this week: Entering Your Season of Restoration and Receiving Not because you’re weak. Not because you’ve given up. But because you’re finally wise enough to know… You don’t have to suffer to be worthy of the life you want. We’re unpacking: Why women resist receiving (even when they crave it) The identity shift it takes to feel safe in this new season of your life. What receiving actually means and looks like IRL— on a soul and body level And the truth that might crack your heart wide open: Your desire for your dream life must become bigger than your fear of judgment. This is an invitation to step into a new season. A season where you feel nourished. Supported. Loved. And absolutely fucking worthy of a fabulous dinner out… even if you did nothing all day. This episode is a portal (I’m not kidding. Listen to it and see…) And if you’re ready to be deeply held, to soften your grip, and to trust your body and your path again — come join us inside Fertility Mind-Body Mastery. This is the work. This is the place. This is YOUR season.
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Episode 157 - How mind-body work makes IVF 1000x better
03/25/2025
Episode 157 - How mind-body work makes IVF 1000x better
Out of 156 podcast episodes, I’ve never done one on IVF—which is honestly kind of wild. And if I’m being really honest with you… I think it’s because I’ve been so careful with this topic. I know how deeply emotional IVF is, and I never want to add to anyone’s pain. But this year, I made a promise to myself: to speak my truth fully. Because when I hold back out of fear, I also hold back from the women who need to hear this message. Here’s the truth: IVF isn’t just a medical process—it’s a deeply emotional one. And yet, so much of the focus is on numbers, medications, and test results… while no one asks how you’re actually feeling in all of this. I know firsthand how easy it is to attach your worth to your IVF outcome. I’ve lived the shame of feeling like my body was failing me. But the most powerful shift I made—the one that changed everything—was realizing this: Your worth has nothing to do with how your baby comes to you. You are not broken. You have done nothing wrong. IVF isn’t something happening to you—it’s something you’re choosing (more about this inside of the podcast) and that shift alone is game-changing. When you approach IVF from this place—not from fear, but from deep trust in yourself—it doesn’t justfeel better… There's ample research that it improves outcomes. Studies have shown that when IVF patients apply mind-body tools, it leads to a higher quality of life and improved pregnancy rates. And yet, most women go through this process without knowing how to take care of themselves through it all. Not on my watch! In this episode, I break down: The shame so many women carry around IVF (and how to release it) The small but massive mind-body shifts that can transform your experience Why mind-body work isn’t about “being calm” but about staying connected to yourself How to move through IVF feeling stronger, not smaller. If you’re thinking about IVF, going through it, or trying to heal from it—this episode is for you.
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Episode 156 - You can hold space for your future baby, and still hold space for yourself
03/18/2025
Episode 156 - You can hold space for your future baby, and still hold space for yourself
This weekend, something happened with my sweet 17-year-old Yorkie-Poo, Abby, that really hit me hard and made me reflect on how we all react to uncertainty. As we got ready for our Sunday family walk, Abby did something she’s never done before — she sat there, refusing to move. For the first time in her life, she didn’t want to go for a walk. I panicked: Shit. My girl is really slowing down. What does this mean about the future? In that moment, I was flooded with fear—not just about her future, but about my own. The uncertainty of what was happening to her made me feel unsafe. I didn’t want to feel the grief of it all. It triggered a primal response in me to freeze. I felt paralyzed by all of my emotions. And it reminded me so much of how I used to feel when TTC… The fertility journey can bring up the same emotions. You’re hit with so much uncertainty, and suddenly you just feel totally overwhelmed with all of these flavors of emotions, that you can barely freakin’ move. And in those moments, life feels completely on hold. We all have those moments when we feel like…”Bah, it’s just all too much!” And I remember when I was TTC, spending hours in bed, just wanting to stare at the ceiling for the rest of the unforeseen future. Even the smallest tasks of going for a neighborhood walk felt like too much work. But just because you WANT to freeze, doesn’t mean you can't retrain your nervous system to keepflowing – despite uncertainty. It’s about choosing a different, more compassionate RESPONSE when you are feeling yourself freeze –even when everything inside you is telling you to pump the brakes. In today’s podcast, I’m talking about how to navigate those moments when you feel stuck and frozen in place: Why you freeze when faced with uncertainty and how to understand it. How to soften the freeze response without forcing yourself to feel better right away. How to keep living your life despite uncertainty/grief/sadness — even when you don’t feel “ready.” How to know if you’re avoiding feeling how you really feel. Redefine what ‘honoring your fertility journey’ looks like, so that you can still feel safe to live your life, despite not being pregnant yet. (And how this actually increases fertility) This podcast will show you how to let go of the pause button, finally press PLAY and get back to doing what you love—while still holding space for the unknown. A life skill you’ll have forever, promised to bring you so much peace Listen to the full 30 min episode now!
