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EP 233: A Creative and Curious Life after Childhood Trauma with Jamie Mustard, author of Child X

Sex Birth Trauma with Kimberly Ann Johnson

Release Date: 07/24/2025

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Bio

Jamie Mustard was born into one of the most influential fringe movements in the 1970s: Scientology. Raised on a mythos of spaceships and made to believe that it was his life’s purpose to help save the world, he was determined to survive — not only unsurvivable neglect but also the impossible physical and psychological gauntlet of extreme poverty and illiteracy. Child X (BenBella Books) is a dark existential journey into a deepest hole of human existence and the road back. The unbelievable story of a lost generation of children, Child X takes readers through Mustard’s childhood and adolescence in “the movement,” his daring escape, and his rise into self-possession. With wit and vulnerability, Mustard sheds light on one of the untold, but not uncommon, accounts of a powerful Black family that rose from the ashes of slavery to prominence and wealth, and how the counterculture of the 1960s and 70s caused that rise to crumble. This deeply personal true story gives a child’s-eye view of one of the most notorious American religious movements in history. Despite his family’s success, Jamie would be born a slave and then reborn an artist. Through extraordinary encounters with celebrity, icons, and historical figures, it also powerfully places Black American history in the larger context of world events. A universal story of resilience in the face of overwhelming odds, Child X celebrates yet transcends race — and is ultimately an uplifting, impossible-to-believe story of rising out of adversity and building a life full of meaning and connection. With this book, Mustard continues working to restore his family’s legacy and provides a salient saga of the road to humanity and self-possession.

 

What You’ll Hear:

  • Why Jamie hesitates to call himself a survivor

  • Why Jamie doesn’t refer to Scientology as a cult

  • How an artist and art director dove headlong into trauma research

  • The ins and outs of Stellate Ganglion Block (SGB) treatment for PTSD/PTSI

  • Jamie’s extensive research on PTSD/PTSI treatment modalities

  • Jamie’s encounters with Stephen Porges, Gabor Maté, Peter Lavine, and Daniel Amen, and military psychologists on Fort Bragg.

  • How Scientology’s Mission translates to severe childhood neglect

  • The consequences of Medical neglect for infants

  • The justifications savior-complex-driven parents use to emotionally separate from their child

  • The way that Scientology’s ideology treats feelings and ailments

  • The impact of hiding health issues

  • The power of self-blame

  • How Child X focuses more on the emotional effects than the sensationalist events

  • What are the retaliation tactics of Scientology for speaking out?

  • Jamie’s African-American family history including the Tuskegee Airmen and generations of doctors

 

Links

Website: iconist.ltd

IG: @jamie_mustard (Jamie encourages you to direct any questions to him over DM)

Pre-Order Child X here

Pre-Order Hybred here