And No Birds Sing
My Life in Show Business
John Allen returns to the struggle of saying yes to what is and losing yet again, this time to love. This is not a story about a breakup. It is an elegy for an open wound. traced through memory, music, obsession and the body itself. The heart break is never ending. The stakes are very high. This is the grail wound-a land laid waste where no birds sing- and the only thing that heals it is attention.. There is no advice here .No lesson, No moral. No finger wagging bullshit. There is only witness.
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SIT DOWN SON. FUCK OFF, DAD-A LOVE STORY
My Life in Show Business
John Allen brings his son in as backup in his ongoing argument with what is. My son and I discuss the only relevant questions that really count. How do I get more girls and not get cancelled? Is there an age where it’s just too creepy to keep hitting on the babes? Are all men misogynist? My answer to that one really pissed off my girlfriend now my ex-girlfriend. So totally worth it. I thought the bit about Jesus looking like a twink would’ve been the one, but she didn’t get that far. Other vital questions covered: Are there any topics a twenty-something adult is allowed to talk about in...
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Suffering Is Not a Glitch- Part One
My Life in Show Business
John Allen is back to face what is.
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Because I Do Not Hope to Turn Again
My Life in Show Business
John Allen makes a deal with "what is". Once again 'what is" pulls the football away.
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The Dogs Bark and the Caravan Moves On
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John Allen loses yet again to what is. This time he doesn't even make it to the end of the round.
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Moooooooomy
My Life in Show Business
John Allen losing to what is..
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Not Dead Yet Part 2
My Life in Show Business
John Allen survives yet another battle with "what is".
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Let Your Indulgence Set me Free
My Life in Show Business
Prospero and what is.
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The Hollow Men
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John Allen and what is.
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Snitch Culture
My Life in Show Business
John Allen and what is.
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0:50 Mothers day spike.
1:40 Making jokes as a defence mechanism. Whew LOL
2:25 Lets start with something right off the bat: I don’t know shit
3:32 Everything I have done is for a little bit of time.
4:20 I hate who I am when I am with other people
5:30 Viewer mail: Love me love please love me.
6:01 GPS locating in brain produces lots of good shit.
6:35 The buddhists...LOL
7:26 Gapped out like an old guy or doing a Joe Biden
8:00 Embarrassing moment for me listening to this part...more embarrassing than usual that is.
8:50 The Buddhists again.
9:30 What the fuck is this?
10:15 True confession: I was a rich kid and I didn’t like to suffer.
11:40 The whole point of parenting is that you are going to get it wrong. Whew LOL
11:50 Every action produces good and bad consequences and whether it is good or bad depends on where you are judging it from.
14:00 Viewer mail: Falling off the wagon
15:00 I'm interested in suffering.
16:18 I was an angry guy what can I say?
16:40 I didn’t have to fix the traffic jam.
17:50 You can't die before your time.
18:30 Why all of you are juicing...
20:00 When I get a grab in the stomach I know something is coming.
20:20 Juicing again
21:20 Attention is love
23:00 The sound of mind.
24:31 Drink a bottle of scotch and your mind will slow down and then shut right down when your head hits the table
24:35 Satori. Bliss. Until you wake up in the empty pizza box.
27:30 The fifth of vodka my mother used to hide in the dishwasher
28:15 In this moment we have everything we need or we would be dead.
30:00 Watch
31:13 The one story in the universe. The hurricane that never ends.
31:30 I want to have a drink
34:10 Where do you feel that anxiety?
35:00 Am I proselytizing? Ya think? Asshole LOL
36:00 Labels
36:30 Looking past the image of your foot.
37:03 Don't think about a Pink Elephant
38:15 Oh oh...Why is he doing this? Is this pretentious? Yikes...What do you think this is? Headspace?
41:28 Be with the tree man...Sheesh
42:00 Joe Biden gaffed. I thought it was a good joke. You ain't black. Come on Man...LOL
44:20 Don’t misunderestimate the Trumpster. Remember Steve Atwater.
45:20 "I just lost the south for a generation." LBJ on signing Civil rights Act legislation. He was wrong. Its been three generations.
47:35 You survived so many things that you didn't think you had a shot at...
48:27 Boo hoo
48:30 Some advice and a segue.
50:00 Have I fucked this up? Fifty minutes that's long enough for anybody.
50:19 Didn’t seem to be. Bonus part 2. Really? You have more to say? Lordy
50:35 On the porch after doing some yard work.
52:00 99 percent of people make the dumplings
53:00 The mind is constantly trying to figure shit out.
54:00 The bird singing is technical and adaptive. It had to learn to sing then had to forget what it learned.
55:16 Fuckin' heaven. Maybe I am a hippie.
57:00 Finger waggin'
58:00 Viral cloud of death
59:07 Not here. Not now. No thing