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Episode 155 - Breaking free from a transactional relationship with your body
03/11/2025
Episode 155 - Breaking free from a transactional relationship with your body
I want to ask you a hard question: How’s your relationship with your body right now? No, really. How are you actually treating it? In today’s episode of the Fertile Ground podcast, I’m breaking down something that’s been on my mind for a while: how women have been conditioned to have a transactional relationship with their bodies. We’ve ALL been taught that our bodies are like machines. That they’re here to serve us. That they somehow OWE us. To perform when we tell them to. To fit into these narrow boxes of what “healthy” and “acceptable” look like. And when they don’t? We judge. We criticize. We ignore. We disconnect. How many times have you caught yourself thinking things like: - “I’ll rest only if I see everything done.” - “I’ll love my body only if it gets pregnant.” - “I’ll trust it only if it behaves how the doctor wants it to.” That’s the transactional thinking I’m talking about. It says to your body (who by the way, is a living, breathing ecosystem) “I will only be in a relationship with you, if you give me what I want”—and that’s not how I think you actually WANT to be in relationship with your body When we stop fighting against our bodies, when we stop seeing them as broken or unworthy of love UNTIL "fill in the blank" then we open up a space for healing—physically, emotionally, and spiritually. And it’sthis healing that can have a profound impact on fertility. Click here to listen to this podcast now!
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Episode 154 - From Type-A to Ommm: How yoga can set you FREE with Jen Edmonds
03/04/2025
Episode 154 - From Type-A to Ommm: How yoga can set you FREE with Jen Edmonds
I know what you’re thinking. Yoga? For fertility? How the hell is lying on a mat and breathing supposed to help when you get pregnant when you're not even breaking a sweat? When every part of you feels like you need to be doing more, trying harder, pushing through? That’s exactly why I invited Jennifer Edmunds onto the Fertile Ground Podcast—to flip the script on what the 5000 year old 🤯 practice of yoga is really about. (dude that’s SO old!) When Jen was TTC, she used yoga – not as a means to an end – but as a way to slow down the urgency, come back to the power of her body, and—shockingly—to do less to create more. She shares how yoga helps her and the women she works with, to regulate their nervous system, regulate their cycles, and get pregnant after loss and IVF. My favorite part? She calls out the BS of pushing through the ebbs and flows of your monthly cycle like a goddamn man. Newsflash: You’re not supposed to have energy all month long. She teaches you why honoring your body’s cycles makes you more powerful—not less. She breaks down: 🤰The numerous different diagnoses she had and eventually, still was able to create 2 beautiful children. 🧘♀️ Alternative ways to measure progress on your fertility journey that actually make you feel like you’re killin’ it. ⚡️ Why more effort isn’t always the answer (and how that mindset is draining you). 💥 How yoga teaches you to respond to pain instead of fear it. This episode is exactly what you need if you’re sick of feeling like you’re never doing enough. Listen now 🎧 Let’s disrupt the hustle.
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Episode 153 - The Manifestation Mirror – Why it feels like the Universe is giving you crickets
02/25/2025
Episode 153 - The Manifestation Mirror – Why it feels like the Universe is giving you crickets
Does it feel like the Universe is giving you the silent treatment? You’re doing sooo much and yet – you’re hearing crickets… WTF…am I right? It just doesn’t feel like there’s any proof that things are working I remember the grief that came with every cycle and the belief that if I just did more—restricted myself more, stayed home more, or moved to a fucking forest— then I’d have more control. In this week’s podcast, I’m challenging that belief. What if those "crickets" aren't really crickets? What if they’re a reflection—a mirror from the Universe inviting you to see yourself and your life more clearly. In this episode, I’m diving into: The concept of manifestation, but not the kind that leaves you feeling like you’re never good enough or that you have to be perfect to receive what you want. Why do women believe “the more I sacrifice, the more I deserve?” Some freakin’ amazing journal prompts to get you closer to your truth. How to expand your nervous system capacity for pregnancy. If you’re tired of feeling like you’re being ignored by the Universe, tune in. Cause YOU’RE NOT! Let’s break down this idea of "nothing happening" and reveal the truth that there’s so much more going on beneath the surface.
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Episode 152 - Interview with Kaitlyn: She tried everything. The real work was the one thing she avoided
02/18/2025
Episode 152 - Interview with Kaitlyn: She tried everything. The real work was the one thing she avoided
Kaitlyn had been TTC for five years. Five years of doing everything "right." Five years of putting her emotions aside and pushing through. Five years of trying to bepositive because she thought feeling anything else would ruin her chances. So when her best friend got pregnant unexpectedly (without even trying), she wanted to be happy for her. But instead, she felt a wave of anger so strong it scared her. Then came the shame. She told herself she shouldn’t feel this way. That she was being a bad friend and wrong for having strong emotions. But here’s what no one tells you: Shaming and suppressing emotions doesn’t make them go away. It just makes them louder in other ways. When Kaitlyn found Fertility Mind-Body Mastery, she didn’t know if she could open up about all of this. She worried she’d be judged. That maybe she was the problem. But when she imagined joining, her body felt lighter and relieved. When she imagined staying where she was, her body felt heavy and overwhelmed. That was the first time she really listened to herself and her body. And inside this week’s podcast episode, she shares what happened next… 💛 How she stopped feeling broken every time something didn’t go as planned. 💛 How she learned to ask for what she needed instead of shutting down. 💛 The HUGE impact of guilt vs. shame on your nervous system (and why it matters for fertility). 💛 How the “homework” inside FMBM isn’t just theory. You’ll learn all the different ways it changes your real life immediately. The biggest shift? She stopped treating her emotions like the enemy. And in doing so, she stopped treatingherself like the enemy. If you’ve ever felt like your feelings were too big, too much, or just “in the way” of getting pregnant—this episode is for you. ✨ Listen now ✨
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Episode 151 - Bringing LIFE back to the fertility journey
02/11/2025
Episode 151 - Bringing LIFE back to the fertility journey
I know what it’s like to feel like you have to earn your baby by walkin' that tightrope of perfection. (That’s literally what it felt like for me…) But to be blunt: perfectionism doesn’t create life. It kills it. It takes your humanity—your emotions, your sadness, your joy, your utter aliveness—and convinces you that because you feel things, then you’re "not there yet". That your humanity is the problem. That if you just try harder and control yourself more… then maybe it will finally happen if you're a good enough girl. I want you to take a deep breath with me right now. What if there’s a new approach to getting pregnant that is rearing its head to disrupt the fertility industries subliminal expectations of perfection? This week on the Fertile Ground podcast, I’m talking about how perfectionism sneaks into the fertility journey, where the hell it comes from (not you), how it impacts your nervous system, and most importantly—how to bring life back to the journey of conception. Because here’s the truth: The more alive you feel now, the better your chances are for conceiving life. I know the approach I talk about inside of this podcast is different. I know that learning to accept your imperfections sounds wildly wrong to a particularly egoic part of your brain (and lovely to your body). And I know it goes against the grain of 90% of what "fertility experts" are saying. But I also know, from my 8 years TTC and the women inside Fertility Mind-Body Mastery, that it works to realizing: That you are whole now. Helps tremendously to cope with the ups and downs of the fertility journey. It increases the likelihood of conception by up to 55%. Who the hell wouldn’t want that? Win-win. Badabing. Badaboom. So if you’re tired of feeling like nothing you do is ever enough… I invite you to listen to this episode. And if it wakes up your aliveness, know that Fertility Mind-Body Mastery is open for enrollment. Inside, you’ll be treated like a human And learn simple yet powerful mind-body tools to step out of perfectionism and into trust, so you can create a life (and a baby) from a place of wholeness now.
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Episode 150 - Interview with Eva: Imperfect and still…got pregnant
12/10/2024
Episode 150 - Interview with Eva: Imperfect and still…got pregnant
Perfection is a big f*cking fat lie. I know. It’s tough. Every day, that little voice in your head whispers: “If you just do everything right, you’ll avoid pain and only feel immense pleasure.” And this belief is holding you hostage. (Just like it did to me, for years while TTC.) This BELIEF is making your journey feel like an uphill battle – and no matter how hard you push for “perfection,” your dreams of pregnancy will always seem just out of reach. I’m calling out the myth that has you stuck, confused and blaming yourself,, and I’m bringing in someone who cracked the perfectionist code. Meet Eva – the woman who thought a perfect career, house, body, and even a “perfect” baby would bring her peace. For years, she ignored her nervous system’s signals, pushing for that impossible perfection. And what did she get in return? Exhaustion. Shame. And a constant feeling of "not enough." But then Eva joined my program, Fertility Mind-Body Mastery (link here Vanessa), and everything (slowly) shifted. Here’s what she learned: You are not broken. (Like, actually.) She realized while being a part of the FMBM community and hearing other women’s coaching, that your thoughts and struggles are normal and not a sign of something wrong with you. It's just cultural conditioning trying to sell you a lie. Pain is not the enemy. It’s part of life. Stop trying to avoid it – feel it, process it, and watch it pass way faster. You are allowed to rest. It’s not about pushing harder, it’s about listening to your body and honoring what it truly needs. Perfection is overrated. You’ll never be perfect. But you are already worthy of everything you want – right now. Eva now knows how to show up for herself – even when things feel messy. (She gives plenty of examples of this in the podcast) And guess what? She got pregnant with a baby girl inside the program If you’re utterly exhausted striving for the unattainable and ready to finally let go of the pressure to be perfect, it’s time to get on board. Listen to this week’s podcast now: Imperfect and Still… Got Pregnant, and hear Eva’s in depth, super vulnerable full story. Then, make 2025 the year you stop trying to “do it all right” and start embracing the messy, powerful, beautiful woman you already are. Join Fertility Mind-Body Mastery today. You don’t need perfection. You need you.
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Episode 149 - Self-Love Series Part 1: The Second Arrow
11/26/2024
Episode 149 - Self-Love Series Part 1: The Second Arrow
Here’s a question for you: When you think about your fertility journey, what comes to mind? The tests, the memories, the treatments, the hope and disappointment... all of it, right? But what if I told you that the real key to navigating this journey isn’t just about those things? What if the missing piece to creating the life you want is something a little more unexpected? And deeper? It might sound a little strange, but hear me out. In the first Fertile Ground podcast episode of my Self-Love Series, I’m diving deep into the one thing that has the power to transform how you approach not just fertility—but your life as a whole. It’s not something you can just Google or buy in a bottle, and it’s definitely not another “hack” or quick fix. The medicine: It’s learning to truly love yourself – even… or better put especially in the hard times, the triggers, the times when you really need… you. And I don’t mean the “treat yourself” kind of love. It goes beyond taking a bubble bath. I’m talking about the kind of compassionate self-love that helps you feel safe in your own skin, trust your body, and—believe it or not — attract (not chase) the outcomes you truly desire. If you’re feeling like you’ve tried everything on your fertility journey, but still haven’t found peace, or if you’re just exhausted by the emotional rollercoaster… then this episode is for you. This isn't about feeling good enough once you’ve reached some milestone or goal. It’s about being enough, right now—on the journey and realizing that when you embrace yourself fully, your body can actually relax, heal, and flow in a way that might surprise you. Curious to hear more? Click here to listen!
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Episode 148 - Interview with Kari: How to own your pace and block out “hurry up” culture
11/19/2024
Episode 148 - Interview with Kari: How to own your pace and block out “hurry up” culture
This week, I interviewed Kari on the Fertile Ground podcast – a woman I’ve never personally worked with – but I admired on social media for years while she so openly navigated trying for baby #2 as an influencer online. Something was different about her… She seemed to give less fucks. She had immense vulnerability, but a ton of confidence. Two qualities that are hard to come by on the TTC journey (and embodying these 2 qualities is something I actively teach women inside of my program Fertility Mind-Body Mastery.) I asked to interview her on the podcast because I thought, “MY PEOPLE NEED TO KNOW HER SECRET to giving less fucks.” EVEN when you’re approaching your 40th birthday! She describes her journey, her thoughts, her unique perspective… very well. Kari’s story isn’t just about fertility—it’s about life and trusting yourself through all the highs and lows. On this week’s podcast, here’s what you’ll discover: How to own your pace and block out “hurry up” culture. Setting boundaries that protect your peace (this one’s huge!). Embracing both pain and pleasure, right here and now. Powerful no BS guidance for TTC women at 40. Listen to this podcast – especially if you feel stuck, alone, or pressured to “figure it out” ASAP. Kari’s story is a reminder that it’s okay to move at your pace and listen to what you need. Click here to listen and get ready for an episode full of raw insights, resilience, girl talk and even a few laughs.
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Episode 147 - LIVE COACHING: Stressed about making the “right” decision?
10/29/2024
Episode 147 - LIVE COACHING: Stressed about making the “right” decision?
My wonderful client was worrying about making the “right” decision. She was thinking about switching jobs, but had a lot of fears… What if this is the wrong decision? How do I know if it’s the right decision? What if I fuck everything up? How do I know I can trust myself? Today – you’re in for a treat because I’m releasing a 10 minute clip from our Fertility Mind-Body Mastery call for this week’s new Fertile Ground podcast. This will give you a really great idea of what it’s like to be coached by me inside of our group coaching ️You’ll notice that on the calls, you get all the time you need. ️The calls are not super serious. We cover a lot of ground and get straight to the point, but the process is really joyful. ️Why Fertility Mind-Body Mastery is about building trust in YOU. It’s not about needing me. It’s about knowing that you have everything you need inside of you. This program teaches you just how brilliant you are. ️We don’t just coach on fertility. We coach about anything and everything. It all relates to fertility. Because fertility = LIFE! On this week’s new podcast: Stressed about making the right decision? You’ll learn: How to chart uncertain waters. Why perfectionism keeps you stuck. How other categories of your life can apply to your fertility journey. How my coaching helps you let go of control. You’ll learn that I don’t guide you to the “right” answers, but help you reveal the answer from your higher self. Listen now!
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Episode 146 - Rediscovering hope after the long haul
10/22/2024
Episode 146 - Rediscovering hope after the long haul
TTC for years feels… well… unfair, unclear and kinda unbelievable. I’m sure you’ve tried almost everything — but despite your efforts, still find yourself counting yourself out each month. If this is you, you’re gonna want to tune into the newest Fertile Ground podcast… Imagine this: You’ve been on this rollercoaster for years, you’ve peed on the sticks, you’ve taken your temps, you’ve spoken to psychic’s and you’ve kept your feet up high after sex (yup, been there!). But now after years of TTC, you’re not even bothering to do much of what you started doing when you were just a wee baby TTC, because it just feels like what’s the point? Trust me, I get it. After 8 long years of trying, that feeling is so real. The pressure to try something new, to get it perfect and that fear of getting your hopes up after years of rejection— it’s a lot! BUT… What if I told you that the key to turning this around isn’t about trying harder? It’s about opening your heart again even if it’s terrifying. In this episode – Rediscovering hope after the long haul – I dish out some real talk on why simply having sex doesn’t mean you’re truly open to getting pregnant. Spoiler alert: It’s all about vulnerability, and yes, this episode might be a bit of a big sister kick in the ass (in the most loving way, of course!). We’ll explore how to create a safe space for your heart, why it’s crucial to embrace the uncertainty of the TWW, and how to infuse some joy into your life right now—because you’re worthy of it (even if you don’t feel like you are )! Curious? I promise you won’t want to miss this. Click here to listen to the episode and get ready for some laughs, insights, and maybe even a few tears. Hit play, and let’s dive in!
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Episode 145 - Interview with Ingrid: How to trust that you're on the right path to baby
10/15/2024
Episode 145 - Interview with Ingrid: How to trust that you're on the right path to baby
To the outside world, Ingrid’s life looked organized, normal and joyful – but internally, she was feeling lost, alone and living in her head. After trying fertility teas, frantically researching the “next things to try” and experiencing 2 heartbreaking miscarriages – she knew she needed to try something different that wouldn't cause her more anxiety. Having a scientific, logical perspective on life – Ingrid was curious about my program Fertility Mind-Body Mastery but was scared about something… She was worried about the vulnerable piece. She feared what would happen in our group coaching calls and if she would belong and feel safe after everything she’d been through. Which in my opinion is super valid and it's why I share with you these types of podcasts. In this week’s Fertile Ground podcast episode, Ingrid shares a very honest perspective of what her time inside of Fertility Mind-Body Mastery was really like. Ingrid bravely and vulnerably reveals with you: How she went from a self-proclaimed control freak… to a totally surrendered state. (Even when her hubby was wanting to “do more”) The very specific way she knew she was on the right track, even though she hasn’t seen any physical proof yet. What finally clicked to help her get pregnant naturally (and is now 22 weeks pregnant!) She says, “I’m very fact driven and I often think – if I can understand concepts of surrender with my brain then it’ll work – but when you actually properly embody surrender in your body… it feels like the most amazing breath out. And like this weight that is taken off of your shoulders. It’s a peace and calm that I had not felt in such a long time.” Learn how she did it and how exactly you can do it too, in this week’s episode. Listen now!
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Episode 144 - Are you taking action towards your baby, from love or from a wound?
10/08/2024
Episode 144 - Are you taking action towards your baby, from love or from a wound?
Have you ever caught yourself wondering if all the actions you’re taking—doctor visits, acupuncture appts., constant diet adjustments, or endless google/instagram research — is truly helping? Or… are they just distractions from deeper feelings you might have about yourself and your fertility? I spent 8 long years caught in that loop, thinking that if I just did more, I’d finally get what I wanted. But the truth is, it wasn’t about doing more… it was about something MUCH deeper In today’s kick off episode of the new season of the Fertile Ground podcast – we dive into a crucial question: Are you taking action towards your baby, from love or from a wound? I share my own struggles with this question, and how I learned to take action from a completely different energy that I believe made the journey 1000 times easier, made me happier AND more fertile. This isn’t about shaming yourself for feeling overwhelmed or lost. It’s about recognizing that you can shift your energy from a wounded state—where you believe you need to prove your worth with a positive test—to a loving one, where you learn to embrace who you are, quirks, diagnosis, years TTC and all. Trust me when I say: This particular topic inside of this podcast will save you years of heartache. Curious? You’ll discover powerful steps to start choosing love over fear, including: 3 steps to take to take action from love over a wound. And how to know the difference. Why your monkey mind is full of shit. And how to spot the BS. 3 questions to ask yourself to build your self-worth. Again, this is what gets you off the TTC By the end of this episode, you’ll not only feel more clear-headed but also more connected to your body. Plus, I share how you can dive deeper into this work with my program, Fertility Mind-Body Mastery. Imagine waking up every morning feeling like you’ve already found what you’re looking for, even though you’re not pregnant… YET! Please don’t miss this episode. Listen now and let’s journey together.
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Episode 143 - Expanding your nervous system capacity for pregnancy
06/25/2024
Episode 143 - Expanding your nervous system capacity for pregnancy
I was coaching my radiantly pregnant (45 year old) mama inside of our FMBM coaching call, and she had been sold the same lie that I was while TTC. That pregnancy (and motherhood) are a walk in the park and that you should be beaming with gratitude 24/7 and that everyday you should feel like you’re JLo in the middle of one of her romance movies. Cute, bubbly, daily blow-out hair style and almost fearless. So when we get pregnant – and we wake up dry heaving with just enough energy to put together a quick bread and cheese sammie, while anxiously anticipating the next ultrasound – we wonder if there’s something that we’re doing wrong. Luckily for my client, all the tools she’s learned to become pregnant, she is now applying to pregnancy. She’s primed her nervous system for pregnancy, before it even happened. She’s feeling more equipped for the sensations she’s experiencing in pregnancy. Here’s one thing I want you to take in and if you do… things can change for you real fast: Your fertility journey is here to expand your energetic capacity for pregnancy – by training your nervous system to tolerate a greater range of sensation. This is important to know because we all experience challenges, intense emotions and uncertainty while TTC. And we respond to these experiences with resistance and thoughts like, “This shouldn’t be happening to me.” or “I shouldn’t be feeling this way.” or worst, “I can’t do this.” when you absolutely can ❤️ These sacred moments are grooming your mind and body for conception. I recorded a podcast – Expanding your nervous system capacity for pregnancy – to explain more deeply what I mean, how to do it and how my program Fertility Mind-Body Mastery was designed to prime your nervous system for both peace and pregnancy. This one will blow your mind and make your life a helluva lot easier. Listen now!
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Episode 142 - It’s okay to do the fertility journey differently
06/18/2024
Episode 142 - It’s okay to do the fertility journey differently
One of the main teachings inside of my book, Fertile Ground, is that: There are 1000’s of different paths you can take to conceive your baby The problem is that we get caught up in how we’re supposed to do it according to culture and the mainstream fertility industry. For example, think about how people usually talk about getting ahead in education and business. Most people will tell you the way to go is to head off to a four-year college and get that degree. But there are tons of other routes, like vocational training, online courses, or just learning on your own. Mark Zuckerberg and Steve Jobs are both college dropouts. Beyonce and Oprah didn’t even bother. There is another way. Life is a LOT more abundant than that one, narrow path culture convinces you to take. Problem is, most people stick to the traditional and “acceptable” way of doing things, even though there are plenty of other paths that will lead to a similar (if not better) destination. We’re trained to do this, even if the mainstream path causes: Burnout Stress Overwhelm Or just doesn’t feel right. This week’s podcast is to reveal to you that there is another way to your baby. Another approach. I know – first hand – how scary it is so go against how everyone else is doing it. But I also know – first hand – that I would not be where I am today, if I continued to follow what everyone else did. Me and my nature were not made for the normal way of doing things. And if you’re reading this, I don’t think you were either. We’re safe to be different. Ready to feel the relief? Click here to listen to this week’s podcast and build the safety you need to do things your own damn way.
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Episode 141 - Healing fertility burnout
06/11/2024
Episode 141 - Healing fertility burnout
As you’re reading this email, I’m most likely sleeping, meditating, oracle card reading or listening to 528 Hz beats while going pen to paper This mama needs a break. I need a break away from producing, promoting, posting, doing, blooming. And I ain’t got no shame. After my book launch and a recent death in my family which has left me quite heart broken, my body is feeling burnt out. And to me, that means, I need (not want… need) a retreat inward. Of course, my socialized self is tempted to bypass this very real, very necessary call to rest. But I’m listening. Because I know that this time and space inward, is where I recharge and receive the most bang on guidance about next steps in my life. I will never find what I’m looking for, outside of myself. I recorded a podcast this week where I share more about this decision, because too many of us are attempting to bloom all year round. When a retreat inwards, could be the exact medicine you need to get happy and/or get pregnant. You are an extension of nature. You have this code inside of you that knows what you need to thrive, to grow (yourself and that belly) and to be the best version of yourself. But you miss this. YOU. MISS. THIS... when you don’t take the time to fold inward and hear what nature wants for you. To learn how to do this, listen to this week’s podcast. The code of your nature has been patiently waiting for you.
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Episode 140 - The invisible workload of women TTC (and how to get your partner involved)
05/21/2024
Episode 140 - The invisible workload of women TTC (and how to get your partner involved)
My husband Dan attended a work conference a couple weekends ago in Banff, Alberta. It was a gathering of female physicians with a focus on mental health. I wasn’t there. But it was a shock to Dan that so many women are struggling getting their partners on board with the day to day tasks that make adulting feel so hard. Women do so much. It’s called the “invisible workload” and it encompasses the intangible and often unnoticed tasks and responsibilities involved in managing a household and even more so in your case, the fertility journey. It’s very common for women to struggle to create a more equal role of responsibility on the fertility journey. Not sharing the responsibility of this journey with your partner adds a ton of pressure to the woman, while also making her feel fully responsible to “make it happen.” This week, I interviewed my husband Dan on the Fertile Ground podcast to create common ground towards a solution. I’m so excited for you to listen! (And omg can I just tell you – I am so in love with this man.) Men are different. They think and do things differently. But this doesn’t mean we can’t come together to achieve our goals and live a beautiful life… where we take on equal roles to make sure everyone is rested and happy TBH, making this transition to equality wasn’t easy for Dan and I. But you can listen and learn from our mistakes This week you will learn the 3 steps on how to create more equality in your partnership: Accept that men and women are different (and why this isn’t a bad thing). Disarm each other when you get activated. How to ask for what you want and need from each other. You’re gonna LOVEEEE this episode! A weight is going to be lifted off of your shoulders. The pressure isn’t yours to hold mama bear. Listen now!
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